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My Bulimia Stories - The Embarrassing, The Ugly and the plain old weird!

It's not often that you come across bulimia stories. I think it's because bulimics are so ashamed of their disorder that they hide it away at all costs.

...Am I ashamed of my bulimia stories... yes and no.

Yes... because I can still so clearly remember the shame I felt when I was bulimic.

No... because I realize now that overcoming that shame is a large part of recovering.

If you're suffering from bulimia you shouldn't feel ashamed. Decent people won't judge you... That would be like judging somebody who suffers from OCD or Depression... or any other psychological disorder.

To try and help ease some of the shame that I know bulimics feel - I have decided to share some of my bulimia stories. Telling your bulimia stories can actually be a great start to your healing process.

You are not alone - and you're not a freak... There are hundreds of thousands of people just like you around the world... And I was once one of them...

Do You have any emotional, crazy or plain old Bizzarre bulimia stories? Share them with other bulimia sufferers - and let them know that they're not alone!

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My First Bulimic Memory as a child

When I was a kid... I was a little different. I would try to shock people by doing all sorts of weird tricks and stunts. I was a bit of an attention-seeker I guess.

Most of my tricks and stunts were harmless. Yes, they made people look at me sideways, but they weren't overly shocking - despite my efforts!

Until one day, when I was about 7 or 8...

My aunt phoned my mom up. "Do you know" she said "That Shaye threw up her lunch today in front of everyone. She did it on purpose".

Although bulimia in children is uncommon, my aunt was concerned that I was bulimic. I can't blame her... it's a bit of a strange thing for a kid to do for 'fun'! *blush*

Mom talked to me about it and I insisted that it was just a party trick. Because I was always doing strange things, mom believed me. She had no reason not to, because as far as I can remember it was just a party trick. I didn't do it to lose weight. I was a skinny little thing anyway.

However, I do remember on a separate occasion...

It was christmas dinner and there was a DELICIOUS dessert that my Granny had made. Now I mean, top quality... Chocolate Pudding with multi-colored ice-cream. But, after already having eaten dinner and drinking large amounts of fizzy drink...

I was on the verge of popping. I couldn't eat another thing...

...I was so upset - because living in Zimbabwe, we didn't get desserts like this often! I decided that I would sneak into the garden and throw up my food to make more space in my tummy. So I did that... and I didn't really see a problem with it. For some reason, throwing up happened quite easily for me.

I went back inside and ate as much pudding as I could get my hands on. I thought this was a win-win situation.

In time, I clicked onto the fact that this could be a handy way of keeping myself thin...

Bulimia in My Early teens

At the age of 11, I started the sport of springboard diving. I loved it, I lived for it! Within months of starting I was in the Zimbabwe team and got to travel all over the world to compete.

I had a natural talent for it, and a naturally strong physique...

As I entered my early teens I noticed changes starting to happen in my body. I was embarrassed to go to training and get in my swim suit.

These horrific things called boob's started growing on my chest... and God forbid... I started getting hips! I was so ashamed of my new shape that I embarked on a diet to lose the weight I had gained during puberty. My aim was to lose my boobs, hips and bum! These early years in puberty is often when teenage bulimia strikes.

I was by no means big at all. I was 5'4" and weighed about 45 kg's.

Within months of dieting I had dropped off a lot of weight and started looking very thin. Too thin (apparently). My mom and coach started telling me all sorts of horrifying anorexia and bulimia stories. But I didn't listen.

My mom began watching me at meal times. So I would eat. But often, I would sneak off and throw up too.

In time, my weight became steady and I looked healthy. So people stopped harassing me about my weight.

Bulimia and anorexia came and went between the ages of 11-15. It couldn't have been too bad though because I have a lot of excellent and happy memories from this time in my life... and I don't have many bulimia stories that I remember.

At the age of 15, my country - Zimbabwe went down the gurgler. It became a dangerous place to live. The president also declared that he would not go out of power until every white person had left the country. My family, although 3rd generation Zimbabweans - had to leave.

We were to travel to the other side of the world - New Zealand... where we would try to start a new life...

The Trauma of Immigration

Just a girl,
A solitary tear,
Waiting for that moment,
Waiting not to fear.

Free me from this world,
Free me from this pain,
This utter torment,
This world has gone insane.

I see no colors,
I see no hues,
I see no red, I see no blue.

I just see a road,
That goes on forever,
And I'm crawling with this load,
We are bound together...

Click here to read another eating disorder poem that I wrote...

I was in a new country. I knew nobody. I was alone and scared. The majority of people I had known and loved, I would never see again. It was hell.

Immigration had a lot to do with my downward spiral into the hell of bulimia...

Many bulimia stories involve some sort of trauma. Immigration was definitely mine.

I was a vulnerable teenager - who already had eating disorder tendencies - and suddenly I was thrown into a strange world. I tried to fit in by being 'super thin' which resulted in crazy diets that always ended up in massive binge eating sessions.

It took years before I came to terms with being forced to leave Zimbabwe. It messed me up big time!

Back then I didn't see the link between the trauma I had experienced and my bulimia. To me, I was just weak. I had no self-control and I was just a 'pathetic bulimic'.

It makes me sad to think of the self-abuse I used to inflict... I was an empathetic person, but never showed any respect or sympathy to myself.

Bulimia and my sporting career

After immigrating to New Zealand I found the top springboard diving coach in the country. I was well on my way to making the Olympic team - and he would help me get there.

He was Chinese... and although a nice man, he was an extremely hard coach. He had coached many Chinese Olympians. If you have any knowledge on Chinese sports people... You'll know they're a different breed... they're tough as nails!

He was used to Chinese athletes and Chinese physiques. Us Westerners looked big to him... Even though I was 5'6" and only 56 kg's - Which is pretty small as you can see from the picture of me diving above!

My first training session with him he told me that I needed to lose 10 kg's.

I still remember his words in broken English "Augh! 56kg!! Very fat. You need lose 10kg!"

Well... You can imagine what this did to a 15 year old, who had just left her home and moved to a new country... and who already had anorexia and bulimia stories under her belt...

I lost those 10 kg's... but by the time I was finished - there was nothing left of me and I had nothing left to give. My world was now ruled by restricting calories, and throwing up any food I did consume.

I have lots of terrible bulimia stories from this time - here's one that I remember vividly:

One night I had eaten an apple... just 60 calories. I was frantic. I had to get it out of me. I spent an hour after everyone had gone to bed, desperately trying to throw it up. Of course, most of it had been digested and the majority of what I threw up was bile.

By the time I finished my mouth was bleeding and I sobbed myself helplessly to sleep.

All that over an apple....

Bulimia stories, like the one above, happened pretty much on a daily basis.

Needless to say when I was 17 - just 3 months before the Olympic Games (I was in the NZ squad) I packed diving in. I had nothing left to give...

Food, Food and more food!

By the time I was 17 - I no longer restricted what I would eat. My bulimia stories take a more evil turn. I was now a compulsive eater...

I ate to feel better. I ate to numb my mind. I ate just so that I was doing something.

Nobody ever really suspected that I was bulimic. I was so damn good at hiding it. Geez - some of my bulimia tricks were absurd!

Do you want to hear one of my crazy bulimia stories...? Okay... it's embarrassing for me to tell... even now - but here it is...

I'd be sitting on the train on the way back from university. I'd buy a chocolate milk and a chocolate bar (or 2, or 3) before hand. I'd drink and eat them on the train... and then throw them up - into the empty chocolate milk bottle. Insane huh!?

After so many years throwing up - it happened so naturally. I could even do it in public without people noticing.

And here's another humiliating one of my 'compulsive eating' bulimia stories...

One day, I met up with my sister just after I got off the train (Now I told you what I would do on the train)... My sister asked me for a sip of my 'chocolate milk' which as you know was not really chocolate milk anymore! As you can imagine I freaked out. "NO" I yelled... and threw it out the car window. No wonder my family thought I was a little nutty!

Telling bulimia stories like those make me realize how beautiful this bulimia free life is!

I would have to say that it was the compulsive eating years of my bulimia that were by far the worst. The feeling of having no control is horrendous.

My bulimia addiction was out of control. Once - I even vomited in front of everyone! Click here to read the story. (Opens in new window)

Being Bulimic at University.

By the time I was at university, my bulimia had spiraled totally out of control. I was throwing up multiple times an hour... I couldn't stop eating, but I couldn't hold anything in.

If I were getting a degree in 'what the inside of the uni toilets looked like' - I would have graduated with distinction!

But still... nobody knew I was bulimic. I'm sure my mom and dad suspected it. But she didn't know for sure. One thing is certain - she didn't know how bad I was. If she ever reads these bulimia stories - I'm sure she'll be shocked!

When I wasn't at uni, I had to work continually to make money. Bulimia is an expensive illness and I was spending upwards of $40 a day on food.

Uni, eat, puke, eat, work, eat, puke, work, puke, puke, puke, puke, bed.

You can only imagine what that does to the body and mind!

Probably some of the most shameful bulimia stories I have would be from around this time...

I remember stealing food from friends houses, just to get me through the day. It makes me cringe even writing that down for people to read!

Leading up to my recovery - phew!

My illness had become so bad that I was experiencing the terrible physical effects of bulimia. I started to have irregular heart beats. My teeth were rotting away (I had to spend $6000 to get them fixed so that people wouldn't notice!) and my entire body continually ached.

Sometimes I would get such sudden and severe pains in my heart that I would keel over. Deep down, I knew that if I continued like this, I would die - soon.

The dangers in bulimia are very real.

I thought of my mom, having to bash down the bathroom door - to find me lying dead in a pile of my own puke. This thought drove me to send an email that would change my life...

I wrote to the university counselor. I told her a few of my bulimia stories and asked her if she could 'treat' me online. I was too ashamed to go in and see her. She agreed.

Within 1 week she had worked her persuasive magic and I was sitting in her office. I was so damn nervous that I felt like I was going to puke (what was new I guess!) But I had to take control of my life. I had to recover from bulimia...

Opening up about my bulimia to Amanda was an important step in my recovery...

It relieved me of some of the shame I felt about being bulimic.

Talking about my bulimia made me feel strangely empowered...

Suddenly I had somebody on my side, on my team...

From the first day I opened up about my bulimia, I realized the importance of having somebody to report back to about my daily feelings, trials and triumphs...

Bulimia is a tough battle to fight alone, in the isolation of your mind...

This is what inspired me to create The Bulimia Recovery Program and Community...

Just the other day one of the members wrote a blog post that brought me to tears...

She said that she had found the missing link that was keeping her from recovering - "a recovery community and accountability"...

I felt so privileged to be playing a role in her exciting bulimia recovery journey :)

6 years free from bulimia!

I would never have believed it then. Shaye, the bulimic... could recover from this consuming illness... That I could get through a day, a month, a year... 6 years without adding any new bulimia stories to my list!

But I did it. Yes, it was hard. But, you know what... It wasn't as hard as I thought it would be.

Sometimes it would be easy to forget that I was ever bulimic...

I recovered - You can too!

Do any of my bulimia stories sound familiar to yours?

What's that?...Yes?

I thought so! You see, bulimics are all similar... And if one of us can recover - we all can.

You just need to know how to recover - and it helps to have a community to recover with!

Keep putting one foot in front of the other and you will get there!

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I miss being myself
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The beginning of my bulimia
I want to apologize for my bad english , but when I`m in a hurry up , I never check for mistakes. *Im from Bulgaria.

It happened 2 years ago. Im ...

A ballerina's secret; 6 months and counting, but it stops now!
I wasn't really sure how to start this, I don't know what to say except that..i'm bulimic and I need help.

I've always naturally been a very skinny ...

So Ashamed. I feel lost.
I am 27 years old and a mother of two wonderful children. I have been married for 7 years and I have been bulimic for almost 8 years. I started purging ...

Food for the Soul - Elizabeths Anorexia Bulimia Story
Hi!

I've never shared my story beyond family and a few friends...most of which I have lost over the past odd years amidst my battle with Bulimia and ...

from restricting to bulimia...
Growing up, I was the happiest kid. Cheerleading was my life and my passion, I was popular, had a great family, and didn't really care that I was always ...

Eating raw meat
I've always felt so fat compared to all of my friends - they all have such lovely figures and i always felt the obese and out of shape girl in the corner....

My years of self-hate, abuse and meltdown
My friends would probably never believe that I am bulimic because since I was a child, I used to laugh a lot, talk a lot and just be confident and active....

Just a girl with a touch of Bulimia
Hi!

I'm 17 and yes, I did have bulimia for a phase of 4 months, here's the trigger of the emotional rollercoaster that spun out of control and which ...

My (long arduous) recovery journey
Hi Shaye and everyone,
I have been visiting this website for about two months now. I am pretty sure I've read everything on here. This is such an amazing ...

Bulimia Happened so Fast
I used to be the bubbly, excited, energetic, little girl that everyone wanted to be like. My life was full of friends, sports, and having the most fun ...

It just won't go away!!!
I am 23 years old. I live a blessed life. I just finished my fourth year of university at Hawaii Pacific University in Advertising and Public Relations,...

It's time for me to start enjoying the wonderful life that I know I do have...
Hi Shaye,

This was a hard step for me to take, as I've been bulimic for just over 10 years. It's unfortunately grown into such a scary part of myself ...

One month anniversary....and a three day binge
I wrote first about a month ago as have been bulimic for 30 years and was at the point where I HAD to stop it. I went a whole month and on my one month ...

4 days bulimia free!!!
Hi,

I posted my story about 3 months ago. My name is Sara and I have been bulimic for 3 years. I'm 17. And today I proudly come here to say that after ...

Gold medals, straight A's, wedding bells...and bulimia?
I have had a weird relationship with food since I was about 12 years old when I first started running competitively. I always said that I ran because I ...

My Secret Hell - Living (& Hiding) My Bulimia.
At 11 years old I had my first experience of Bulimia. Trying to be sick after a family meal as I felt a little 'chubby', thinking this was a normal thing....

Bulimic little girl
Hi.. I've been bulimic for nine years now. I'm 21 years old. For me, it also started with anorexia but the restriction was too hard and soon I found myself ...

Never too young for an ED.
Bulimia has changed my life.

I never truly admitted to myself that I had a problem.

Im pretty sure the source of my ED problems was when I was ...

The life of a "beauty queen" is far from beautiful
I was fat for most of my life;16 years. Always the "DUFF" designated ugly fat friend. I got sick of being made fun of and lost 50 pounds...

I lost ...

Losing everything because of my bulimia.
My name is Sarah, I am only 20.

I started throwing up when I was thirteen. It slowly progressed into a mind altering self worth killing monster with ...

how my bulimia started
Growing up my mom has always been a health freak, we never had much candy or sweets in the house. So when I would visit my grandparents in the summer I ...

24 Years of bulimia
I am 37 years old and will be 38 in July. This will sound like rambling but here goes. This is also my first "full confession" I have had eating issues ...

7 Years and counting...
My story is not interesting, its sad and pathetic. At the age of 12 I developed faster than all my very pretty, pencil thin friends. In a group of 17 I ...

The purge that ruined my homecoming...
When I was a senior in high school I got asked to homecoming by a super cute football player I had a crush on...

The two of us and a large group of ...

The long tedious journey for a performer... Rebekahs bulimia story
I was the lead in a musical -'The Secret Garden' - Mary, and being young had a doubler 11yrs. One day she said i was so fat I'd break the table - from ...

I am so ashamed of myself..
I have always since I can remember used food as a comfort, but the past few months my binges have intesified and I ate more food than anyone would think ...

If they only knew the real "truth"....
I have been battling bulimia for 13 years, in addition to alcoholism and Bipolar Disorder. While I am sober and continually manage my mental illness, bulimia ...

I don't want to die from bulimia...
I'm posting this story because my boyfriend "anonymously" sent me this website. He signed me up for it, using my e-mail address and name...This is my story:...

Therapy? Is it just me or?
Hi Shaye, and everyone else on here :)

So I have already posted on your website a couple of times before, anyway I've had Bulimia for 2-3 years now ...

My bulimia story
Hi friends...

I'm 22 years old I'm from Venezuela (South America) and I suffer from Bulimia. I've binged and purged for two years almost everyday. Sometimes ...

Bulimia Voices
Fruits and Vegetables (and a little bit Nuts)

"Should I eat a pear? I'm quite hungry... Perhaps I should.

But what if I don't stop eating?

Well....

No to Bulimia - now what???
Hi

I wrote on here back in March when I had not binged or purged for about 2 weeks after having Bulimia for 7 years which meant I was doing it everyday....

Bulimic for over 30 years - Desperate to Change
From reading the other stories on this site which I just came across yesterday, I think I'm the oldest person here. Unfortunately that's because I've ...

Not knowing what my body wants!
I've had bulimia on and off for about five years now. I haven't always made myself sick regularly, although it was always 'on the table'. It's started ...

I can't really believe I'm writing this...
I'm sure that I don't have the worst case of bulimia that there's ever been. But to me, it's my whole life and I hate it so much.

I spend all day worrying ...

my bilimia :$
Well, here goes, I've never told anyone about my "double life" so I'm not really sure what to say, but I guess just want to let go in hope it might help ...

I'm On the Road to Bulimia Recovery
For all of you out there that are just begining your road to recovery, keep persevering. That is what I keep telling myself and even though it hurts to ...

my life as a bulimic
I used to be a secure girl - I was confident and happy in my own skin until I went into highschool...

It was during the christmas holidays in yr 8 ...

Here Goes Nothing - The Start of Justins Bulimia Recovery
My story starts off in high school, 3 years ago. Right now I am a freshman in college, about to wrap up my first year. During this span of time, I have ...

Being honest with myself
Hi there

Ive been following this site for a while, and reading your articles and posts etc. Its all super inspiring. Thanks so much. I have also ...

I am a boy, I have got it all, but bulimia is ruining me.
I am 18 years old and i have been suffering from on and off bulimia for over 2 years. There are very intense phases when I binge and purge several times,...

My Dark Place - Bulimia
My junior year of high school was when I discovered that I was good at cross country and track. It was also when I learned about calories. I remember ...

One spectrum after another
I remember being a bit of a people pleaser growing up. I didn't mind staying in the house and making no friends, so long as my mother was happy with me....

Rediscovering the Happiness I Once Was - Fionas Bulimia Recovery Story
Hello

I am currently sixteen and have only been struggling with bulimia for 5 months...but as we all know, it can cause so much damage in such a short ...

I'm going to eat lunch now - It's nice to know that I won't overeat or throw up.
I was always a child who worried quite a lot. I worried what people thought about me, I worried about crime, I worried about my grades, I worried about ...

I just wish I could control myself - Jessicas Bulimia Story
I have been battling bulimia for over 14 years. It controls my life. I just wish I could control it....

It all started when I was 12 years old. I was ...

RECOVERING FROM BULIMIA! (truly, finally!!!)
Hi all girls out there

I'm Lou, I've been a bulimic for nearly ten years. I mean REALLY BAD REALLY REAAALLLY bulimic (I mean puking in bags and up ...

food body mind ecstasy and hell (and bulimia)
Where to start... I have been denying to myself that I am still a sufferer for the last 4 years at least, only because I binge far less than ever and have ...

Second Attepmt At Beating The Bulimic Bloat
I'm trained in NLP and have been helping (counseling & coaching) people using my "gifts" in that domain for pretty much my entire life... I'm 40 years ...

I'm 51 and recovering from bulimia
Well, my story is much the same as the ones I've read... I began my life of bulimia when I was 15. I've asked myself so many times... Why?...

After ...

I'm 24, in bulimia recovery for 9 years, starting over...
I first decided to throw up on my 15th birthday. After 6 months of violent daily purging, I started throwing up blood and was taken to a treatment center....

Who knew I'd make it this far?
Six weeks. That's how long I've been in recovery. I can hardly believe it - after four years of bulimia, I've made it through the last month and a half ...

Is this really what I've become?
Reading these stories more and more are making me legit cry my eyes out right now. To finally realise I'm the same as ALL of u.

This morning I was X ...

I almost died at 13
The first time I shoved my fingers down my throat I knew I was hooked...

It was the week school got out so I always had time to do it. I am also anorexic,...

How my bulimia started...
When I hit puberty, I developed sooner than all the other girls I knew. I was also taller and larger boned, not fat, but bigger overall. I was athletic,...

I have never told anyone - Hippygirls bulimia story...
I went to India in January 2009 and lost a lot of weight from illness. When I got back, I received so many compliments that it went to my head. I started ...

How do you tell your secret of bulimia to the woman who gave birth to u?
I watch make it or break it and I see how kaley is anorexic and goes to a camp for it, and now it's got me thinking that I want to go to one of those ...

here we go again. i know i can recover....why am i so unmotivated?
Hi,

Does bulimia really have effect on your memory? it's really sad to see myself not remembering small memories I had with my boyfriend like a week ...

Bulimia - The entire thing is awful...
Well hello,

I have had bulimia since I was probably 15, I'm 32 now. It started with me being an overweight kid all though school, until around 8th grade ...

18 Inches is the Longest Stretch - Jessicas story of bulimia and recovery
I've heard stories about people taking the challenge of trying to run the journey across the country. Starting in the west coast, these runners will cross ...

Help! Been Bingeing and Purging all Day!
Let's see... today I ate a moderately sized ice cream sundae with fudge and raspberry sauce, half a container of chocolate cake frosting, half of a cheese ...

I have an amazing friend who wants to and has helped with my bulimia... But, I feel guilty
Dear Shaye,

I have been searching on the internet for ages with regards to bulimia and have yet to find a site which has truly had an affect... I was ...

One step at a time to bulimia recovery
It has been almost 2 weeks since my last purge... And i have binged only 2 times since then which is a big improvement from 5 times a week...

One of ...

On the way to bulimia recovery
I never ever thought I would be writing something like this... Not after 11 years suffering from this terrible terrible life sucking disease - bulimia....

I hate the lies bulimia makes me tell
I don't really know where to begin. I haven't started the "road to recovery" I know I need to but keep making excuses. I have a son - people will take ...

I love food too much to be anorexic
I don't ever recall a time in my life where I haven't feared being "fat" or obsessed over what I have eaten. I remember planning diets at 10 years old,...

Bulimia...The Never-ending Nightmare
I am 17 years old. Since I was 14 there hasn't been a single day -no, not even one- that I haven't thrown up my meals. That's almost a thousand days. I ...

I will recover from bulimia ...
I have been suffering from bulimia for years. I cant really remember when it started but I was a child. I am now 28 and trying hard to recover. Ive done ...

Allys bulimia recovery journey
Shaye,

You are incredible. You have inspired me more than you can imagine, I just woke up one day and stopped with the nonsense, I am nearing into ...

51 years old; bulimic for nearly 30 years!
Here I am, middle aged, and I've been bulimic my entire adult life. Before that, I was just a binge-eater.

The present:
Somehow, I've escaped the ...

So far in my bulimia journey
Yuck. I cant believe I just ate that. What was I thinking?
Go on – go to the bathroom. Get it out.
No I don’t want to do that anymore. But I so shouldn’...

Why me? Rachels bulimia story age 13
Hey guys my names Rachael and I'm 13 years old and I have a bulimic problem. I thought this would solve everything...

I try to go a day with no eating,...

Dear Bulimia
Hi Everyone!

So I've had a couple of bad weeks where I've done a ton of b/p-ing, but now I've decided to get my life back on track.

I found this ...

ash's story, age 13, hooked on bulimia
Before I start I think you should know a bit of who I am...

I knew I'd never be healthy, in one way or another i was sick, both mentally and physically....

I BEAT BULIMIA - The secret to what was keeping me from recovering...
Hey everyone!

I am the person who wrote the story "oops i did it again" who had relapsed. I have very good news! I am officially bulimia free - and ...

The Day My Life Changed Completely - When Bulimia Came In
I started when I was 15 and now I am 18...

I would always think that people with Bulimia or anorexia wouldn't stop because they didn't want to...

The ...

A small bulimia "relapse"...... then life goes on.
Hi Shaye:

Well, a week ago I did binge and purge twice. I remember the first time what started it was Goldfish crackers. I could never resist goldfish ...

How many times can I have my last binge? my last purge?
It has now been 3 years this month since I first became builimic...

I stopped for 4 months this year from september to january but then stress and anxiety ...

Oops, I did it again
I am 16 years old. I've been bulimic/anorexic for a little over a year now but recently, after having to go to in-patient therapy in the hospital and now ...

I just ate a slice of chocolate cake and didn't throw up...
Yes, I feel bloated. Yes, it was several hundred calories with no nutritional value... but it's progress.

I have not thrown up in 10 days. In this time,...

Getting there in bulimia recovery
Hi everyone!

So 5 days ago I discovered this site and decided to post my story "Bulimia: my worst enemy". In these 5 days I have not binged nor have ...

Out of the darkness - A battle over abuse and bulimia
I am 25 years old, a member of the United States Air Force, a wife, a daughter, a sister. And I am also bulimic. Somehow, that last part seems to overshadow ...

Bulimia - my worst enemy
This is the first time I’ve posted on this site, and to be frank, I don't even know where to begin. Bulimia has become my everyday. It has been going on ...

My First Confession - this is it - Jessicas bulimia story...
So this isn't easy. You all are the first people that I am telling. I just feel hopeless. And I don't want to be stuck like this anymore. That's how I ...

what is life without bulimia?
Hi,

I am a 29 yr old female who has been bulimic since I was 6 yrs old.

I truly don't remember a day in my life with out throwing up at some point....

My binge partner betrays me...
I was taking a shower today when my boyfriend asked, "Where are those 2 boxes of Girl Scout cookies?"

I had eaten both boxes as well as an entire loaf ...

Dealing with the emotions and the fear behind the illness that has been with me for so long - bulimia
Hi Shaye:

So, I'm doing some soul-searching and wondering why I have been doing this to myself for a span of 25 years.

It's not something easy to ...

Carries Anorexia Bulimia Story
Hello, my name is Carrie... Today I am going to stop.

I threw up again I justify it by eating only once a day. If I only eat once a day it can't hurt ...

How differently things look after a month of bulimia recovery
Hi everyone:

Well, day 35 now and I'm doing good. My emotions are at a different level now I've noticed. The anxiety of resisting the urges to binge ...

bulima and suffering in silence
It all started one day when I ate way too much then I can handle and started to feel severe discomfort in my tummy...

I decided that maybe if I got ...

bulimia is a sad, sad life.
Yesterday was the FIRST day in 2.5 years I did not purge. I have been reading this website word for word since I stumbled upon it a few days ago and I ...

One month binge/purge free but not totally recovered - will i ever eat normally?
Hi Shaye:

So I'm feeling good, but I'm not feeling recovered - because I admit I still think about food alot. Not really craving it or obsessing over ...

Jinas Struggles With Bulimia
I feel so.............stupid.

My parents figured out about my bulimia (I told and brought it out for help.) But, at the time I needed to use fingers ...

Bulimic from 16 to 21, at 34 it continues to visit me
I am feeling so disappointed. I thought that I released my "closest friend" when I gave away her secret (at 21). I am 34 and have experienced some expected ...

My opinions and experience with bulimia - don't ever start, this is how it may turn out
So, someone who is considering purging once in a while to lose weight and is thinking - what harm could it do? I am thinking to myself - NO, you don't ...

The Red Cord - Deborahs Anorexia Bulimia Story
Years ago, before my daughter entered puberty, I vowed to get a hold of my eating disorder.

I was anorexic before Karen Carpenter died and the psychiatrists ...

Will This Bulimia Nightmare Will Ever End
Hi Shaye,

As I sit here crying and writing this I just have to ask if this ever ends? I was once Anorexic, and now have had a relapse into binge eating ...

3 weeks after bulimia - Val's recovery journey
So, a quick note...

I've been bulimic for about 25 years (it varied in intensity over all those years but I've never made a conscious effort to quit)...

Bombs... Lou's moms comments
Parents got back from their trip and I have been bombarded with emotional triggers from my mum. And have fought off every binge urge from them, but am ...

Me, Exposed - Lou's Bulimia Story
'I will never eat so much and throw up again, ever!' I've said this to myself many many times before, circled dates on calendars to prove my commitment,...

Putting an end to my life of shame. KT's Bulimia Recovery
Thank you Shaye...

I have learned so much from your website and what I have learned has lead me to today, my new day, me new life. I share with you ...

Not All is Lost - Rose's Bulimia Recovery Journey
Hi,

This is not my full story; it is more of a diary-like rambling of my thoughts that is much needed at the moment.

To begin with, I stumbled ...

Only 10 days into bulimia
Hi,

I'm 19, and I only been binging and purging for a week or so. I'm in the Navy in one of the toughest schools, and it just been stressing me out....

To my fellow bulimia sufferers: THIS MEANS WAR!!!
Reason: Hmm, 3:00pm... You know, we haven't fed her yet today.

ED (glowering): So?

Reason (tentatively): So why don't we go and make her a banana ...

My goodbye letter to my dearest enemy Bulimia
THE EARLY YEARS:

I'll start off with I remember first binging and purging when I was about 14 or 15, That was about 25 years ago. I had lost about 50 ...

Afraid of bulimia, afraid of recovery, afraid of life
Hi Shaye,

I am trying to live without bulimia and my attempts are lasting for a few days at the most. What's so horrible is that I am completely aware ...

Bulimia and trusting myself
My bulimia expresses many emotions, one of which is distrust. I don't trust my body to properly handle food. My bulimic thinking goes like this...

"If ...

I thought I could never be happy with myself - Evas Bulimia Recovery Story
I began riding the eating disorder roller coaster when I was 16. I was very unhappy with my appearance. No matter who told me that I was a perfect size ...

How it all started - Lauras Bulimia Story
When I was fourteen years old, my mum brought home a set of scales. We hadn't had one in the house before, so it was kind of a novelty for me. More than ...

Bulimia seems alright... But isn't
I was never fat... But all my closest friends were very skinny and petite. I was always just a little bit taller and a little bigger than everyone else ...

I became so used to vomiting that I never had to try...
Hello... My name is Rebecca.

I had never been a girl with high self-esteem. I grew up being called lard ass and blubber whale by my family... even ...

how bulimia changed my life
Hi I'm Roxanne,

I want to share my story about my experience with bulimia. I like reading your site because it makes me realize that I'm not alone with ...

The Fog - Bulimia
Bulimia is like a fog...

It is a rare moment that you find clarity or unclouded reality in bulimic indulgence.

Bingeing and purging just becomes ...

My most horrible bulimia moment
I have two actually...

One being a few months ago when I was on lunch break at work. I never ate with other people because everytime anyone saw me eat ...

Bulimia - A Living Nightmare
I'm 16 and a year ago I used to weigh 160. But I went to a very strict diet, I was so disciplined and determined to lose weight...

NO CARBS
NO MEAT
...

Shaye helped my bulimia years ago . . .
I had bulimia for a bout 5 years - never really admitting what I was doing or that I needed help.
I met Shaye through an x boy friend of mine probably ...

Taking my dad dinner - a story of life without bulimia...
Tonight I went for dinner with my good friends Hannah and Jemma. We went to an Indian restaurant in an up market part of town... A pre Christmas treat ...

Working through bulimia triggers
Hi All -

Today I received a bag of chocolate candy as a holiday gift from a vendor.

The candy is wrapped in a clear holiday gift bag and when ...

When I Told My Boyfriend I was Bulimic
I'm a sophomore in college, and I've been bulimic since the summer of my freshman year of high school (so probably going on about 5 years now).

Over ...

My bulimia struggle, today.
... It happened again.

Oh boy, there's just nothing like having that sweet toilet water mixture splash up at you during a binge/purge. I have ...

Needing hope - Jennifer's bulimia story
Hello -

Last night I was literally on my knees crying and praying for some entitiy to help me. I had binged and I could not get the food to come ...

What can you do, when your food is eating you? Morgans Bulimia Story...
I'm turning 17 in little over a month. I live in Saskatoon, Saskatchewan, Canada.

I have had distorted eating since about Grade 7 but it has escalated ...

My dirty little secret - Jo's story about bulimia teeth
Heya,

My name is Jo, I'm 24 and from New Zealand.

I developed bulimia around 3 and a half years ago and as a result the majority of my teeth are ...

Searching through puke - a gross bulimia story
I had recently just cleaned out my room and had a pile of things I wanted to throw out. In my closet was a bag of puke I had purged earlier and was waiting ...

My journey through hell - bulimia
Ok here goes I suppose...

Well, when I was 13 years old my older sister died which took my family by storm.

My mother changed over night in mind ...

A secret mess... bulimia
I have been bulimic off and on for about 5 years now. It's crazy for me to imagine it's been that long. There have been many times I thought I was past ...

Today I forgot to eat...
How cool is that? I actually forgot to eat!

That to me, is proof that bulimia is truly out of my system!

When I was bulimic I remember thinking ...

First my gratitude.. then my bulimia story.
Shaye, before I share my bulimia story I have to express how much of an inspiration you are!

This website has just been such a comfort to me and its ...

My Life and Bulimia
I'm 21 , I'm 5'6 and weigh 62 kgs... As a kid i was very thin but then when I was eight onwards I started gaining weight. Well I was always active and ...

My bulimic effort
It all started when I was 13.

I began to keep a little food diary, looking back... I had an underweight BMI - but I decided to get healthy and thin....

Snapshots of Bulimia
I remember...

*My grandmother standing me in front of the mirror when I was ten years old, wrapping a skirt around me waist and gushing, "Oh, look how ...

Want to be done with Bulimia... but don't want to lose my best friend?
Everyone I know seems to think I'm a really nice person and have it all together. Little do they know, that I stuff myself and purge at every chance I ...

Trying and Losing... Lucy's Bulimia Story
I'm 17, 5'1" and 44 kg. I started out as an anorexic when i came home one day and looked into the mirror and saw just how GIGANTIC I was at 51 kg. So I ...

My Bulimia Experiment... Which I don't recommend to anyone!
I knew that I was no longer bulimic as it had been over 3 years since I last threw up or had a major binge...

I thought if I let myself have one weekend ...

my life - a bulimia story
I have been bulimic for so long and have recently stopped...

I am 11 and will be 12 in 3 days on June 3, 2010...

I stopped on my own. I only started ...

My bulimia story
I'm 26 and have been suffering with bulimia for almost 5 years now.

I have had a lot of upset in my family (not things happening to me personally) but ...

My teeth were badly discoloured and were crumbling away - Jodie's bulimia dream
I had two braces growing up to get perfect teeth... and was always commented on how white they were. So suffering from bulimia has really knocked that ...

Shame in the city - Rita's Bulimia Story
I wish I could say I have recovered but I am still in the trenches of bulimia.

The shame is eating away at me more than anything else at the moment....

Caught Throwing Up in the Insinkerator - My Most Embarrasing Bulimia Story!
I was having a movie night with the girls... I had eaten a huge amount of junk food and was feeling sickly full...

[I didn't want to rush off to the ...

The most embarassing & scary bulimia story of my life - When I swallowed a toothbrush trying to throw up
My Embarrassing Bulimia story... The Day I Swallowed a Toothbrush

I was bulimic on and off, (mainly on) for about 12 years. The worst of my Bulimia ...

Leaving my stomach behind...
Late at night on the drive home from theater rehearsal I went to a gas station and bought 2 large sized candy bars and a box of cookies. I gorged until ...

Fear of being fat - Ashleys Bulimia Story
I have had bulimia for 6 years, I'm 23, I never really knew how it started until 3 years later you realize you have a problem. I was chubby when i was ...

trying to recover when pregnant Not rated yet
I am 24 and have been bulimic since I was 14, I was always the chubby kid because I loved my dinners but when I got to high school this was when it started....

What it does to the outside let alone the inside Not rated yet
Hello,

I seem to be the typical bulimic...started at 14 1/2. Just a little chubby. Looking back I can see how and why it started and has continued to ...

binged and confused Not rated yet
I have been throwing up since the age of 16, i am now 21 and hitting rock bottom. Not in a sense of the amount that i am purging, but i feel my body breaking ...

Beautiful on the Outside Not rated yet
I'm about to be 18 years old and it makes me sick to think about all the time I've spent over the years obsessing over my weight. This started for me when ...

my wish for a bulimia free life Not rated yet
So I am 27 years old and I have been secretly battling bulimia for about three years now off and on. I first realized that I had a problem when I caught ...

told family but still finding it too hard, alcohol and drugs my escape! Not rated yet
im 22 years old and i have really only noticed the seriousness i have with bulimia since i got drunk one night and blurted it out to my mum and dad last ...

My Bulimia Recovery Process Not rated yet
So I'm 24 years old and I have been a bulimic for about 3 years. I think for this past year I desperately wanted my life back. My NORMAL life. I have only ...

Today i decided Not rated yet
I'm bulimic, this was my first step yesterday to admit that i'm really ill and i need help.
Just today i started seriously searching for solutions to ...

Where I am now Not rated yet
I just turned 30 and made a pledge to myself to stop bingeing in purging. In preparation for this, I read your website and ebook, Shaye, which have helped ...

Here's my story. I hope it helps anyone going through the same. Not rated yet
Hey, My name is Ashley. I'm 20yrs old. My problem started when I was about 13 going to 14. I always wanted to be a beautiful thin model. At that age my ...

Recovery Struggles Not rated yet
I wake up each morning just trying to get through the day. I feel like I put on a mask of a person that smiles and laughs, but underneath it I'm near tears ...

Scared Not rated yet
Just over a year ago I started to make myself sick, I lost around a stone. Myself and my husband were trying to conceive and I needed to loose weight in ...

Stuck Not rated yet
I have an eating disorder. It's a simple statement, but it took my years to be able to admit. I didn't start out with bulimia. I'm a walking statistic ...

Putting the truth down in writing for the first time Not rated yet
Hey! This is the first time I am in this website, and I hope it's really as amazing as all the comments say. I've been bulimic for a year more less and ...

from fat to bulimic to fat Not rated yet
I need help. Starting about 12 I became fat. I remember not being unhappy just fat. All through high school I was overweight and fine with it, had friends ...

Heres my entire story, looking to change Not rated yet
I started binge eating because of smoking weed. With my friends, it would be the first thing we would all look to do, or the first thing someone would ...

"One bite is too much and one bite is not enough" WHY!? Not rated yet
Hi there, yes your stories ring very true for me too. This is my first post. I am in fact South African married to a Zimbabwean who fled Zim probably about ...

Bulimia is not just for kids! Not rated yet
As I'm exploring Shaye's incredibly warm, detailed and accessible website I'm looking...as I generally do when reading books and articles on eating disorders....

The Rocky Road of Recovery Not rated yet
I have been bulimic for 14 years. I have recently started having terrible panic attacks and dizzy spells. For the last 3 months I felt like I was going ...

My life back Not rated yet
I know I have only been bulimia for a number of months instead of the years I see some others have, but I really feel that bulimia has taken me for the ...

Long Ago There Was The Chubby Girl Not rated yet
I was always the chubby one in the family. As a little girl i was normal weight, and as a kid, I was very athletic, very healthy, very happy, but pretty ...

Strange but good! INSPIRATION FOR THE DESPERATE (me included) Not rated yet
Recently I've been doing a lot of thinking about stopping bingeing and the other obsessions I need to stop. Something unusual is happening to me. Well ...

lowest point..... Not rated yet
I've been suffering with my bulimia for 12 yrs now, i'm 27. My weight has plummeted an then soared and then plummeted again over the years,i feel ill, inside....

My Bulimia Story Not rated yet
I was smart as a kid and my family did acknowledge this but all my cousins and my sisters were thin and I was rather chubby. I loved food and I would eat ...

Battle with Bulimia Not rated yet
Three years ago, when I was 15, my father was killed in a plane crash. I was your typical "daddy's girl". I told him everything, and we were best friends....

I'm so tired Not rated yet
I am 19 years old and in a month I will be 20. I am a second year university student and live with my best friends in a share house. But, I've been bulimic ...

I'm still ill Not rated yet
I don't remember exactly how it all began but when my mum found out she told me I was disgusting and to stop wasting food! I binge several times after ...

The Whole Thing Not rated yet
Hmmm wow I don't know where to start really. Except for that yes, this beast has taken over my life and its very depressing. It all started 6 years ago ...

The Black Bulimic! Not rated yet
I am 21 years old African American and suffer from Bulimia. It's sad because in my community it's not understood it is also not talked about so I suffer ...

Hope for all!! Not rated yet
I am 38 years old, married and four children! I have experienced all of these feelings, and have had the days of puking 30 plus times without anyone ever ...

Seriously? Not rated yet
I am bulimic. What? Did that just come from me? Yup. Wow, 7 years and I still cringe when I say that. Like many people, my bulimia started because I made ...

I feel like a fraud... Not rated yet
I feel like a fraud... I've been reading through the stories on this page and my story doesn't even come close. I'm 23 and i have been battling with various ...

Finally surrendered... And loving life again! Not rated yet
Over a month now and feeling great! (except for the gas and bloat lol!)

Reading your blogs proves to me even more that our (past) eating disorders ...

Finally Ready to Recover Not rated yet
I've always seen bulimia as my own sweet little coping mechanism. When I feel fat, I binge and purge. When I'm depressed, I binge and purge. The cycle ...

Enough Said Not rated yet
I have just spent hours reading posts on this site. I have cried and laughed and related to everyone on such a personal level. My story is word for word ...

very sad Not rated yet
I don't really feel like sharing my embarrassing stories I'm more concerned with my mental state and that i feel so depressed. I have had a fair amount ...

Laborer and bulimic shoplifter. (Long) Not rated yet
I have been working with a traveling carnival for about three weeks now and I CANT STOP STEALING FOOD. Every day before work we park just outside the midway ...

Hi, i am 21 years old. And i have bulimia for almost 5 years... Not rated yet
Hi, i am 21 years old. And i have bulimia for almost 5 years and now I think is the - breaking point - because i am very, very, very tired of doing it....

My bulimic life Not rated yet
When I was little I was a really skinny girl. But ever since I hit puberty I've gained weight. I hit puberty when I was 11 yrs old which was an a young ...

Bipolar and Bulimic Not rated yet
My story,

Just recently I was diagnosed Bipolar and have been struggling with severe depression. A lot of things have happened in the past month that ...

I am recovering finally and this is the hardest thing i have ever done actually being honest about it Not rated yet
Hi, I have been bulimic since i was 17, i was threatened to be sent away - I am 5ft and was at X lbs.... I stopped for awhile but I would constantly fall ...

I had almost given up hope of recovery... Not rated yet
I am 31 years old and have suffered with Bulimia and Anorexia for 7 years. Things hit rock bottom when I was 26 after bloods revealed dangerously low electrolytes ...

8 years and going of hell Not rated yet
Hi there, I am 23 and have been bulimic sine i was 15. I dont even remember the first time I discovered purging but i wish i never had as every day i feel ...

My Bulimia Story Not rated yet
I was 13 years old.. I was naturally very thin (my BMI told me I was under weight) but medias idea of beauty got to me. I went through a fase in grade ...

My Weight Not rated yet
I contemplated bulimia for a long time. I came across a site showing pressure points, and there was one at the neck that stimulated gagging - the rest ...

I only wanted to make people happy... Not rated yet
I used to be overweight. Not obese, but overweight. I always felt fat. When I look back on pictures of me at that time, I wasn't that big. Up until I was ...

Not doing this again; I can't. Not rated yet
Last night I did something. Something I hadn't done for nearly four months. Something I regret. Last night I stared down the toilet, trying to be strong,...

I have had nasty bulimia for 8 years Not rated yet
I suffer from nasty bulimia for 8 years.

It started from summer holiday when I was 16.

I joined into a gym club at that time and accidentally heard ...

my road to recovory makes a U turn Not rated yet
i have been bulimic since middle school. my family did not find out till last year. my freshmen year. they were so mad at me. which inly made me more secretive ...

"My Baffling Bulimia Contradiction" Not rated yet
My bulimia started in the most typical time of my life - in my teen years. All of my life I felt fat and disgusting. I literally hated myself from as ...

Fourteen & Dying - My Eating Disorder. Not rated yet
I'm Emily. I'll be fifteen in a matter of months. Currently suffering high school as we speak. I have a lot of friends, but none of them know my secret....

Is it bulimia? A strange ED cycle. Not rated yet
Hello!

First of all I want to apologize about my English, I know it’s really bad!
Second of all, WOW I’m impressed with all the stories I’ve read!

My ...

4 years and counting... Not rated yet
After spending my whole childhood being chubby, early teenage years being curvy later leading to obesity and being bullied for the majority of these years;...

just starting to become bulimic. i want to stop. Not rated yet
I've recently discovered bulimia. Ive been binging and purging for about 4months now. At first it was only a few times per week, whenever my boyfriend ...

Binging Babysitter Not rated yet
YES I KNOW!! I'm so embarrassed, ok here it goes.
As soon as the parents had gone and the kids were in bed, I couldn't resist what they had in the house....

A one time situation turned into a long 3 year battle Not rated yet
You can probably take a guess on how all of this got started. And you are probably correct. I was a person who always struggled with my weight. From when ...

Ohh how I hate bulimia, but i let her run my life anyway.... Not rated yet
So Ive been bulimic since i was 15, seven years later I'm 22 and still doing the same pointless routine.

Why? Why you ask......honestly you would think ...

Relapse again and you'll die. Not rated yet
"relapse again and you'll die". Thats what the Dr's told me (many of them) told me in my third admission to rehab abroad. I'm British and I had been sent ...

Dear my worst enemy. Yes that's you Mia! Not rated yet
Dear Mia,

I can honestly say that i hate you. I hate you so much..the highest amount of hate possible. Why? Ha, I could go on and on about why. You ...

I ate so I won't be eating dinner tonight, Mom. Not rated yet
I'm only 18, but I've been throwing up for a very long time. I had it very bad in 8th grade and then got much better, but started back up three years ago ...

My Bulimia Relapse: Time to say it out loud Not rated yet
Hello! My name is Sarah. I am a university student studying nursing and Spanish. Eating disorders have been a part of my life since I was 12 and I am now ...

Portrait of a Bulimic Not rated yet
Bulimia takes all the worst parts of me, brings them together, and magnifies them. She even takes things that are healthy and normal and twists them for ...

Scoping out the place Not rated yet
Hey, im a 27 year old female that has been bulimic since I was 16. I can remember the first time; I had drank too much the night before and ate a lovely ...

Everyone thinks I'm recovered, while in fact I'm not even close. Not rated yet
Even the thought of writing something down is putting my heart on overdrive. I'm embarrassed by the disgusting things I'm doing to myself, while everyone ...

Avalanche Not rated yet
I know there is a mixture of things that cause bulimia. Childhood traumas, the availability of unhealthy junk foods everywhere you look, and poor self ...

My struggle with ED and self harm... Not rated yet
I have been self harming since I can remember back to when I was around eleven possibly younger. It started out small, pinching, bruises, bites, and eventually ...

Places to hide my puke Not rated yet
I was a full blown bulimic by the time I was 18 years old. My mother suspected that I was purging after my binges so she began to follow me to the bathroom ...

This is my bulimia Story Not rated yet
Well, what can I say?
i guess this started when i was 14
The main influence was my dad, he always wanted me to loose weight even though i wasn't fat ...

I'm So Sneaky It's Disgusting. Not rated yet
When I sit here and think about what I do every single day, it makes me sick with shame and guilt. But one thing is for sure, I am like top class sneaky....

Falling Apart From the Inside Out Not rated yet
Hi, my name is Alex. I am 17 years old, and have suffered from bulimia and anorexia for 5 very long years. I don't really remember when I started to hate ...

51 yrs old Bulimic - multi addict history. Aim to help others if i can Not rated yet
My story is long. So I will put it in short points.

Always unhappy kid. No one in my family appeared to be happy with themselves. the family was fairly ...

Day 1 of bulimia recovery Not rated yet
Today is the first day I feel like I want to end this terrible habit. I have had an eating disorder similar to anorexia but not as extreme, more like mildly ...

Tired of "living" like this! My bulimia story from start to finish Not rated yet
This will be the first time I've ever really talked about this in detail to anyone.

I've been bulimic for about 5 years (wow, has it really been that ...

Trying To Recover Desperately, I Am So Tired! Not rated yet
I don't know why it started. I doubt there was a reason. I was 14 when I started skipping meals here and there. It was no big deal. When I was 15 I had ...

on my way to recovery. Not rated yet
so i told them. i told my parents. i actually did it in may. lets just say there was many tears and words and confusion. but i told them. i told my mom ...

bulimia and what i called my life Not rated yet
i was once the most motivated kid on the planet. there was nothing i couldnt do. By the age of 13 i had already accomplished so many feats. I became sponsored ...

My secret Not rated yet
It all started in the 9th grade, i remeber i was thinking and looking at my best friends that they are getting all the attention from the boys and i wanted ...

eating disorders for 14 years - starting to recover Not rated yet
I started with anorexia when I was 14. I had just quit my competitive swimming career and was going through puberty. My father told me that I was getting ...

I hate purging but I can't stop it Not rated yet
I guess I need help.

I really hate sticking my fingers down my throat and trying to vomit. I totally hate that feeling. And when I binge, I KNOW I will ...

Unbelievable..... Not rated yet
One of the biggest things w/ my bulimia is that I could never, never let anyone know! I can't believe when people can tell their boyfriend or husband or ...

From fat girl to Prom queen Not rated yet
I was most ashamed of myself at the age of 14... My step father was abusive and my mother ignored me. My siblings were much younger than I so there were ...

Life with bulimia Not rated yet
I'm 14 years old and I am bulimic.
I remember the first time I made myself throw up. It was Thanksgiving 2010, so just about seven or eight months ago ...

I beat bulimia... So Can You Not rated yet
My bulimia started around the age of 12. I remember before it became serious I had two bulimic moments that I was able to just brush off my shoulders. The ...

NOT OUT OF THE BUBBLE YET,,,,,CANT BREATHE,,,,BUT STRONGER Not rated yet
To look at me I am a very attractive (kim k !) lookalike so everyone tells me!!) , and would seem confident to you. I only really appreciated that in the ...

It's Never Too Late to Stop the Waste Not rated yet
And by waste I mean waste. Waste of life, of time, of money, of food, of love, of caring, of knowing who you are and could be, rather than drowning it ...

Teenage Bulimia - I recovered, and I know you can! Not rated yet
I was a very heathly kid growing up, I was always known as a "twig" I was a tiny person, I loved my life, my friends and mostly my family, you would never ...

I'm going to change Not rated yet
Every day, I binge and purge. Multiple times a day. Every day I tell myself that I am going to stop. This is my last and only chance. I cannot keep living ...

I want to be loved and free of my bulimia... Not rated yet
I have been bulimic for 5 years this summer - at 20, thats a lot - 1/4 of my life...

I hate who I have become and seem to link many of my disorder thoughts ...

My Bulimia Story Not rated yet
My name is Wendy, from EatingDisorders411.com This is my bulimia story.

As far back as I can remember, I was fat. Or at least I thought I was. My ...

The Skinny Competition That Lead To Bulimia Not rated yet
Hi.

It all started about 6 years ago I guess. I went away with my long time good friend. We were 13 and just getting to that age when we were trying ...

This is not the story of my life, it is just a massive challege - Ji's bulimia story Not rated yet
How do You imagine the enemy in your head?

I have read a lot of posts and stories about girls thinking that Bulimia is their life and so on! I do ...

Bulimic became my character....or so i thought. Not rated yet
Hello Shaye,

(i dont really know if this webbie is still working, but i had decided to try to post my problem again and hopefully it can be shared and ...

Start of bulimia recovery...5th time lucky hopefully! Not rated yet
I am about to enter into rehab in one days time to hopefully finally beat this illness which wasted all of my teenage years and now in my early 20's.

Every ...

Bulimia - In The Bathtub Not rated yet
It was about ten o clock, and I was throwing up my dinner into the toilet while the bath was running so i could clean myself afterwards and wash my hair....

I don't want to do it but my I can't control my urges, my habit, my sickness. Bulimia. Not rated yet
I'm laying here on my living room couch typing this. So bloated because I just can't throw up anymore. I already did it twice today, twice yesterday,...

Starting bulimia... I Think? Not rated yet
Im thirteen, 5 foot 7 inches, and about 125 pounds. I am by far one of the heaviest people in my school, and it is not just from height. On of my best ...

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