Leaving my stomach behind...
(Napa, CA, USA)
Late at night on the drive home from theater rehearsal I went to a gas station and bought 2 large sized candy bars and a box of cookies. I gorged until my stomach hurt...
I then pulled over to the side of the road and puked it all up into the plastic bag the store clerk had given me. I tied up the bag and tried quickly to think of a place with a garbage can I could abandon my bag of vomit in... just a couple of yards down from when I got back onto the road I saw off in the distance some garbage cans lined up... I impulsively pulled to the side of the road threw my car into park grabbed my bag of vomit and dropped my bag of vomit into someone's recycling bin (late at night it had looked like a garbage bin but was actually a blue recycling bin).
The next day on my way to school I drove by the house and the blue recycling bin was still outside. I was mortified. Especially since, when I put the bag in the bin it was empty.
3 days that bin sat outside and each day I passed it in my car I thought (and I know this sounds strange)... a bag that holds the contents of what used to be in my stomach is in that bin... I thought it over and over.
I feel horrible leaving that for someone to discover... its definitely NOT recyclable!
Thanks so much for sharing your story! I really appreciate you taking the time to share your experiences with others.
I have to agree with you - the people who owned that recycling bin must have been in for a bit of a surprise! They must have been baffled!
It's interesting though... I remember doing almost exactly the same things as you mentioned in your story when I was bulimic... which gets me thinking - how similar are all bulimia sufferers? How alike are we?
I bet we would be good friend if we all got together... there would be such an understanding amongst us!
It also makes me even more sure of one thing:
If I recovered, you can too!
Good luck with everything girl!
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