It's so hard to stop
by Amber Hope
I wasn't always bulimic, I recently started seriously becoming bulimic probably two years ago. at first I would only threw up if I ate too much, but then I began to like to purge and eat whatever I want, it was so gratifying and then to realize "oh it's ok I'll just go throw it up." I would pinge and purge 2 or 3 times in a row. I always cursed my Father's genes, because he always ate a lot and for a person for my size I could out eat everyone, and I would still be hungry. what was wrong with me? what is wrong with me? Why do I have such an empty stomach it's stupid, I hate it, so I eat and eat till I am fully satisfied then throw up.
my trick is that I always throw up at the end of the night before I go to sleep so I don't binge again
hmmm will I ever be normal, why can I never be full?
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