Sick of this struggle!!!!
I just came to the stark realization that I have had an eating disorder my entire adult life. I've been restrictive eating from the time I was 18 - probably only eating between 1000 - 1500 calories a day -, which developed into bulimia last october. I only was bulimic for six months, but it was definitely enough to wreck my body. I have gained 30 pounds the last year, I have digestive issues, I feel like I'm in a constant memory fog...ugh, so many things. I just want to eat NORMALLY for once...I don't want to count calories, I don't want to obsess on food, I still want to lose weight, because I'm now overweight, but I want to do it healthily. I've started eating every three hours, making sure I'm still taking in good foods but trying to not count calories, and in the two weeks since, I've gained 10 pounds from it (is this even possible??). I'm just fed up with everything surrounding food and my body!!!
I am so sorry you are having a rough time right now... But please persist with your new way of eating... Your metabolism will speed up and you'll settle at your natural weight. It is very normal to gain around 10 pounds of 'fake weight' in recovery... Water and food in your belly account for most of it. Think of it as short term discomfort for long term gain!
Keep it up precious girl - you deserve freedom!
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