Looking for excuses for bulimia?

by Sara
(USA)

I'm so mad right now because I've yet again, allowed my bulimia to take over. I vented my frustrations to my husband and his response was that I was looking for excuses to binge. You know what? I think he's right. Does anyone else ever feel like they use any issue, big or small as an excuse to engage in eating disorder behavior?

I'm trying so freaking hard to stop the cycle, but I'll make a little progress and then in one second, all of my hard work has gone to hell. I feel like such a huge disappointment and my bulimia is definitely interfering with my marriage. It's putting so much distance between me and my husband and I'm scared that I'll let my bulimia win.

Thanks for reading everyone...just needed to vent a little.