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I am trying to handle this alone.

by Alexandra
(Ohio, USA)

I have not binged/purged in 7 weeks and I am very proud. But the weight gain is taking all my joy for living away. My boyfriend can sense something is wrong, but what us wrong is I don't want him to look at me. I hate how I look and all my clothes are so tight. I am determined to keep this secret, yet I long to tell someone, anyone. But since no one can tell me when I will like my body again, I have a hard time seeing the point. I panic every time I look in the mirror.

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Jun 15, 2011
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bulimia weight gain
by: Shaye

Hi Alexandra!

I know the recovery weight gain which happens to some people (including me) can be hard to push through... But, I promise you, if you keep striving ahead with recovery there will come a day when you are happy with your body again. Try to work on accepting your body for now... Give it thanks for putting up with all the years of bulimia... Give it thanks for being a fighter - a survivor!

And, most importantly - PLEASE buy some clothes that are comfortable and fit you well. Even the tiniest of people will feel grotty when their clothes are too tight. Don't listen to the 'bulimia' talking saying you can't buy bigger clothes. You can! You deserve to be comfortable - and you deserve to be healthy!

Keep pushing ahead - you will get there!

Love
Shaye

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Article by Shaye Boddington
Author of your-bulimia-recovery.com
and creator of The Bulimia Recovery Program and Community

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