Falling off the bulimia recovery wagon
I am new to this site. I have had bulimia for about 7 years and just recently with the help of my new boyfriend I have managed 3 weeks without any bingeing and purging. This was amazing for me as I had been doing it pretty much every day before that. I felt so good and healthy and the idea of doing it started to seem mad and irrational and then on Sunday I don't know what happened but I felt like I chose to do it - like I wanted to do it and I had a fairly large binge and purge. On Monday I felt really depressed and couldn't stop crying every time I thought about how bad I was, I've felt pretty crap all week since but managed to stay on the straight and narrow. Now it is Saturday and its happened again... Again, I felt like I wanted to do it, I felt like I couldn't eat anything without doing it.
I really don't understand how I can stick to a healthy meal plan quite happily for 3 weeks and now just seem to be slipping back to wanting to binge and purge and not keep anything down when I know it makes me feel 10 times worse.
Anyone else been through anything similar?
Any help is much appreciated :)
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