I honestly can't say what lead me to this discusting habit. I've always had insecurities about my body for as long as I remember. My older sister has always been so tiny and I was always slightly bigger than her and it has always bothered me. I'm 18 years old and for the past three years I have tried just about every diet in the book. I've used weight loss pills, laxatives, excessive exercising, and even starving myself. I have attempted to purge in the past,but could never do it. I'm in my freshman year of college and of course my main fear is gainging those dreaded "freshman fifeen." The only thing I eat is fruits and vegetables. Alhough I have started purging months ago, I still feel the need to purge even the healthiest of foods. My friends think I am some sort of health nut,which I am, but they don't know the initial reason for the madness. I honestly don'tknow what to do anymore and I feel trapped. I could'nt bare to tell anyone this dirty little secret..
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