Dancing in circles - A story of wanting bulimia recovery
I am 20 years old and determined to get serious about recovery...
When I was 18 I suffered from anorexia for about a year going into college. I was realizing that I was pretty thick to be a dancer and I was tired of the guys at school calling me thick and jeering at my butt.
I lost many friends because I never had the energy to go out or see people. My friends and family worried so much about my health and forced me to get better...
Once I started eating normally, I gained some weight and freaked out. Then, after starving myself all day I just binged on all the food I had at my dorm and made myself sick until I threw up...
I realized it was just so easy to throw up whatever I ate....so I continued to do this every day.
Now in my days of anorexia I had abused laxatives alot and after experimenting, I noticed that if I binged and purged at night and then took a laxative and went to bed I would completely empty out the next day, feeling skinnier than ever.
Still a dancer, I find myself doing this process excessively to be the size I want...it has taken over my life and I just want it to stop. I want to love my body again like I used to, and just forget about other people.
I pray every night that I can get better, and am trying to replenish my nutrition and especially to help my thinned out hair...i hope to recover in a couple months....it's a short time frame, but i want to go back to school with a fresh and healthy start!
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