Frustrated and grasping for a ED free life
I just found this site and I am so excited about it... Shaye's story gives me hope.
I am 23 going on 24 and I have been bulimic since I was 11. I have been married for about 2 and half years, and my husband just found about about 6 months ago. Bulimia is not only destroying my body, but it is also hurting my marrage. It upsets my husband to see me hurt myself and he doesn't understand why I can't stop - and neither do I!!
Every-time I make myself vomit I tell myself "this will be the last time" but it never is.
If you would have asked me 5 years ago, I would have never DREAMED I would still be struggling with this.
All I want is a binge free life. But I can't seem to stop. I have been in therapy, but I just can't change.
My husband said he does not want to have children with me if I can't stop the bulimia, for my own sake.
It is scary feeling like this is me for the rest of my life. Not to mention I can't stop gaining weight! And I am bloated ALLLL of the time in my fingers, my legs and my tummy!!
I am trying to win at a losing game.
I am happy to have found this site and realize there are others like me.
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