Bulimic at 35...stay at home mom, too!
I have had an eating disorder since I was about 17 years old. It started out as anorexia and somewhere along the line, morphed into bulimia. I was always really ashamed about that, as I felt like I couldn't control my eating like I once was able to. Anyways, around 25 I started counseling and slowly started to not purge anymore, but, I never learned to eat 'normally' again. I would skip meals, not eat, overexercise, eat a TON of sugar...etc. I did get married at 27 and had 4 children (one of the pregnancies was twins). I honestly didn't even think my body would be able to do it, but I took such good care of myself while pregnant and have 4 healthy, beautiful daughters. Yes, 4 girls, go figure. However, I have had a really rough year and about 2 months ago, started the whole binge cycle over again. But this time, I have SOOOO much more at stake, but I cannot stop. I feel so hopeless and I couldn't believe how easily I picked right back up. Honestly, I don't even know how to eat like a normal, 35 year old women. I hate this disorder and I don't wish it upon anyone. I want to get well for me, but mostly for my daughters!!
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