Overcoming Bulimia (You Can Do It)
I've never told anyone ever about my personal struggle with bulimia. I've now been cured for about 4 years and feel it's time to use my story to help people. I'm now a sophomore in College; I was bulimic from 7th-9th grade. I was just a typical athletic 13 year old who really wasn't even overweight at all. I just wanted to lose a few pounds, no more than X. I have somewhat of an obsessive personality, in the sense that when I truly want something, I have to find a way to be be successful. I had tried losing a few pounds through exercise and eating less and saw no sustainable results. At this point I was weighing myself multiple times a day. Around this time, I had a small stomach virus that caused me to throw a large meal I just had ate. It was at this time I first realized that throwing up had caused me to lose a few pounds. I decided that in order to sustain the weight loss, I should keep throwing up after meals. At that time, I don't think I even realized what I was embarking on was bulimia. All of a sudden I was great at controlling and shedding pounds. Initially it was a good feeling. Then things started to spiral out of control. When I went to the doctor for my annual check up, my mom, dad, and most family members realized something was right. I was in constant denial, even when my mom saw throw up stains on the toilet. My mom started making me weigh in with her weekly. I would try sneaking a few small, heavy objects in my pocket to make her think I weighed more. I got caught doing this. At one point I was 5'8, X ibs. Like most people with eating disorders, I was obsessed with food. I would constantly over eat and throw up. While all this is going on I was also a member of my middle school's cross county and basketball team. Sports have been my passion my whole life. Being on the cross country team was a good excuse for why I was so skinny, after all most cross country runners are very thin. I continued this struggle all the way into the middle of my freshmen year of high school. By this time I had allowed myself to gain a little bit of weight each year. My struggle was never really about my appearance. I just thought in my mind that I had to manually control my weight by throwing up, rather than let my body handle it naturally. In the Spring of my freshmen year, I was about to start my track season. I'm a sprinter who runs the 100m, 200m dashes. I knew that my body was not cut out to be successful in events that require strength and power. It was for this reason that I decided to try out not being bulimic. After a month or two I realized that I didn't need to be bulimic. During the track season, I performed very average; yet looking back very good for someone recovering from an eating disorder. I saw my 3 best friends who were also freshmen perform amazingly and get their Varsity letters. All of sudden I had a new obsession; being a great track athlete. I channeled my same psychological obsessive traits that caused me to become bulimic into someone who was obsessed with being a great athlete. I spent that summer working out religiously, while also eating a healthy diet. I maintained that dedication all through high school. I graduated as a 2 time State Champion and set 2 school records. My picture is up 2 times in the school hall of fame. I even went on to run track division 1 in the Big East Conference. To this day, I have never spoke to anyone about my story. I really don't know how. But I just want everyone who is struggling to know that anything is possible. I went from being anorexic / bulimic to a State Champ and D1 athlete who was known as the strongest sprinter on the team. People who are bulimic or anorexic actually have a special ability to control themselves. My advise is to use that aspect of your personality on trying to achieve a positive, fulfilling goal. You have the power to do anything you want. God Bless.
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