I HATE binge eating!
I have been working with an eating disorder team for a little over a month with the goal of overcoming bulimia and other disordered eating patterns.
I have been able to be purge-free for just under a month (Friday will be a full month!) HOWEVER I still cannot beat the binge eating. I have had a handful of "good" days where I've been able to eat 3 balanced meals and snacks, but most days, no matter how good of intentions I have, I end up pigging out--and then trying to compensate by restricting or over-exercising which just leads to more binges.
It doesn't help that I am home for Thanksgiving break right now (I began recovery at my college), and at home sugary, high calorie, binge foods are abundant. I cannot so much as take one bite of so many foods here without eating until I feel like I'm about to explode.
I am constantly bloated, can't fall asleep at night because I'm too full, and am getting depressed and losing hope of recovery.
All I ever hear about is people who magically break the binge/purge cycle and I am getting afraid that I am destined to either be a binge eater for the rest of my life or that I'm going to go back to purging all day long.
Hopefully tomorrow will be a better day.
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