Junkie...esay...drunk...sure...but bulimia? no way
I can admit to having been a drunk,a junkie, a self harmer. No shame. I paid my dues. But I can't imagine ever being able to admit what I do after I eat. That the only reason I can abstain from heroin and drink and self harm is through purging. That when I gave up drugs and drink and beating myself up, it didn't give me a new life, but simply emptied me of an identity so my identity became being nothing, doing nothing, consuming nothing...and now nothing is all I have and I can't loose that too.
My mum was an anorexic and bulimic. She used to call it her slow suicide. I understand why now. I've done more damage to my body with purging than with heroin and drink and self harm combined. No joke. I'm falling apart.
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