Road to Bulimia Recovery
I was bulimic (off and on, but mostly on) for 6 years (I am 26 years old) and am FINALLY on the road to recovery. I would get into a horrible cycle of eating say, a few extra cookies and thinking "oh no! I need to get these out!" but then immediately the next thought is "well, if I am going to purge anyways I might as well make it worth while and eat some more" which would be followed by a huge binge and purge. In reality, I was likely retaining more calories from what was left inside me than the initial few cookies I ate. This cycle continued on and on and I felt like nothing would help me. I gained a lot of weight even though I was throwing up daily.
Even still nobody around me knows, and I don't plan on sharing with anyone, even my incredibly supportive, wonderful boyfriend who I know would be an amazing, I am just too embarassed.
It has taken me years to get to the point where I am now eating well, and exercising and am not getting the urge to binge/purge. What has helped me is planning out my meals way in advance and doing my best to stick to it.
It's not going to happen overnight. Just keep at it, and know that you aren't alone.
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