The Skinny Competition That Lead To Bulimia
It all started about 6 years ago I guess. I went away with my long time good friend. We were 13 and just getting to that age when we were trying to be cool, thin and popular.
My friend was a little smaller than me and I knew that she had issues with eating. On this trip I decided that I would be the 'stronger' person and show the most control with my food. We were away for about 2 weeks and during that time there's no doubt that I lost weight. I felt a sick sort of pride in myself for being more self controlled than her. I'd feel excited if she would eat something and then offer one to me - and I'd turn it down...
Why this awful competition started I do not know - we had always supported each other and tried to help each other... and then this.
Anyway to cut a long story short... My friend took things too far and developed quite serious anorexia/bulimia. because she got so thin - people knew she was sick and got her help...
I was slim - but not overly... Nobody knew there was anything wrong with me. For 6 years I suffered from bulimia... This cruel disorder tried to take my life on a number of occasions.
Finally I decided that I wanted to live again. I wanted to make the most of my life and I just couldn't do that with bulimia.
It wasn't an easy journey, but I got there. 6 months it took to kick the habit. I have slipped up once or twice since then and binged and purged..... But 99% of the time I am healthy - and bulimia is far from my mind. It's amazing.
I'd just like to say to all those suffering: DO NOT give up hope. You can beat bulimia like I did, it might seem hard to believe but thousands have done it before - why are you any different. You are just as strong, important, deserving and beautiful.
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