Has anyone beat bulimia and then relapsed?
I am 31 years old and have suffered from bulimia and anorexia since I was 19 years old.
My binge purge cycle was basically stuffing my face (I was starving and excersizing obsessively during the day) and throwing up for about 6 hours straight.
I was able to stop the cycle when I gave birth to my beautiful daughter at the age of 21. I finished college and achieved my bachelors, met my current wonderful husband and really thought I had beat it.
I started to have "slips" at the age of 23 not often, but the fact that I had them at all scared me.
I have done things to my body that make me hate myself and now at 31 I know I have almost completely relapsed (now I usually just puke once a day) and I am scared that I will die. I don't want to have brain damage, heart damage, signs of aging etc.
If anyone has ever overcome relapsing and feeling as alone and ashamed of themselves as I do now please tell me. I hate myself.
My husband just things I restrict food, I don't have the heart to tell him I have relapsed again. I know he would support me but I would feel like he wouldn't be able to help being disappointed and disgusted by me.
I need to know that there is hope.
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