how my bulimia started
Growing up my mom has always been a health freak, we never had much candy or sweets in the house. So when I would visit my grandparents in the summer I would stuff myself with as much candy and sweets as possible...
One morning when I was about 12 or so I remember my grandpa telling my I have a tube around my waist, referring to me gaining weight. Then when I got back home my mom freaked and told me I gained weight and had me diet. I lost the weight and everything was fine...
Then I started babysitting and of course I would eat their food and everyone always had junk food and I would eat until I wanted to burst... Then throw up because I felt so full.
This started frequently happening when I was about 17 and has just continued. It used to be only when I would baybsit. Then it turned into a weekly thing and now I overeat and throw up everyday if not several times a day.
It makes me feel like complete shit. I hate it. I want to stop.
I go the whole day without over eating and eathing well. Then I come home and stuff my face full of whatever I can get my hands on, only to throw it up 20 minutes later. I know how horrible it is for me and I can feel it slowly starting to effect me. I want nothing more than to stop this.
I am now 22 years old and still having this issue.
I have decided I need to and am going to stop this horrible illness I am struggling with and I need all the help I can get.
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