Zachary's New york pizza and Ipecac Cocktail pickel:
There was this time in my life when myself and my former, long term boyfriend would go out weekly for NY style pizza. It was all in good fun, but I always found myself going into, "The zone" whenever I went there to eat, and always spacing out on these dates and eating way to much delish NY pizza with my boyfriend. Then, when I arrived home I would have a stash of Emetic which I would convert into a little,"After Dinner Cocktail." Then about 10 minutes later I would feel as sick as a "Dog with the worst case of the flu."
Only, I didn't have the flu I had a secret way of eating all the NY pizza that I desired, and not gaining any weight,or tummy distention either. I was in, "Total Control" of my weight, and had a secret that I couldn't share with the normal population.
I actually had learned about this rescue method, for over eaters, from my last 2 years in college, majoring in psychology too.
I was so sick of tests and job interviews that this behavior just kind of seemed to be like getting a rough massage that later made one feel relieved. Then my teeth became really sensitive to cold weather, and when I visited my dentist he said that I needed ALL my teeth sealed because I had loads of pits and fissures just waiting to turn into ripe cavities.
He said if I brushed well, daily my enamel should re-mineralize. However, my habit unfortunately also included eating late night snacks like fresh baked goodies, and Hershey Bar Smores. Thus, this went on for years.
The next time I went to the dentist I had loads of cavities on the biting surfaces of my big , formerly beautiful, white molars. I was unfortunately on a budget and had to get a mouthful of ugly silver-mercury containing fillings. My body was also sensitive to mercurey, which led to even more bizarre behaviors and took years of re-training to unlearn the bad behaviors.
Eventually, I was able to have most of the ugly silver fillings replaced with beautiful white filling material. Oh gosh was I ever relieved. Without all that silver and mercury in my mouth I actually felt physically healthier too. Unfortunately they cost a lot of money to replace old fillings, and I had to be extra careful about my eating habits, for I was a bit skeptical of having to endure any further dental treatment.
I also was in need of re-alignment of my teeth from all the rough treatment on my teeth over the years by eating such tough and chewy foods. However, I didn't have the funds for braces after paying for all the basic white restoration fillings that were first needed so badly.
So, now I'm really careful about what I eat, and even of how I chew on foods. I floss weekly, and brush at least once a day. Before, it was hardly at all, since I couldn't concentrate on most things very well, especially taking care of a full mouth of teeth.
All in all, my weight is still a bit on the heavy side, I still eat snacks occasionally, but I work out at a gym almost daily, and eat at least 3 meals a day, and hardly ever eat pizza any more.
Pizza was my trigger food that led me down the wrong road, and wasn't there when I really needed substantially healthy food.
My ex and I also stopped seeing each other, I moved to a totally different town, and had to start living my life for myself, and not eating foods just to be nice to my dates, or to convenience a friend by eating to make them feel OK.
Now, I am older and have some real responsibilities, and am usually quite busy, and not Bulimic. I encounter stress sometimes, but after I moved home I immersed myself in years of therapy. I was involved in support groups, and then in intensive therapy for about 3 years straight.
I went on a diet after re-gaining as I aged, and lost X lbs from hard work, and the assistance of a dietician. I re-gained X pounds which keep me motivated in going to my gym almost daily, after dinner, and the control over my meals, and desserts is much better, as am I.