Cooking for one - a sign of bulimia
I have become obsessed with cooking shows and recipe books. Anything to do with food really. I started cutting out recipes that i would rarely use and watching cooking shows whenever i could. Being bulimic makes me want to be able to be around food and have friends and be normal so i fantasise about being a great cook and NOT eating all the food before it gets to the table. I isolate myself alot so I have days where i'll clean the house feel really good and bake a cake like a 1950's housewife. I love baking. It helps me focus on the moment rather than my thoughts but then it all turns bad. As soon as the cake comes out of the oven i'm eating half of the icing waiting for the cake to cool (i've put it in the freezer to speed up the process) then i tell myself just one small, or maybe two small pieces HA! yeah right. I need to get the heck out of the kitchen cos it's too damn hot. Also another sign for me is eating foods with wierd mixes of condiments. In the times when i would restrict i'd try to make the bland food taste as interesting as possible and in the process became a little bit of a condiment addict.
Thanks for allowing me to share my signs x
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