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My Bulimia Stories - The Embarrassing, The Ugly and the plain old weird!

It's not often that you come across bulimia stories. I think it's because bulimics are so ashamed of their disorder that they hide it away at all costs.

...Am I ashamed of my bulimia stories... yes and no.

Yes... because I can still so clearly remember the shame I felt when I was bulimic.

No... because I realize now that overcoming that shame is a large part of recovering.

If you're suffering from bulimia you shouldn't feel ashamed. Decent people won't judge you... That would be like judging somebody who suffers from OCD or Depression... or any other psychological disorder.

To try and help ease some of the shame that I know bulimics feel - I have decided to share some of my bulimia stories. Telling your bulimia stories can actually be a great start to your healing process.

You are not alone - and you're not a freak... There are hundreds of thousands of people just like you around the world... And I was once one of them...


Do You have any emotional, crazy or plain old Bizarre bulimia stories? Share them with other bulimia sufferers - and let them know that they're not alone!

Click here to share your story!

My First Bulimic Memory as a child

When I was a kid... I was a little different. I would try to shock people by doing all sorts of weird tricks and stunts. I was a bit of an attention-seeker I guess.

Most of my tricks and stunts were harmless. Yes, they made people look at me sideways, but they weren't overly shocking - despite my efforts!

Until one day, when I was about 7 or 8...

My aunt phoned my mom up. "Do you know" she said "That Shaye threw up her lunch today in front of everyone. She did it on purpose".

Although bulimia in children is uncommon, my aunt was concerned that I was bulimic. I can't blame her... it's a bit of a strange thing for a kid to do for 'fun'! *blush*

Mom talked to me about it and I insisted that it was just a party trick. Because I was always doing strange things, mom believed me. She had no reason not to, because as far as I can remember it was just a party trick. I didn't do it to lose weight. I was a skinny little thing anyway.

However, I do remember on a separate occasion...

It was Christmas dinner and there was a DELICIOUS dessert that my Granny had made. Now I mean, top quality... Chocolate Pudding with multi-colored ice-cream. But, after already having eaten dinner and drinking large amounts of fizzy drink...

I was on the verge of popping. I couldn't eat another thing...

...I was so upset - because living in Zimbabwe, we didn't get desserts like this often! I decided that I would sneak into the garden and throw up my food to make more space in my tummy. So I did that... and I didn't really see a problem with it. For some reason, throwing up happened quite easily for me.

I went back inside and ate as much pudding as I could get my hands on. I thought this was a win-win situation.

In time, I clicked onto the fact that this could be a handy way of keeping myself thin...

Bulimia in My Early teens

At the age of 11, I started the sport of springboard diving. I loved it, I lived for it! Within months of starting I was in the Zimbabwe team and got to travel all over the world to compete.

I had a natural talent for it, and a naturally strong physique...

As I entered my early teens I noticed changes starting to happen in my body. I was embarrassed to go to training and get in my swim suit.

These horrific things called boob's started growing on my chest... and God forbid... I started getting hips! I was so ashamed of my new shape that I embarked on a diet to lose the weight I had gained during puberty. My aim was to lose my boobs, hips and bum! These early years in puberty is often when teenage bulimia strikes.

I was by no means big at all. I was 5'4" and weighed about 45 kg's.

Within months of dieting I had dropped off a lot of weight and started looking very thin. Too thin (apparently). My mom and coach started telling me all sorts of horrifying anorexia and bulimia stories. But I didn't listen.

My mom began watching me at meal times. So I would eat. But often, I would sneak off and throw up too.

In time, my weight became steady and I looked healthy. So people stopped harassing me about my weight.

Bulimia and anorexia came and went between the ages of 11-15. It couldn't have been too bad though because I have a lot of excellent and happy memories from this time in my life... and I don't have many bulimia stories that I remember.

At the age of 15, my country - Zimbabwe went down the gurgler. It became a dangerous place to live. The president also declared that he would not go out of power until every white person had left the country. My family, although 3rd generation Zimbabweans - had to leave.

We were to travel to the other side of the world - New Zealand... where we would try to start a new life...

The Trauma of Immigration

 

Just a girl,
A solitary tear,
Waiting for that moment,
Waiting not to fear.


Free me from this world,
Free me from this pain,
This utter torment,
This world has gone insane.


I see no colors,
I see no hues,
I see no red, I see no blue.


I just see a road,
That goes on forever,
And I'm crawling with this load,
We are bound together...

Click here to read another eating disorder poem that I wrote...

 

I was in a new country. I knew nobody. I was alone and scared. The majority of people I had known and loved, I would never see again. It was hell.

Immigration had a lot to do with my downward spiral into the hell of bulimia...

Many bulimia stories involve some sort of trauma. Immigration was definitely mine.

I was a vulnerable teenager - who already had eating disorder tendencies - and suddenly I was thrown into a strange world. I tried to fit in by being 'super thin' which resulted in crazy diets that always ended up in massive binge eating sessions.

It took years before I came to terms with being forced to leave Zimbabwe. It messed me up big time!

Back then I didn't see the link between the trauma I had experienced and my bulimia. To me, I was just weak. I had no self-control and I was just a 'pathetic bulimic'.

It makes me sad to think of the self-abuse I used to inflict... I was an empathetic person, but never showed any respect or sympathy to myself. In fact, correcting these unkind thought patterns was a key part of me recovering from bulimia. You can read more about this here. (opens in new window)

 

Bulimia and my sporting career

shaye springboard diving

After immigrating to New Zealand I found the top springboard diving coach in the country. I was well on my way to making the Olympic team - and he would help me get there.

He was Chinese... and although a nice man, he was an extremely hard coach. He had coached many Chinese Olympians. If you have any knowledge on Chinese sports people... You'll know they're a different breed... they're tough as nails!

He was used to Chinese athletes and Chinese physiques. Us Westerners looked big to him... Even though I was 5'6" and only 56 kg's - Which is pretty small as you can see from the picture of me diving above!

My first training session with him he told me that I needed to lose 10 kg's.

I still remember his words in broken English "Augh! 56kg!! Very fat. You need lose 10kg!"

Well... You can imagine what this did to a 15 year old, who had just left her home and moved to a new country... and who already had anorexia and bulimia stories under her belt...

I lost those 10 kg's... but by the time I was finished - there was nothing left of me and I had nothing left to give. My world was now ruled by restricting calories, and throwing up any food I did consume.

I have lots of terrible bulimia stories from this time - here's one that I remember vividly:

One night I had eaten an apple... just 60 calories. I was frantic. I had to get it out of me. I spent an hour after everyone had gone to bed, desperately trying to throw it up. Of course, most of it had been digested and the majority of what I threw up was bile.

By the time I finished my mouth was bleeding and I sobbed myself helplessly to sleep.

All that over an apple....

Bulimia stories, like the one above, happened pretty much on a daily basis.

Needless to say when I was 17 - just 3 months before the Olympic Games (I was in the NZ squad) I packed diving in. I had nothing left to give...

 

Food, Food and more food!

By the time I was 17 - I no longer restricted what I would eat. My bulimia stories take a more evil turn. I was now a compulsive eater...

I ate to feel better. I ate to numb my mind. I ate just so that I was doing something.

Nobody ever really suspected that I was bulimic. I was so damn good at hiding it. Geez - some of my bulimia tricks were absurd!

Do you want to hear one of my crazy bulimia stories...? Okay... it's embarrassing for me to tell... even now - but here it is...

I'd be sitting on the train on the way back from university. I'd buy a chocolate milk and a chocolate bar (or 2, or 3) before hand. I'd drink and eat them on the train... and then throw them up - into the empty chocolate milk bottle. Insane huh!?

After so many years throwing up - it happened so naturally. I could even do it in public without people noticing.

And here's another humiliating one of my 'compulsive eating' bulimia stories...

One day, I met up with my sister just after I got off the train (Now I told you what I would do on the train)... My sister asked me for a sip of my 'chocolate milk' which as you know was not really chocolate milk anymore! As you can imagine I freaked out. "NO" I yelled... and threw it out the car window. No wonder my family thought I was a little nutty!

Telling bulimia stories like those make me realize how beautiful this bulimia free life is!

I would have to say that it was the compulsive eating years of my bulimia that were by far the worst. The feeling of having no control is horrendous.

My bulimia addiction was out of control. Once - I even vomited in front of everyone! Click here to read the story. (Opens in new window)

 

Being Bulimic at University.

By the time I was at university, my bulimia had spiraled totally out of control. I was throwing up multiple times an hour... I couldn't stop eating, but I couldn't hold anything in.

If I were getting a degree in 'what the inside of the uni toilets looked like' - I would have graduated with distinction!

But still... nobody knew I was bulimic. I'm sure my mom and dad suspected it. But she didn't know for sure. One thing is certain - she didn't know how bad I was. If she ever reads these bulimia stories - I'm sure she'll be shocked!

When I wasn't at uni, I had to work continually to make money. Bulimia is an expensive illness and I was spending upwards of $40 a day on food.

Uni, eat, puke, eat, work, eat, puke, work, puke, puke, puke, puke, bed.

You can only imagine what that does to the body and mind!

Probably some of the most shameful bulimia stories I have would be from around this time...

I remember stealing food from friends houses, just to get me through the day. It makes me cringe even writing that down for people to read!

Leading up to my recovery - phew!

My illness had become so bad that I was experiencing the terrible physical effects of bulimia. I started to have irregular heart beats. My teeth were rotting away (I had to spend $6000 to get them fixed so that people wouldn't notice!) and my entire body continually ached.

Sometimes I would get such sudden and severe pains in my heart that I would keel over. Deep down, I knew that if I continued like this, I would die - soon.

The dangers in bulimia are very real.

I thought of my mom, having to bash down the bathroom door - to find me lying dead in a pile of my own puke. This thought drove me to send an email that would change my life...

I wrote to the university counselor. I told her a few of my bulimia stories and asked her if she could 'treat' me Online. I was too ashamed to go in and see her. She agreed.

Within 1 week she had worked her persuasive magic and I was sitting in her office. I was so damn nervous that I felt like I was going to puke (what was new I guess!) But I had to take control of my life. I had to recover from bulimia...

Opening up about my bulimia to Amanda was an important step in my recovery...

It relieved me of some of the shame I felt about being bulimic.

Talking about my bulimia made me feel strangely empowered...

Suddenly I had somebody on my side, on my team...

From the first day I opened up about my bulimia, I realized the importance of having somebody to report back to about my daily feelings, trials and triumphs...

Bulimia is a tough battle to fight alone, in the isolation of your mind...

This is what inspired me to create The Bulimia Recovery Program and Community...

Just the other day one of the members wrote a blog post that brought me to tears...

She said that she had found the missing link that was keeping her from recovering - "a recovery community and accountability"...

I felt so privileged to be playing a role in her exciting bulimia recovery journey :)

To read more about this recovery focused community and program, click here.

 

8 years free from bulimia!

I would never have believed it then. Shaye, the bulimic... could recover from this consuming illness... That I could get through a day, a month, a year... 8 years without adding any new bulimia stories to my list!

But I did it. Yes, it was hard. But, you know what... It wasn't as hard as I thought it would be.

Sometimes it would be easy to forget that I was ever bulimic.

 

I recovered - You can too!

Do any of my bulimia stories sound familiar to yours?

What's that?...Yes?

I thought so! You see, bulimics are all similar... And if one of us can recover - we all can.

You just need to know how to recover - and it helps to have a community/recovery team to recover with. Please look into getting help and support in your recovery. You could try to find a therapist, a treatment center, or you could explore my online recovery program and community here.

Keep putting one foot in front of the other and you will get there!

 

Do You Have a Personal Bulimia Story?
Share it Here!

I have shared my bulimia stories to help people suffering from bulimia. I would really appreciate it if you would share your story too!

Your bulimia story will be extremely valuable! It lets other sufferers know that they're not alone... and of course we all know the saying "A problem shared is a problem halved".

IMPORTANT NOTE: Please take care in writing your story, keep it healthy and healing for others to read. I'd appreciate it if you don't mention any specific numbers such as weight and calories as it may be triggering to future viewers :)

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Growing up I have always had the best support system in my life...my mom. My parents divorced when I was young and my dad was arrested and in prison for …

Emotional unstable in Recovery 
Shaye,It is really a tough journey...bulimic for 12years,started my recovery journey since last year April...Until today i still B/P twice daily,only in …

I am recovering! 
I have been bulimic since the age of 20. I'm now almost 25... I was on diet and I figured out that vomiting helps me loose more weight. I could eat everything …

dear mom 
Mommy, I love you. Remember that through this letter. Remember when I attempted suicide a year and a half ago, and in the ER you told me you had no …

Bulimia: how chipmunk cheeks changed me for the better 
I'm five days +a lifetime free of bulimia. This is the first time I've properly quit, and I know I'm done with bulimia forever. What made me change? …

Am I Bulimic? 
hey, I'm 17 and just started throwing up. I just don't feel like its the same as everyone else though. its very off and on. one week I can be fine and …

No One Understands :( my bulimia story 
I used to be extremely overweight, almost obese. My mom was too. When I was about 11 she decided she wanted to lose weight, and she did. She lost 55 pounds …

Bulimia and alcoholism and drug abuse 
Yes. It sounds awful. I am 51 now and I've had bulimia since I was 13. My main addiction is bulimia. I managed to stop 3 three years in my late twenties. …

Tired of "living" like this! My bulimia story from start to finish 
This will be the first time I've ever really talked about this in detail to anyone. I've been bulimic for about 5 years (wow, has it really been that …

What I truly want for Christmas - a bulimia free life 
Dear Santa, For Christmas I want a mac laptop, some clothes, a pandora charm, a manicure, a new ring, a kitten and a car would be nice. However I haven't …

Dont judge me when youre doing the same thing to your body. 
Hi my names rach (: so im going to share a story about how i discovered my best friend had bulimia the same time i did, and would judge me for the decissions …

The lowest of the low. 
I have met a lot of bulimics (as I have been to so many groups/treatments etc) but I have never heard anyone talk about a couple of the things that Shaye, …

I Don't Want to Live Like This Anymore! 
My story starts 2 and a half years ago, the summer before my first year of High School. I have always been the chunky girl. I was made fun of for it, but …

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Bulimic for half my life - the other half DOESN'T have to be that way - Bulima after 40 
I read some stories that were posted about 6 months back about some who have had bulimia for 20, 30 or so years. I'm 43 and been bulimic for over 25. Reading …

Im scared, i dont want this to destroy my life 
A year ago i changed the perception of myself, suddenly i was the fattest ugliest thing in the world. Painfully day by day i survived on lots of vegetables …

Fell off the wagon and back again 
Hi Shaye: I don't know if u remember me for early this year. Having bulimia for 25+ years and was B/P free finally for 2 months. I was doing so well!! …

The Secret Purger.  
Well I've been bulimic for almost a year now. Only 2 people know. That is my boyfriend and my best friend. I'm too ashamed to tell anyone else. Most …

Recovery was never an option, until it was the only option. 
I am a 22-year-old female from the US who has fully recovered from an eating disorder (bulimia). My bulimia began when I was nearly 13 due to self esteem …

11 days free from binging and purging! 
Hi everyone, It's been 11 days since my last purge. I can say for sure for me the structured eating is a life saver! It feels like a weight has been …

Ready for a Full Bulimia Recovery 
I have suffered from bulimia for about five years. However disordered eating has been a part of my life for about eight. The first time I can remember …

Feelings of Guilt in bulimia 
I am a backpacker from Canada and have been bulimic for about 6 years on and off (started having insecurities from age 7). I am a very healthy person in …

my ED story- and new found hope! 
I am fifteen at the moment and in my last year of high school, my struggles with eating disorders all started in about january time 2010 when i was thirteen. …

Am I really bulimic? 
I don't know if I am actually bulimic or not and I don't want to talk to my doctor about this until I am complete sure because it would mortify me if he …

How do you ever feel normal again!!!! 
I am going to be 40 in February of next year... I am the mother of 3 kids... 20, 18 and 9.... and for most of their childhoods i have been bulimic... …

Can't seem to win the battle... physical signs of this disorder are upsetting.. 
I feel hungover... everymorning! I'm thinking it's due to purging the night/day before. I surprize myself how much I can eat sometimes. I'm studing …

Been Bulimic since I was 13 
I've been bulimic since I was 13 and been fighting bulimia since, I'm now 48. I realized it was unhealthy when I was around 20 years of age. Since then …

Finally ready to recover from bulimia 
My whole life I have struggled with weight. The 1st comment I remember getting about weight was from my grandpa at age 7. That's when I 1st noticed I wasn't …

where i am now, worse than i've ever been. 
I can't really remember the first time i made myself throw up; I do remember how I felt after it through, I felt worthless and alone. I've always had …

My Bulimia Story 
I suffer from bulimia, admittedly not as severely as some other cases I have read about where they purge 5 times a day, but it has been a problem in my …

Bulimia is the little parasite that lives inside me 
I always watched shows on T.V. when I was younger about girls who had eating disorders. Sitting there watching them, I never understood why they did what …

Hell of my life beginning to leave 
I was only 15 when it all started at school. I used to get picked on all the time about my weight being called shrek and other really nasty remarks on …

The Endless Horrible Cycle - bulimia :( 
Hi Shaye! I’m so happy I came across your website, I always feel as if nobody understands what it’s really like to have bulimia. I have been bulimic …

For the beautiful, young ladies out there, this is my 25 year struggle. 
I have been reading through some of the stories on this site and it has moved me to tears. I can feel the passion,sadness, frustration,anxiety,loss,courage …

Grateful For All You Do! 
Dear Shaye, First of all, I would like to wholeheartedly commend you on the remarkable level of compassion, gentle and kind support and thorough information …

25 Years of Living With ED Finally Coming To An End 
Ed came into my life when I was just a vulnerable 15 years old. I remember it clearly!!! Years of listening to people saying to my mom, (we are East …

My best friend ED 
Im now 21 and have been battling Eating disorders since the age of 15, as a young girl i always had low self esteem, even though i was a pretty girl, i …

I hate purging but I can't stop it 
I guess I need help. I really hate sticking my fingers down my throat and trying to vomit. I totally hate that feeling. And when I binge, I KNOW I will …

I am walking backwards, I am scared!!! 
Shaye: I share my story at this website before. Today I am writing you this because I really feel lost and don know what to do. As I told before, …

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my darkest deepest and most painful secret - bulimia 
When I was in 11th grade I have vague memories of always being hungry-- never feeling full. I have a distinct memory of finishing my homework and inhaling …

Ughhh bulimia is like that movie Ground Hog day with Tom Hanks!! 
I am so angry that I have let myself get this out of control. That is exactly was it is...out of control. I used to love being around people all the time. …

Highschool bulimia  
I'm still only 15 years old let I've battled with bulimia for three years now. Since I first started school I've had trouble with friends I was always …

One Day Twice at least,NEVER ENDING.... 
I am now writing this because i just binge and purge.I eat until my stomach cannot put in food anymore then i vomit out;then i binge agains and vomit agains...WHAT …

my bulimia and me. a tragic love story. 
I'm 18, in my freshman year of college and I have been bulimic for over two years. Growing up I always has a problem with over eating and my weight and …

Friends and family of those who have bulimia 
Hi I have had bulimia for nearly 3 years nothing compared to most. i have started therapy to help me recover and i have nearly finished and im stil …

My Bulimia Story 
Once upon a time,there was a little girl of 6 years. On her first day of school a thin,beautiful and stylish girl walked into the auditorium. She was popular,she …

Bulimia brings out the worst in me! 
Hi Everyone Wow, where do I start....there just soo much to release. So my name is Shantz and I've been a bulimic for about 9 or 10 years now. Its sounds …

I thought I was finished; I thought I could beat this 
Hi there So I've written here a few times (a ballerinas secret) and wrote again recently but I'm not sure if it's been published or if I sent it in …

Post bulimia weight loss struggles  
Hi shaye I've written in twice before (a ballerinas secret). I have now been completed bulimia free; as in no vomiting or even wanting to throw up …

I havent kept down a Christmas dinner in 5years. 
And for some reason that there^ disappoints me. I refused to eat one of them (I was quite the restricter back then). I ate another, along with god knows …

My long battle with bulimia 
I'm a sophomore at a great college, one of the top 20 liberal arts in the US. Everyday has been a struggle. A struggle to get enough food to satisfy me …

I Wont Die On a Bathroom Floor 
Im 30 years old . . . and have spent 15 years as a Bulimic. Half my life is gone. I can sit here and spend hours typing about all the horrible things …

Goodbye to Bulimia for Good  
I have suffered from bulimia for 10 years now. My first memory of bulimia was in 6th grade. I received a compliment that I looked thinner. I think this …

"Get out of my body, I've already suffered too much" 
Although I have been diagnosed with bulimia nervosa three months ago, I have been through all eating disorders since I was 12. Now I'm 18 and I have been …

Memory loss and problems at work due to bulimia 
HI Shaye I am now nearly 6 months since regular B and P with about 3 or 4 relapses in that time. I had bulimia for 6 years. Now I am feeling so much …

My Bulimia and Fight to Recover 
I'm 17 years old and i've been bulimic for about 3 and a half years. I lost a lot of weight through other means which im also not proud of but now im just …

I WILL Overcome This Disease - bulimia 
I was a very picky eater as a little girl and everybody would comment on how skinny I was. As I entered into my preteen years, I developed a much better …

I want to get better for myself. 
I have been bulimic for about three years. I have decided that I really want to stop and I've just started on the 10 Steps to Bulimia Recovery. I wanted …

My Greatest Fear 
I am really happy that I ran across this site. I think it is wonderful that there is a place where we can express our emotions and share what what we feel …

Why does it keep coming back? 
Hi I have never done this before and I am doing it at my work as bulimia is my secret!! I have been bulimic since I was 12 or 13. When I became pregnant …

Breakfast binger 
I recently recovered from anorexia... I was given an extreme food plan to get my weight higher involving a lot of cake and biscuits. I started slowly buut …

my bulimia story 
Hi everyone, I just thought I'd share my story partly as its something that I've never officially faced up to, and I'm hoping that it might be cathartic …

I wish I was stronger; a ballerinas secret part 2 
Hi I wrote a ballerinas secret. I've been trying to stop binging for about a month and I had two weeks straight without making myself vomit! Until tonight …

I have the desire to stop bulimia, i just need a way. 
Hello.. I have been a bulimia sufferer since I was 14 years old - and i'm 19 now. I'm not sure at all what triggers it, but i think it might have started …

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How to Handle Triggering Foods? 
I am now in recovery. After 11 years of a bulimia life, I dont expect I can heal in 3 or 4 months, I fully understand it take time. I stil B/p everyday, …

funny how falling feels like flying (for a little while) 
I don't really know how to write this so I'll just try and write whatever comes into my mind. I'm really ashamed of that and I've never told anyone that …

Please take this away... i dont want it anymore. im sick of this  
When I was in the 2nd grade I was sexually molested by a classmate. Our classes had conjoining desks, everyday during class he would put his hands under …

Getting my life back from bulimia, you can get yours back too!  
I was an anorexic bulimic for about a year. About 3 months ago I decided that I wanted to create a better path for myself. I wanted to eat normally and …

Bulimia Recovery Tip 
I found the bloating during recovery really bad. About two weeks in, I found that if I ate my meals blended into a soup they would settle much faster. …

My Beginning - A bulimia story 
This past September, I finally gained the courage to break things off with my boyfriend of almost two years. It was my second and first truly serious relationship …

After Confessing, Still Cant Stop Bulimia :( 
After almost 5 years battling this awful disease and being with the same Girlfriend and hiding it from her. Ive finally told her a week or so ago, broke …

Time to admit it. I am bulimic. 
It all started few months ago. I am 172 cm tall. I lost over 15 kilos by diet and exercise. I was X and after 5 months of hard work and discipline I had …

After 20 years;The Worst Day Ever - Jays bulimia story 
My name is Jay and I've been bulimic for nearly 20 years. I haven't seen any other posts from guys, so I don't know if this just a site for women, or …

A Figure Skater's Bulimia Story 
I have never told anyone about my life with bulimia before... so here goes: Ever since I can remember I have been obsessed with doing everything perfectly. …

My Story of 15 Years of Bulimia (A Letter to Friends & Family) 
To All my Friends & Family, I must first say how grateful I am to have you all as part of my life. Thank you for helping shape who I am and loving …

I feel i have lost myself to Bulimia 
I am a 28 year old woman, who was born and brought up in London, England and my bulimia started 11 years ago....I was told by family and friends that …

I miss being myself 
I miss how I used to hang out with my friends and family without having food on my mind 24/7. Now, whenever I do get time with them, I'm counting down …

The beginning of my bulimia 
I want to apologize for my bad english , but when I`m in a hurry up , I never check for mistakes. *Im from Bulgaria. It happened 2 years ago. Im …

A ballerina's secret; 6 months and counting, but it stops now! 
I wasn't really sure how to start this, I don't know what to say except that..i'm bulimic and I need help. I've always naturally been a very skinny …

So Ashamed. I feel lost. 
I am 27 years old and a mother of two wonderful children. I have been married for 7 years and I have been bulimic for almost 8 years. I started purging …

Food for the Soul - Elizabeths Anorexia Bulimia Story 
Hi! I've never shared my story beyond family and a few friends...most of which I have lost over the past odd years amidst my battle with Bulimia and …

from restricting to bulimia...  
Growing up, I was the happiest kid. Cheerleading was my life and my passion, I was popular, had a great family, and didn't really care that I was always …

Eating raw meat 
I've always felt so fat compared to all of my friends - they all have such lovely figures and i always felt the obese and out of shape girl in the corner. …

My years of self-hate, abuse and meltdown 
My friends would probably never believe that I am bulimic because since I was a child, I used to laugh a lot, talk a lot and just be confident and active. …

Just a girl with a touch of Bulimia 
Hi! I'm 17 and yes, I did have bulimia for a phase of 4 months, here's the trigger of the emotional rollercoaster that spun out of control and which …

My (long arduous) recovery journey 
Hi Shaye and everyone, I have been visiting this website for about two months now. I am pretty sure I've read everything on here. This is such an amazing …

Bulimia Happened so Fast 
I used to be the bubbly, excited, energetic, little girl that everyone wanted to be like. My life was full of friends, sports, and having the most fun …

It just won't go away!!! 
I am 23 years old. I live a blessed life. I just finished my fourth year of university at Hawaii Pacific University in Advertising and Public Relations, …

It's time for me to start enjoying the wonderful life that I know I do have... 
Hi Shaye, This was a hard step for me to take, as I've been bulimic for just over 10 years. It's unfortunately grown into such a scary part of myself …

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One month anniversary....and a three day binge 
I wrote first about a month ago as have been bulimic for 30 years and was at the point where I HAD to stop it. I went a whole month and on my one month …

4 days bulimia free!!! 
Hi, I posted my story about 3 months ago. My name is Sara and I have been bulimic for 3 years. I'm 17. And today I proudly come here to say that after …

Gold medals, straight A's, wedding bells...and bulimia? 
I have had a weird relationship with food since I was about 12 years old when I first started running competitively. I always said that I ran because I …

My Secret Hell - Living (& Hiding) My Bulimia.  
At 11 years old I had my first experience of Bulimia. Trying to be sick after a family meal as I felt a little 'chubby', thinking this was a normal thing. …

Bulimic little girl 
Hi.. I've been bulimic for nine years now. I'm 21 years old. For me, it also started with anorexia but the restriction was too hard and soon I found myself …

Never too young for an ED. 
Bulimia has changed my life. I never truly admitted to myself that I had a problem. Im pretty sure the source of my ED problems was when I was …

The life of a "beauty queen" is far from beautiful 
I was fat for most of my life;16 years. Always the "DUFF" designated ugly fat friend. I got sick of being made fun of and lost 50 pounds... I lost …

Losing everything because of my bulimia. 
My name is Sarah, I am only 20. I started throwing up when I was thirteen. It slowly progressed into a mind altering self worth killing monster with …

how my bulimia started  
Growing up my mom has always been a health freak, we never had much candy or sweets in the house. So when I would visit my grandparents in the summer I …

24 Years of bulimia 
I am 37 years old and will be 38 in July. This will sound like rambling but here goes. This is also my first "full confession" I have had eating issues …

7 Years and counting... 
My story is not interesting, its sad and pathetic. At the age of 12 I developed faster than all my very pretty, pencil thin friends. In a group of 17 I …

The purge that ruined my homecoming... 
When I was a senior in high school I got asked to homecoming by a super cute football player I had a crush on... The two of us and a large group of …

The long tedious journey for a performer... Rebekahs bulimia story 
I was the lead in a musical -'The Secret Garden' - Mary, and being young had a doubler 11yrs. One day she said i was so fat I'd break the table - from …

I am so ashamed of myself.. 
I have always since I can remember used food as a comfort, but the past few months my binges have intesified and I ate more food than anyone would think …

If they only knew the real "truth".... 
I have been battling bulimia for 13 years, in addition to alcoholism and Bipolar Disorder. While I am sober and continually manage my mental illness, …

I don't want to die from bulimia... 
I'm posting this story because my boyfriend "anonymously" sent me this website. He signed me up for it, using my e-mail address and name...This is my story: …

Therapy? Is it just me or? 
Hi Shaye, and everyone else on here :) So I have already posted on your website a couple of times before, anyway I've had Bulimia for 2-3 years now …

My bulimia story 
Hi friends... I'm 22 years old I'm from Venezuela (South America) and I suffer from Bulimia. I've binged and purged for two years almost everyday. …

Bulimia Voices  
Fruits and Vegetables (and a little bit Nuts) "Should I eat a pear? I'm quite hungry... Perhaps I should. But what if I don't stop eating? Well... …

No to Bulimia - now what??? 
Hi I wrote on here back in March when I had not binged or purged for about 2 weeks after having Bulimia for 7 years which meant I was doing it everyday. …

Bulimic for over 30 years - Desperate to Change 
From reading the other stories on this site which I just came across yesterday, I think I'm the oldest person here. Unfortunately that's because I've …

Not knowing what my body wants! 
I've had bulimia on and off for about five years now. I haven't always made myself sick regularly, although it was always 'on the table'. It's started …

I can't really believe I'm writing this... 
I'm sure that I don't have the worst case of bulimia that there's ever been. But to me, it's my whole life and I hate it so much. I spend all day worrying …

my bilimia :$ 
Well, here goes, I've never told anyone about my "double life" so I'm not really sure what to say, but I guess just want to let go in hope it might help …

I'm On the Road to Bulimia Recovery 
For all of you out there that are just begining your road to recovery, keep persevering. That is what I keep telling myself and even though it hurts to …

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my life as a bulimic  
I used to be a secure girl - I was confident and happy in my own skin until I went into highschool... It was during the christmas holidays in yr 8 …

Here Goes Nothing - The Start of Justins Bulimia Recovery 
My story starts off in high school, 3 years ago. Right now I am a freshman in college, about to wrap up my first year. During this span of time, I have …

Being honest with myself 
Hi there Ive been following this site for a while, and reading your articles and posts etc. Its all super inspiring. Thanks so much. I have also …

I am a boy, I have got it all, but bulimia is ruining me. 
I am 18 years old and i have been suffering from on and off bulimia for over 2 years. There are very intense phases when I binge and purge several times, …

My Dark Place - Bulimia 
My junior year of high school was when I discovered that I was good at cross country and track. It was also when I learned about calories. I remember …

One spectrum after another 
I remember being a bit of a people pleaser growing up. I didn't mind staying in the house and making no friends, so long as my mother was happy with me. …

Rediscovering the Happiness I Once Was - Fionas Bulimia Recovery Story 
Hello I am currently sixteen and have only been struggling with bulimia for 5 months...but as we all know, it can cause so much damage in such a short …

I'm going to eat lunch now - It's nice to know that I won't overeat or throw up.  
I was always a child who worried quite a lot. I worried what people thought about me, I worried about crime, I worried about my grades, I worried about …

I just wish I could control myself - Jessicas Bulimia Story 
I have been battling bulimia for over 14 years. It controls my life. I just wish I could control it.... It all started when I was 12 years old. I was …

RECOVERING FROM BULIMIA! (truly, finally!!!) 
Hi all girls out there I'm Lou, I've been a bulimic for nearly ten years. I mean REALLY BAD REALLY REAAALLLY bulimic (I mean puking in bags and up …

food body mind ecstasy and hell (and bulimia) 
Where to start... I have been denying to myself that I am still a sufferer for the last 4 years at least, only because I binge far less than ever and have …

Second Attepmt At Beating The Bulimic Bloat 
I'm trained in NLP and have been helping (counseling & coaching) people using my "gifts" in that domain for pretty much my entire life... I'm 40 years …

I'm 51 and recovering from bulimia 
Well, my story is much the same as the ones I've read... I began my life of bulimia when I was 15. I've asked myself so many times... Why?... After …

I'm 24, in bulimia recovery for 9 years, starting over... 
I first decided to throw up on my 15th birthday. After 6 months of violent daily purging, I started throwing up blood and was taken to a treatment center. …

Who knew I'd make it this far? 
Six weeks. That's how long I've been in recovery. I can hardly believe it - after four years of bulimia, I've made it through the last month and a half …

Is this really what I've become? 
Reading these stories more and more are making me legit cry my eyes out right now. To finally realise I'm the same as ALL of u. This morning I was X …

I almost died at 13 
The first time I shoved my fingers down my throat I knew I was hooked... It was the week school got out so I always had time to do it. I am also anorexic,so …

How my bulimia started... 
When I hit puberty, I developed sooner than all the other girls I knew. I was also taller and larger boned, not fat, but bigger overall. I was athletic, …

I have never told anyone - Hippygirls bulimia story... 
I went to India in January 2009 and lost a lot of weight from illness. When I got back, I received so many compliments that it went to my head. I started …

How do you tell your secret of bulimia to the woman who gave birth to u? 
I watch make it or break it and I see how kaley is anorexic and goes to a camp for it, and now it's got me thinking that I want to go to one of those …

here we go again. i know i can recover....why am i so unmotivated? 
Hi, Does bulimia really have effect on your memory? it's really sad to see myself not remembering small memories I had with my boyfriend like a week …

Bulimia - The entire thing is awful... 
Well hello, I have had bulimia since I was probably 15, I'm 32 now. It started with me being an overweight kid all though school, until around 8th grade …

18 Inches is the Longest Stretch - Jessicas story of bulimia and recovery 
I've heard stories about people taking the challenge of trying to run the journey across the country. Starting in the west coast, these runners will cross …

Help! Been Bingeing and Purging all Day!  
Let's see... today I ate a moderately sized ice cream sundae with fudge and raspberry sauce, half a container of chocolate cake frosting, half of a cheese …

I have an amazing friend who wants to and has helped with my bulimia... But, I feel guilty 
Dear Shaye, I have been searching on the internet for ages with regards to bulimia and have yet to find a site which has truly had an affect... I was …

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One step at a time to bulimia recovery 
It has been almost 2 weeks since my last purge... And i have binged only 2 times since then which is a big improvement from 5 times a week... One of …

On the way to bulimia recovery 
I never ever thought I would be writing something like this... Not after 11 years suffering from this terrible terrible life sucking disease - bulimia. …

I hate the lies bulimia makes me tell 
I don't really know where to begin. I haven't started the "road to recovery" I know I need to but keep making excuses. I have a son - people will take …

I love food too much to be anorexic 
I don't ever recall a time in my life where I haven't feared being "fat" or obsessed over what I have eaten. I remember planning diets at 10 years old, …

Bulimia...The Never-ending Nightmare 
I am 17 years old. Since I was 14 there hasn't been a single day -no, not even one- that I haven't thrown up my meals. That's almost a thousand days. I …

I will recover from bulimia ... 
I have been suffering from bulimia for years. I cant really remember when it started but I was a child. I am now 28 and trying hard to recover. Ive done …

Allys bulimia recovery journey 
Shaye, You are incredible. You have inspired me more than you can imagine, I just woke up one day and stopped with the nonsense, I am nearing into …

51 years old; bulimic for nearly 30 years! 
Here I am, middle aged, and I've been bulimic my entire adult life. Before that, I was just a binge-eater. The present: Somehow, I've escaped the …

So far in my bulimia journey 
Yuck. I cant believe I just ate that. What was I thinking? Go on – go to the bathroom. Get it out. No I don’t want to do that anymore. But I so shouldn’t …

Why me? Rachels bulimia story age 13 
Hey guys my names Rachael and I'm 13 years old and I have a bulimic problem. I thought this would solve everything... I try to go a day with no eating, …

Dear Bulimia 
Hi Everyone! So I've had a couple of bad weeks where I've done a ton of b/p-ing, but now I've decided to get my life back on track. I found this …

ash's story, age 13, hooked on bulimia 
Before I start I think you should know a bit of who I am... I knew I'd never be healthy, in one way or another i was sick, both mentally and physically. …

I BEAT BULIMIA - The secret to what was keeping me from recovering... 
Hey everyone! I am the person who wrote the story "oops i did it again" who had relapsed. I have very good news! I am officially bulimia free - and …

The Day My Life Changed Completely - When Bulimia Came In 
I started when I was 15 and now I am 18... I would always think that people with Bulimia or anorexia wouldn't stop because they didn't want to... …

A small bulimia "relapse"...... then life goes on. 
Hi Shaye: Well, a week ago I did binge and purge twice. I remember the first time what started it was Goldfish crackers. I could never resist goldfish …

How many times can I have my last binge? my last purge?  
It has now been 3 years this month since I first became builimic... I stopped for 4 months this year from september to january but then stress and anxiety …

Oops, I did it again 
I am 16 years old. I've been bulimic/anorexic for a little over a year now but recently, after having to go to in-patient therapy in the hospital and now …

I just ate a slice of chocolate cake and didn't throw up... 
Yes, I feel bloated. Yes, it was several hundred calories with no nutritional value... but it's progress. I have not thrown up in 10 days. In this time, …

Getting there in bulimia recovery  
Hi everyone! So 5 days ago I discovered this site and decided to post my story "Bulimia: my worst enemy". In these 5 days I have not binged nor have …

Out of the darkness - A battle over abuse and bulimia 
I am 25 years old, a member of the United States Air Force, a wife, a daughter, a sister. And I am also bulimic. Somehow, that last part seems to overshadow …

Bulimia - my worst enemy 
This is the first time I’ve posted on this site, and to be frank, I don't even know where to begin. Bulimia has become my everyday. It has been going on …

what is life without bulimia? 
Hi, I am a 29 yr old female who has been bulimic since I was 6 yrs old. I truly don't remember a day in my life with out throwing up at some point. …

My binge partner betrays me... 
I was taking a shower today when my boyfriend asked, "Where are those 2 boxes of Girl Scout cookies?" I had eaten both boxes as well as an entire loaf …

Dealing with the emotions and the fear behind the illness that has been with me for so long - bulimia 
Hi Shaye: So, I'm doing some soul-searching and wondering why I have been doing this to myself for a span of 25 years. It's not something easy to …

Carries Anorexia Bulimia Story 
Hello, my name is Carrie... Today I am going to stop. I threw up again I justify it by eating only once a day. If I only eat once a day it can't hurt …

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How differently things look after a month of bulimia recovery 
Hi everyone: Well, day 35 now and I'm doing good. My emotions are at a different level now I've noticed. The anxiety of resisting the urges to binge …

bulima and suffering in silence  
It all started one day when I ate way too much then I can handle and started to feel severe discomfort in my tummy... I decided that maybe if I got …

bulimia is a sad, sad life. 
Yesterday was the FIRST day in 2.5 years I did not purge. I have been reading this website word for word since I stumbled upon it a few days ago and I …

One month binge/purge free but not totally recovered - will i ever eat normally? 
Hi Shaye: So I'm feeling good, but I'm not feeling recovered - because I admit I still think about food alot. Not really craving it or obsessing over …

Jinas Struggles With Bulimia 
I feel so.............stupid. My parents figured out about my bulimia (I told and brought it out for help.) But, at the time I needed to use fingers …

Bulimic from 16 to 21, at 34 it continues to visit me 
I am feeling so disappointed. I thought that I released my "closest friend" when I gave away her secret (at 21). I am 34 and have experienced some expected …

My opinions and experience with bulimia - don't ever start, this is how it may turn out 
So, someone who is considering purging once in a while to lose weight and is thinking - what harm could it do? I am thinking to myself - NO, you don't …

The Red Cord - Deborahs Anorexia Bulimia Story 
Years ago, before my daughter entered puberty, I vowed to get a hold of my eating disorder. I was anorexic before Karen Carpenter died and the psychiatrists …

Will This Bulimia Nightmare Will Ever End 
Hi Shaye, As I sit here crying and writing this I just have to ask if this ever ends? I was once Anorexic, and now have had a relapse into binge eating …

3 weeks after bulimia - Val's recovery journey 
So, a quick note... I've been bulimic for about 25 years (it varied in intensity over all those years but I've never made a conscious effort to quit). …

Bombs... Lou's moms comments 
Parents got back from their trip and I have been bombarded with emotional triggers from my mum. And have fought off every binge urge from them, but am …

Me, Exposed - Lou's Bulimia Story 
'I will never eat so much and throw up again, ever!' I've said this to myself many many times before, circled dates on calendars to prove my commitment, …

Putting an end to my life of shame. KT's Bulimia Recovery 
Thank you Shaye... I have learned so much from your website and what I have learned has lead me to today, my new day, me new life. I share with you …

Not All is Lost - Rose's Bulimia Recovery Journey 
Hi, This is not my full story; it is more of a diary-like rambling of my thoughts that is much needed at the moment. To begin with, I stumbled …

Only 10 days into bulimia 
Hi, I'm 19, and I only been binging and purging for a week or so. I'm in the Navy in one of the toughest schools, and it just been stressing me out. …

To my fellow bulimia sufferers: THIS MEANS WAR!!! 
Reason: Hmm, 3:00pm... You know, we haven't fed her yet today. ED (glowering): So? Reason (tentatively): So why don't we go and make her a banana …

My goodbye letter to my dearest enemy Bulimia 
THE EARLY YEARS: I'll start off with I remember first binging and purging when I was about 14 or 15, That was about 25 years ago. I had lost about 50 …

Afraid of bulimia, afraid of recovery, afraid of life 
Hi Shaye, I am trying to live without bulimia and my attempts are lasting for a few days at the most. What's so horrible is that I am completely aware …

Bulimia and trusting myself 
My bulimia expresses many emotions, one of which is distrust. I don't trust my body to properly handle food. My bulimic thinking goes like this... "If …

I thought I could never be happy with myself - Evas Bulimia Recovery Story 
I began riding the eating disorder roller coaster when I was 16. I was very unhappy with my appearance. No matter who told me that I was a perfect size …

How it all started - Lauras Bulimia Story 
When I was fourteen years old, my mum brought home a set of scales. We hadn't had one in the house before, so it was kind of a novelty for me. More than …

Bulimia seems alright... But isn't 
I was never fat... But all my closest friends were very skinny and petite. I was always just a little bit taller and a little bigger than everyone else …

I became so used to vomiting that I never had to try... 
Hello... My name is Rebecca. I had never been a girl with high self-esteem. I grew up being called lard ass and blubber whale by my family... even …

how bulimia changed my life 
Hi I'm Roxanne, I want to share my story about my experience with bulimia. I like reading your site because it makes me realize that I'm not alone with …

The Fog - Bulimia 
Bulimia is like a fog... It is a rare moment that you find clarity or unclouded reality in bulimic indulgence. Bingeing and purging just becomes …

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My most horrible bulimia moment 
I have two actually... One being a few months ago when I was on lunch break at work. I never ate with other people because everytime anyone saw me eat …

Bulimia - A Living Nightmare 
I'm 16 and a year ago I used to weigh 160. But I went to a very strict diet, I was so disciplined and determined to lose weight... NO CARBS NO MEAT …

Shaye helped my bulimia years ago . . . 
I had bulimia for a bout 5 years - never really admitting what I was doing or that I needed help. I met Shaye through an x boy friend of mine probably …

Taking my dad dinner - a story of life without bulimia... 
Tonight I went for dinner with my good friends Hannah and Jemma. We went to an Indian restaurant in an up market part of town... A pre Christmas treat …

Working through bulimia triggers 
Hi All - Today I received a bag of chocolate candy as a holiday gift from a vendor. The candy is wrapped in a clear holiday gift bag and when …

When I Told My Boyfriend I was Bulimic 
I'm a sophomore in college, and I've been bulimic since the summer of my freshman year of high school (so probably going on about 5 years now). Over …

My bulimia struggle, today. 
... It happened again. Oh boy, there's just nothing like having that sweet toilet water mixture splash up at you during a binge/purge. I have …

Needing hope - Jennifer's bulimia story 
Hello - Last night I was literally on my knees crying and praying for some entitiy to help me. I had binged and I could not get the food to come …

What can you do, when your food is eating you? Morgans Bulimia Story... 
I'm turning 17 in little over a month. I live in Saskatoon, Saskatchewan, Canada. I have had distorted eating since about Grade 7 but it has escalated …

My dirty little secret - Jo's story about bulimia teeth 
Heya, My name is Jo, I'm 24 and from New Zealand. I developed bulimia around 3 and a half years ago and as a result the majority of my teeth are …

Searching through puke - a gross bulimia story 
I had recently just cleaned out my room and had a pile of things I wanted to throw out. In my closet was a bag of puke I had purged earlier and was waiting …

My journey through hell - bulimia 
Ok here goes I suppose... Well, when I was 13 years old my older sister died which took my family by storm. My mother changed over night in mind …

This is not the story of my life, it is just a massive challege - Ji's bulimia story 
How do You imagine the enemy in your head? I have read a lot of posts and stories about girls thinking that Bulimia is their life and so on! I do …

A secret mess... bulimia 
I have been bulimic off and on for about 5 years now. It's crazy for me to imagine it's been that long. There have been many times I thought I was past …

Today I forgot to eat...  
How cool is that? I actually forgot to eat! That to me, is proof that bulimia is truly out of my system! When I was bulimic I remember thinking …

First my gratitude.. then my bulimia story. 
Shaye, before I share my bulimia story I have to express how much of an inspiration you are! This website has just been such a comfort to me and its …

My Life and Bulimia  
I'm 21 , I'm 5'6 and weigh 62 kgs... As a kid i was very thin but then when I was eight onwards I started gaining weight. Well I was always active and …

My bulimic effort 
It all started when I was 13. I began to keep a little food diary, looking back... I had an underweight BMI - but I decided to get healthy and thin. …

Snapshots of Bulimia 
I remember... *My grandmother standing me in front of the mirror when I was ten years old, wrapping a skirt around me waist and gushing, "Oh, look how …

Want to be done with Bulimia... but don't want to lose my best friend? 
Everyone I know seems to think I'm a really nice person and have it all together. Little do they know, that I stuff myself and purge at every chance I …

Trying and Losing... Lucy's Bulimia Story 
I'm 17, 5'1" and 44 kg. I started out as an anorexic when i came home one day and looked into the mirror and saw just how GIGANTIC I was at 51 kg. So I …

My Bulimia Experiment... Which I don't recommend to anyone! 
I knew that I was no longer bulimic as it had been over 3 years since I last threw up or had a major binge... I thought if I let myself have one weekend …

my life - a bulimia story 
I have been bulimic for so long and have recently stopped... I am 11 and will be 12 in 3 days on June 3, 2010... I stopped on my own. I only started …

My bulimia story 
I'm 26 and have been suffering with bulimia for almost 5 years now. I have had a lot of upset in my family (not things happening to me personally) …

My teeth were badly discoloured and were crumbling away - Jodie's bulimia dream 
I had two braces growing up to get perfect teeth... and was always commented on how white they were. So suffering from bulimia has really knocked that …

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Shame in the city - Rita's Bulimia Story 
I wish I could say I have recovered but I am still in the trenches of bulimia. The shame is eating away at me more than anything else at the moment. …

Caught Throwing Up in the Insinkerator - My Most Embarrasing Bulimia Story! 
I was having a movie night with the girls... I had eaten a huge amount of junk food and was feeling sickly full... I didn't want to rush off to the

The most embarassing & scary bulimia story of my life - When I swallowed a toothbrush trying to throw up 
My Embarrassing Bulimia story... The Day I Swallowed a Toothbrush I was bulimic on and off, (mainly on) for about 12 years. The worst of my Bulimia …

Leaving my stomach behind... 
Late at night on the drive home from theater rehearsal I went to a gas station and bought 2 large sized candy bars and a box of cookies. I gorged until …

Do I have bulimia? I need help! 
Hi everyone …

IPECAC SYRUP, (when a toothbrush just isn't enough!) 
I've been bulimic for 10 years (I'm 24)and have finally decided that I need help and want to stop. I have talked myself out of it so many times and I finally …

My First Confession - this is it - Jessicas bulimia story... 
So this isn't easy. You all are the first people that I am telling. I just feel hopeless. And I don't want to be stuck like this anymore. That's how I …

Fear of being fat - Ashleys Bulimia Story 
I have had bulimia for 6 years, I'm 23, I never really knew how it started until 3 years later you realize you have a problem. I was chubby when i was …

My bulimia 
As a little girl i was nver worried about my weight, I lived with my dad who also raised me.My dad always made the best foods, not to mention the big portions …

A day in the life... 
One morning I woke up with high hopes, which wasn't unlike most other days. Today was a new day, another day of restricting and losing the terrible weight …

My Secret Relationship with Food 
It has taken me a long time to come to terms with my relationship with food and how I got to be in this place. I went to a high-achieving all girls' …

I need help. 
I just started over the summer. Im 16 and a junior. I don't really know what prompted me to start. I run cross country and track all year round. Over the …

4 years and counting... 
After spending my whole childhood being chubby, early teenage years being curvy later leading to obesity and being bullied for the majority of these years; …

How my life courages my bulimia Not rated yet
I was always a quiet calm child. Who needed nothing but calm corner to sit there and watch out or think about something or play with things that I was …

First Big Step....Hopefully!! Not rated yet
Hi my name is Eimear and I've been bulimic for a few months now. I'm 22 and I don't know who I am anymore. I can't really pinpoint the exact reason why …

Is this really happening? Not rated yet
As a child, I was always very thin. I have a twin sister who has always been larger than me. My whole childhood, I was always being told how thin I was …

Will it ever end? Not rated yet
So. This is not the first time I have considered joining an online support group. After all, I have been battling bulimia for 6 years now... but this …

I'm trying, but mia leaves me lost! Not rated yet
Hi, I don't even know where to begin... The past 5 and 1/2 years (on and off, that long, surely not, but sadly it is and there's not much sign of her …

I've been bulimic longer than I haven't  Not rated yet
Please help me. I've had bulimia for over 30 years. I am now in my 40's. I can't do this anymore as my body is now starting to break down. I've attempted …

Karate and ex-fitness girl now turning bulimic Not rated yet
Hey there! First of all, just want to let know to whoever is reading that this may be triggering and sorry if my english is not that good, but I will …

Scared of a damaging future Not rated yet
I'm 16 and have been struggling with anorexia and bulimia urges for a while now, I guess it started once I moved to a new state and had to leave my boyfriend, …

Cant get out of bed except to binge&purge Not rated yet
A decade + of my life I have been bulimic and anorexic. I used to be an energetic, witty girl with tons of personality..now I'm a stone. Like many others, …

Bulimia doesn't stay secret 30 years on Not rated yet
I have been bulimic for most of my life. A few years ago my private shame was made public at the dentist. The enamel on my teeth has eroded so much that …

Bulimia Story and Remedies I learned along the way Not rated yet
Hi I'm Jay and my form of purging was laxative abuse (I use to take 3 pink pills during the night time and when washing it down with water I could literally …

Swallowed straw  Not rated yet
I am 40 years old, and suffered from bulimia between the ages of 14 & 16. It seems like ages ago, but reading through these stories brings back the ugly …

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the demons with in Not rated yet
Hi my name is mari.. iam 21 years old and have been in recovery for 2 months today :) ..I was bulimic for 4 years.. worst years of my life. . I had …

At first it didn't seem so bad Not rated yet
I’m a nineteen-year old guy. I’m a university student and been bulimic since I was fourteen. Growing up I didn’t have many friends. I was a bit over-weight …

Cocaine addiction and bulimia Not rated yet
I'm in recovery from cocaine addiction, and when I finally managed to stop using I started eating instead. I didn't seem to get full like most people- …

and once again I find myself on day 1 Not rated yet
here I am again on day 1........... The first day of my "new life". The first day of eating normally. The first day of no more binging. The first day of …

My fight with bulimia Not rated yet
Hi there, I am 17 years old and I have been dealing with bulimia for more than two years now. As a child I was always very happy and spontanious, but …

I'm searching for hope Not rated yet
I am 58 yrs old and have been bulimic since I was 17 years old. Do the math; that is 41 years that I have binged and purged at least once a day, seven …

I need accountability! Not rated yet
I am 21, and have what seems gone from one problem to another. (not to tell sad story, just to give a ltitle background where I came from) One of …

No one knew.  Not rated yet
It started when I was 11. I honestly don't remember why I even started. I am now 19 years old and didn't even no I was bulimic until my doctor asked if …

Five years later. Recovery; let's do this! Not rated yet
Dear all, I am nineteen and i've just begun my first year at University studying Medical Neuroscience. I have been living with bulimia since I was fourteen, …

Untitled Not rated yet
It all started when i was at a friends house with one other girl. she asked me to take a walk with her and on that walk inbetween two houses she stuck …

I need to be saved from myself Not rated yet
My name is Maria. I developed anorexia aged 11 after suffering sexual abuse for four years. I ate very small amounts and my weight plummeted to X stone. …

1 month Recovering Bulimic... but still BLOATED, whats the average time this will last? Not rated yet
Let me start by saying that throughout my life I ALWAYS LOVEDD FOOD. And since I came from a family of thin people and I myself was always thin, I never …

I Dont Know How I Got Here Not rated yet
I've just had my 17th birthday, and I've never felt lower in my life. I've always hated my body ever since I was a little girl when I was a little chubby. …

No one is alone Not rated yet
I have spent the last 15 years with only one goal in mind. To see and feel my bones. I have destroyed any closeness to my family, lost endless, …

Bullimic to prove I am not Anorexic Not rated yet
When I was younger I was embarrassed of my weight, always slightly chubbier than other people. I decided that my diet was to blame (as it was) and became …

My Way of Punishing Myself (Trauma & Abuse) Not rated yet
My emotional eating began when my parents divorced, my Grandma died, my Mom's addiction to Meth spun out of control and myself and 3 siblings were separated …

why i just can't stop Not rated yet
i've had an eating disorder as long as i can remember. i used to be fat...like really fat. i weighed X when i was 12. i constantly ate everything in sight. …

Running Out of Time Not rated yet
It shocks me when I say out loud (or here in writing) that I have been bulimic for 37 years. At 17, it seemed like a wonderful solution to weight gain …

RECOVEReD Not rated yet
I signed up to this website a long time ago, in absolute desperation. At the time I remember thinking that I would never get away from my bulimia. It was …

Stuck.  Not rated yet
I am 20 years old and have been struggling with bulimia for four long years. Recently it has been taking over my life and I hate every part of it. I find …

Beauty is painful  Not rated yet
Bulimia began for me the summer before I started university. Previous to this I had spent the last year of my life losing weight. It wasn't a negative …

Help please. Relapsing  Not rated yet
My story so far. Please help if you can. Any links, ideas, or suggestions would be so helpful. Last year, I was under a lot of stress. I was a senior …

Food- My Only Friend/My Worst Enemy Not rated yet
Everyone says how me and my Mum were so close. I was the youngest of the 4 of us, the baby, and she could get very protective of me. Until her new boyfriend …

Bulimia is killing me inside and outside  Not rated yet
I'm Nicole and heres my story... I am 21 years old. I have hated my body since I was as young as 5 years old. I have never liked the way I looked. I …

Bulimia is my Life; My Life is My Lie. Not rated yet
My life is an utter lie. A complete act. I do not remember the last time I went an entire day without lying. And, I cannot tell if my bulimia is the cause, …

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Closet bulimic Not rated yet
I don't know where to start, I'm 21 years old and I've been bulimic for 10 years now, I am right now the deepest into this illness I have ever been. I've …

Healing, Learning, Growing Not rated yet
Ever since I can remember, I've been an extreme perfectionist. I know now that those tendencies stem from the constant criticism I endured from my father, …

Proud of myself - the strongest motivation. Not rated yet
Shaye...thank you. This blog allowed me to tell my story about a year ago and with your advice via emails to be patient and to love myself during my recovery …

I would make excuses for him to leave my house.. so I could throw up after we hung out Not rated yet
I can remember my first purge when I was with my friend going to an organized school dance when i was 12. We hadn't even eaten a lot.. and were laughing …

Consumed  Not rated yet
I will try to make this brief, although an eating disorder has now consumed my life for the past 2 years (no pun intended). When I was 15 I had …

Bulima and food have taken over my life Not rated yet
I guess i started to feel self conscious when I quit playing sport. From the age of 8 to 15 I was a competitive swimmer and state level soccer player I …

How it began. Not rated yet
Hi, my name is Silver and I've been bulimic since about 2 years now. It all started when i began putting on a lot of weight around 15 years old. I was …

HELP! Not rated yet
Hi everyone, I am 21 years old and I have had bulimia for 6 years now. This summer, I tried really hard to stop, and I could go 4-6 days without throwing …

Today is my day to stop. Thank you Shaye!! Not rated yet
As first I would love to send big "THANKS", kiss and hug to Shaye, who is doing so much for us! This disease is so strange and there are not information …

felt understood for the first time...  Not rated yet
I am Brenda and by reading Shaye's articles I felt understood for the first time in my life. I never talk about my bulimia because people close to me have …

Salmon and me Not rated yet
After many years of purging during my late teens/uni time my stomach just refused to bring up the food... I think actually my muscle had collapsed and …

I hope I can do it. Not rated yet
It's now my second week since I decided to be healthy. I am 24 and I started purging when I was 19. I decided to recover from Bulimia because my Blood …

Teen Mom with Self Esteem issues Not rated yet
As long as can remember I've had such horrible self esteem issues. I couldn't go a day without looking in the mirror and looking at how ugly, fat and disgusting …

7 and alone Not rated yet
As a child I would often seek help and knowledge from books. I was a very thin child actually! I often heard stories of my mothers disordered eating and …

Never thought it was a problem Not rated yet
A couple of months ago I was at home with my boyfriend drinking and eating A LOT of ice cream and pizza. I had 3 slices and half of a gallon of ice cream, …

can it be true? Not rated yet
I'm alot over weight, and I have been making myself sick after meals, it just feels like a habit. I didnt know if people who are over weight could get …

On and off disorder.. Not rated yet
I tried throwing up when I was about 9-10 because I saw it on tv and I've always been chubby, so I wanted to find out if it worked. I only did it for 3 …

A Year of Hell Not rated yet
As a kid, I had always been overweight but it never really bothered me. I was never bullied about it and I was actually quite popular. I was very comfertable …

Getting Caught But Hiding It Not rated yet
I'm fourteen years old and I've been making myself throw up after eating for about a year and I've lost a considerable amount of weight. I thought no one …

Strange Bulimia Tricks Not rated yet
I don't want to go into the how or why I've spent 12 years stuck in this illness. At least I'm only 25 and could maybe still have a chance of living a …

My 4th year with Bulimia Not rated yet
I was a very happy, joyful girl who could have anything she wanted. I've always loved art, singing and dancing my passions. But my life changed in 2009. …

My Battle with Bulimia Not rated yet
My life was perfectly fine but then my mom was diagnosed with cancer and it made me downfall. In school I was teased a lot about my weight and appearance. …

7 months in Bulimia Recovery Not rated yet
well here I am 7 months into recovery......I WAS Bulimic 36 years! and yes I was at X Lbs at one point in my life. I thought I was going to die from my …

IT Matters Why....or does it?!!! Not rated yet
There were days that would go by where I would binge and purge 6 to 7 times. Now if the temptation occurs, I couldn't even if I tried. Luck have it I was …

THE MONSTER WITH IN  Not rated yet
Hello , Im 20 years old and I have a 3 year old son and Im going to share my story and hope you all can give me answers to some of my questions . It all …

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Realisation and Recovery Not rated yet
Shaye, your brave website is amazing. I have been bulimic for 12 years. I have lost teeth, had tens of fillings, root cannals and suffered heart palpitations …

Yesterday, I decided to recover.  Not rated yet
Yesterday, yes, it was yesterday. In my company's afternoon BBQ, during which served with ice cream, whipped cream, crackers, and chocolate chip cookies, …

Thank you Not rated yet
Never shared this before. Anorexic at 10 years old. Developed into bulimia by 14. Stopped for a year at 18 but had substituted vomiting for excessive studying. …

Perfectionism Not rated yet
My journey began halfway through my freshman year of college. I am a collegiate track athlete, and our coach kept getting on our girl's team about how …

Food as joy Not rated yet
I've been struggling with Bulimia for longer than I realised. It's only now that binging and purging have become daily occurrences that I realise the seriousness …

I'm scared and I want help Not rated yet
I'm going to university this year and things are looking bright for me. I'm turning 18, I have great grades, and I've always tried really hard at everything …

Having a roommate is giving me a hard time Not rated yet
Ok so I've been anorexic for 1 year and a half. Then, bulimia came in. I'm bulimic since the beggining of 2012. Being at my mom's house was pretty easy …

My battle with bulimia  Not rated yet
I was adopted when I was 7and a half. Before that I lived in Russia with my alcoholic grandma because my parents were to drugged out to take care of me. …

Vanilla Ice Cream Not rated yet
I can't remember exactly when it began but I think somewhere around fourth grade. As a kid I loved food and was not fat but a little chubby. This was …

I SUFFERED A CARDIAC ARREST...It can happen to you too. My continous battle. Not rated yet
I am now 32 and still suffering from this bulimia hell. At 6 years of age my Dad, committed suicide in the home we still live in today. My Mother overcompensated …

Desperate For Help and Needing to Take Control Not rated yet
I'm a 22 year old girl, and I've been bulimic for 10 years now. It's really weird and scary that I am so young and have had this mental disease for a …

still on the journey to recover from MIA Not rated yet
My story starts when I was 13 years old. I have always been chubby and never "normal " as such. I went to an all you can eat buffet with my parents and …

Bulemic since fourth grade Not rated yet
Hello, I am 14 and currently going into eighth grade. I have suffered from bulImia since fourth grade and major depression since I was eight, the first …

Tired of bulimia and out of options Not rated yet
Hi I'm 18 years old and about to be a freshmen in college I thought I was done with bulimia last year after two years of constant binging, but it back …

My Bulimia Story Not rated yet
I had bulimia, and I started on January 4, 2013. I was already depressed because I used to cut myself before my bulimia started. Although its only been …

My Fears and Struggles: A History Not rated yet
This is the first time I've ever shared my story, I've never told a single soul...I'm feeling better already! Phew! Anyway, my problem began with hope--or …

Going through hell Not rated yet
I don't remember how I started it was a few years ago I just remember this horrible feeling of wanting an escape from feeling different and being overweight …

My story Not rated yet
Not sure if this is going to make sense!! But here goes!! Back in sept 2010 I was X stone and a size X. I started slimming world and losing weight sensibly …

Bulimia has taken over everything Not rated yet
Hey there, I totally suck at writing stuff like this... but here it goes... I'm a 25 year old female and i'v had bulimia since the age of 7. At age 2 …

Can food be my friend?  Not rated yet
My entire life I have been fat. I remember when I was about five or six my Mum talking about other girls in my preschool and primary school classes and …

just want to cry Not rated yet
I told my best friend about it almost a year ago but kept at it secretly Stopped about four months ago but have done it a few times since Late other …

My bulimia story (1 year by now) Not rated yet
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Creating my own ennemy. Not rated yet
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feeling lost and alone.. Not rated yet
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Bulimia and Anorexia  Not rated yet
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My thirty years of bulimia Not rated yet
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I feel totally guilty Not rated yet
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Life is slipping through my hands like sand Not rated yet
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Chasing Dreams, Fame and Skinny Not rated yet
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Confessions of a foodaholic Not rated yet
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What's under the bed? Not rated yet
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Hopeless Not rated yet
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It rules my life, but I don't want it to take it from me.  Not rated yet
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from emetophobia (fear of vomiting) to bulimia Not rated yet
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I only recognize myself as The Bulimic, nothing else :( Not rated yet
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Not Caring About Who Hears Me Puke Not rated yet
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The man in black Not rated yet
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My Recovery Attempt Not rated yet
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ADVICE NEEDED!! Not rated yet
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The deadliest mental illness EVER, and in remission for over 3yrs!  Not rated yet
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life in circles Not rated yet
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Still struggling Not rated yet
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Feelings of Inadequacy Not rated yet
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The Bulimic Nightmare  Not rated yet
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Finally let it all go....  Not rated yet
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I am bulimic too.... Not rated yet
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My Advice to You Not rated yet
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My Story. Not rated yet
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Because my boyfriend wanted me to look "different"... Not rated yet
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Born Big Not rated yet
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emetophobic male bulimic Not rated yet
First of all I am a 15 year old boy, I live in the UK. I have been bulimic for 2 months. I tried to vomit when i was 14, couldn't do it, until I learned …

Coming to terms with Bulimia.  Not rated yet
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The disgusting way I was found out Not rated yet
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kitchen feels like my residence Not rated yet
going up in a world where everyone else goes down. it like running in the wrong direction during a race. I have a deep phobia of obesity on me. Sometimes …

THINKING ABOUT IT part 1 Not rated yet
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I suffer from bulimia and no one even suspects because I am a size 16 Not rated yet
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My journey into and out of bulimia Not rated yet
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i'm new to this... Not rated yet
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i lied myself that i will quit Not rated yet
I actually wrote my story a few months ago,but then I was convinced that I will stop..but,it just got worst. Every day I'm trying to eat less and healthier …

JULIA Not rated yet
Dear Shaye, I was trying to email you but I COULDNT do it I dont know why.............I live in UK but I am not English. I hope you understand my letter …

Battling Guilt Not rated yet
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Never again will I let this happen.. Not rated yet
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Hiding Bulimia Not rated yet
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My struggle with Bulimia. Not rated yet
It started when I was 13 but wasn't serious. I read a book in which the main character tried this method to lose weight so that's how I got the idea. I …

The never ending hell hole..... Not rated yet
Bulimia is a trap. You feel embraced by feelings of guild, self-hatred, and disgust. I am writing here today as my very first entry in any eating disorder …

I'm just so grosse! Not rated yet
I'm still suffering with bulimia. Have been since 2008. I have gone through periods of time ( a month or so) where i haven't thrown up anything or been …

Nobody Knows.. Not rated yet
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This isnt what I signed up for. Not rated yet
I have been a track and cross country addict for 5 years. As a runner I have always tried to find ways to become faster and faster. Sophomore year in high …

How Bulimia Snuck Up On Me Not rated yet
As a kid, I always knew that there was something wrong with the way my sister ate. Mainly, that she didn't. At least not around me, her kid sister, seven …

Karen Carpenter Not rated yet
I read Janet's information (bulimic for 30 years) - and can very much relate. I am about there - 42 years old next week. I can remember hiding food young. …

a balancing act Not rated yet
I'm 26 now, have a great job and live away from my family. On the surface I have it all, I had a great childhood and I have some brilliant friends. Despite …

I'm really scared  Not rated yet
I've been bulimic for about 15years on and off! 3 weeks ago I started with chest pain, ecg, blood test and chest X-ray later and my hearts good! I've not …

I have bulimia Not rated yet
I am studying to be a psychiatrist. I use food and exercise and sometimes laxatives and vomiting to cope with negative emotions. I live in shame some, …

Bulimia is Stealing my Happiness Not rated yet
I just turned 13 and am absolutely ashamed to admit I purged my delicous birthday dinner and cake that my parents spent the entire day preparing. I'm really …

A-Man-in-A-Hurriah Not rated yet
My bad, I had to look this word up in a medical dictionary. My periods had stopped for a few months after beginning a new diet, again, and over-exercising,and …

I need recovery advise please!! Not rated yet
I am 21 years old and have living with bulimia for almost two years. I grew up in a nutritionist's house who had also suffered from bulimia. I loved …

Family trouble Not rated yet
Hi shaye and everyone, This is my second time recovering. Last time was two years ago when I went away for an exchange for two months. Life was stress …

I don't know where to begin... Not rated yet
Hi, This is the first time I've really spoken openly about this, and Shaye, I can't tell you how much it means to have found this site. My bulimia started …

Bulimia ruins your life Not rated yet
I remember a time when bulimia didn't rule my life and I could eat normally and not care about a calorie. I was happy and knew when I had enough to eat. …

I am on my way to finding peace  Not rated yet
Yesterday was the first day that I haven't thrown up in almost 4 years. I have decided to free myself and redefine my life. I feel so proud of myself and …

Bulimia that I want to free from!!! Not rated yet
I am 19 and I am a bulimic who wants to be free! I am not telling anyone about it! Way to embarrassing! I told my sister and she started freaking out on …

Imperfect sense of self Not rated yet
When I was in elementary school, I was a great kid. I was fun and a great student and had lots of friends. My family, all my relatives, everyone saw me …

I'm a loved one with a heavy heart Not rated yet
Hello my name is Joe. I am writing this to talk about the love of my life. She is struggling with Bulimia and has been doing so for a long time. We have …

my bulimia/anorexia and my boyfriend Not rated yet
I’ve been bulimic for about a year and a half, and I’ve been through anorexic phases throughout this period of time. I’ve recovered for about a month now. …

I must quit Not rated yet
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My Story, From beginning to present  Not rated yet
Hello, I am 25 years old and I have been binging and purging for nearly 10 years now. I started when I was 16 years old. Ever since I was in grade school …

My shamefull bulimia story  Not rated yet
Before I was bulimic I was basically the girl to ask my mom to stop off at a donut shop so I could down three donuts. I was completely happy about my weight …

I wanna be happy Not rated yet
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Who's life is this really? Not rated yet
I am 24 years old . I have been bulimic since I was 12 years old. It's scary for me to think that bulimia has been part of me for half of my life. It's …

Maybe One Day Not rated yet
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bulimia recovery Not rated yet
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My Paradox Not rated yet
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Bulimia,anxiety,pregnancy before after and during pregnancy brings miracles and alot of mahaem Not rated yet
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another fight with Bulimia :'( Not rated yet
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Caught by boyfriend being sick Not rated yet
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bulimia ruined my teen years. Not rated yet
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Not a little girl anymore. Not rated yet
A child always has a happy childhood, right? Wrong. When I was a little girl I was going through things no little girl should. My mom lost my unborn sisters …

My story  Not rated yet
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Bulimic baker Not rated yet
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my greatest enemy Not rated yet
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I dont know what to do  Not rated yet
I dont know what to do. I just feel so sad and empty and alone. I just want food all the time and it doesnt matter what it is ill eat it. But then I …

Bathtub Mishaps Not rated yet
I was fifteen when I started bulimia. I was always overweight as a child, not "fat" just "chunky". I dealt with it, though. I would hate myself, but I …

My Bulimia Story Not rated yet
As a child, I was always really chubby but it never really bothered me. Most of the people in my family were chubby too so I never really felt out of place. …

I never would of stopped.  Not rated yet
I started when I was 17, it was my senior year in high school and I wanted to lose weight so I could feel beautiful on prom night. And surely enough I …

Fat, Thin, and Fat Again - What Bulimia Did to Me Not rated yet
It started out as a way to lose weight. That's all. In 1999, I was 24 years old and X pounds. I had been heavy my entire life, and in the preceding …

Not Bad But Still Sad. Not rated yet
So I've been bulimic for about two months, and I know that's nothing compared to other but for me, someone who would have never considered it it was a …

How did I get here?! Not rated yet
I've always seen the future as bright, and I was so eager to fulfill all my dreams. My ambition guided me through all obstacles, and nothing would come …

the big moment of realisation... oh crap, i am actually not okay. Not rated yet
We had been looking forward to going to this party all month, a day time event where all our friends and half of cape town would be enjoying the sunshine. …

living with a bulimic Not rated yet
One of the hardest thing for me as a health student was to watch with empathy and sadness as my roommate would be in the bathroom purging or taking laxatives. …

Scared and praying Not rated yet
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Bulimia and Im only 19!!! Not rated yet
I am currently suffering from bulimia. I'm the type of guy who want to do everything on my own because Ive been on my own. so I would hate to go and get …

Graphic horrifying details Not rated yet
I'm writing here because I miss being skinny. I don't have the self-control to successfully lose weight by diet and exercise, and I've gained so much …

Frustrated for far too long Not rated yet
I started out with restricting my calories sharply in the 8th grade. I had always been the chubbier sister, the friend who big butt everyone made fun of, …

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HOW MUCH DOES HAPPINESS WEIGH? Not rated yet
Hi Shaye, and hello world Firstly, I would like to thank you Shaye, for... well, being! I truly believe that God put your videos on my ipad that day …

Bulimia kills  Not rated yet
My best friend, Robyn, a suffering bulimic, commited suicide. This is her story (part of her suicide note): *** I'm sorry I'm not perfect. I tried …

Body can't stop Not rated yet
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I'll Never Be Good Enough Not rated yet
My First Bulimic Experience was in the 7th grade. I had always been on the little chubby side, but towards the end of the 6th grade I got fat. I would …

My Bulimia Not rated yet
My name is Anna and I'm sixteen. I've been battling bulimia since I was eight years old and I began the very earliest stages of puberty. I grew up with …

My sister's bulimia Not rated yet
Hi there, Shaye. This isn't really much of a story, or even mine to tell really. I was reading your story and I kept crying because my sister had both …

Purging so hard I peed and pooped my pants many times Not rated yet
Sometimes I will purge so hard that I pee and even pooped my pants from the pressure. I would have to come out with different pants and have to make up …

Never good enough Not rated yet
In High School I seemed to have it all together, and people seemed to be jealous of that. I did well in school and sports, and had a boyfriend I was head …

Time to face the music Not rated yet
I am 28 years old. I have been battling bulimia for more than 10 years. When I write this down it seems ridiculous. How can anyone function for so long …

A piece of art  Not rated yet
I've had eating disorders for three years. Now I'm trying to recover, assisting to individual and group therapies. I have good and bad days, but it's always …

My hell Not rated yet
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Zachary's New york pizza and Ipecac Cocktail pickel: Not rated yet
There was this time in my life when myself and my former, long term boyfriend would go out weekly for NY style pizza. It was all in good fun, but I always …

hey  Not rated yet
Hi I started bulimia when I was about 10 I'm 18 now and anerexic and bulimic I am very depressed and trying to recover and so my eating schedule is messed …

Wasted Years Not rated yet
I first made myself vomit on a certain afternoon about 5 years ago, when I was 24. I have had body issues since the age of 18, when I started university. …

I want to live Not rated yet
I hv been bulimic for 12yrs... I don't want to die from this I am 24 and I love life I know ups and downs and all arounds of the darkness of this.....I …

My bulimia story Not rated yet
Hi, my name is Carmen i am now 19 years old. I suffered from bulimia in my middle school and early high school years. All my life i've been having a X …

Anniversary  Not rated yet
It has been slightly over a year since I first made myself throw up. I did it before I went to a high school house party, and at this party I hooked-up …

My letter to bulimia Not rated yet
To my dearest friend and worst enemy, “Isn’t it funny how when you’re coming to the end you always think of the beginning?” – One of my sister’s friends …

I am making changes Not rated yet
I was a member of this program and Shaye has help me. With over 14 yrs of anorexic and bulima. It's been a secret my whole life. When growing up i was …

I broke my own heart. Not rated yet
I had a hard childhood. I was made fun of everywhere i went, there was no escaping it. Home, school, and everywhere in-between. I felt, hideous. The popular …

My Scariest B/P Experience Not rated yet
Hi I'm 23 years old. I've been bulimic for 10 years. I've never told anybody about it, at least up until I found this website. My scariest bulimia experience …

At the End of my Rope; Isn't knowledge supposed to be power? Not rated yet
Well. I never thought in a million years I would be physically writing the story of my ED in a public forum. I've always been a secret-keeper, defensive …

12 Years of Bulimia...a little less than half my life!! Not rated yet
I wanted to share my story after stumbling across this incredible recovery program. From the age of 8 until 13, I competed for the county in spring …

Self hatred Not rated yet
I remember when I had hope. I was THRILLED to start community college, grow up, get a job, move out, have my own career, etc... Until bulimia came into …

45 days b/p free. Not rated yet
So I have not been b/p for almost 45 days now and I have been a bulimic since I was 15. Then I stopped when I was 16 and at 17 I became and an anorexic …

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Question to parents Not rated yet
I just told my mother today that I am bulimic. You are right - there is a liberating feeling from telling people :). But my mom keeps saying its …

My mom knows. Not rated yet
Im 17 and I have been bulimic for a year now. My mom knew about this probably the last 3 months but never told me because she was to scared, until two …

Today I learned... Not rated yet
I have had an eating disorder since I was 14. I have always viewed my body very negatively. I think It started back when I was 10 and some boy called …

I would have never called myself a bulimic. Not rated yet
I have struggled with disordered eating and a distorted body image since I was seven years old. As a second grader, I remember wearing one of my mother's …

Trapped Not rated yet
Four years ago I became bulimic. After about a year of it I sought help to stop it. I had been pretty good for two and a half years. There were the occasional …

17-24 how bulimia always has its grip  Not rated yet
Where do you begin, how do you really explain how it all happened? Didn't this start because we wanted to show others how good we are at losing weight, …

Catharsis Not rated yet
This is a piece that I wrote for the "V-Day" campaign at my university. It's a campaign that raises awareness about women's abuse, sexual abuse, sexual …

life as a bulimic Not rated yet
it all started when there were major family problems, i wasnt ever happy yes i seemed like it but i was only hiding who i truly was.. although everyone …

Life Threatening Scare - now I am going for bulimia recovery! Not rated yet
Lately, I've struggled quite a bit to stay motivated in recovery. I knew I wanted and needed to recover but it didn't feel urgent so I kept putting it …

A Bulimic and Alcoholic-After Residential Treatments for Both, the Bulimia Remains :( HELP! Not rated yet
Looking back, I can see that I had problems using food for comfort even as a small child. My sister also sufferred from bulimia in High School and …

I'm 21, almost 22 I need to start my life. Not rated yet
At the beginning of my senior year my battle with bulimia began. Now at 21 almost 22 I've continued to fight what feels like a never ending battle. I honestly …

realizing. Not rated yet
ever since I can remember I was always skinny. I was actually REALLY skinny. as a kid I would be the one who looked like I was a sick kid with not enough …

The Bulimic Guy.  Not rated yet
Hi. My name is tony. im 19 So, i have always been a little chubby or fat throughout my childhood and teen years. I was always being teased (light …

Black and Bulimic! Not rated yet
I've been suffering with an eating disorder for nearly 8years now. For two years I was anorexic and then for the last six years I have been bulimic. I …

finding a cure for my solution. Not rated yet
Hi my name is kaitlyn I'm 16 years old and I suffer from bulimia for about 4 months, I've been suffering from ED for about 6 years. So I'll begin from …

My Battle with Bulimia Not rated yet
I'm 14. I threw up the first time when I was 10 but I stopped. It started again a little before I turned 13. The feeling of a empty stomach, seeing …

You eat too less!!! Not rated yet
Hello everyone, just months ago I've realized that I've suffered from Eds almsot whoel my life, anywhere from binge eating, bulimia, to drunkorexia or …

I cant do this much longer. Not rated yet
I'm 22 years old and in the Army. I have been a bulimic for....going on 11 years now. The first few years were really bad...purging between 35-50 maybe …

i just wanna be free Not rated yet
Hello I am 23 years old I have two kids and am married I am a bulimic to the extreme my body always hurts from headaches my head pounding my heart hurts …

Fired for trying to save my bulimic boss Not rated yet
At this very moment my friend and former boss of 16 years is laying in a hospital bed, on life support, with no brain activity. She is 51 years old and …

I got my life back - thank you<3 Not rated yet
I have had a very troubled life because my mum is a alcoholic since I was 10years old and this has effected me a lot. I started binging and after that …

Just came out about bulimia a few months ago. How to tell my mom about it... Not rated yet
I've been bulimic for about two years now. I've been dieting since about 6th grade and nothing worked. When I went off to college a few years ago I restricted …

My Controller Not rated yet
I want to start by saying, I hate this life that is leading me where I dont want to be. Bulimia controls my daily life and leads me nowhere. I will ignore …

Guilt and Shame- bulimia a boring existence  Not rated yet
I have come across this site numerous times on my road to recovery, however I think I have been in denial about my bulimia until now. I have decided …

It's so hard to stop Not rated yet
I wasn't always bulimic, I recently started seriously becoming bulimic probably two years ago. at first I would only threw up if I ate too much, but then …

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My Dominic addiction Not rated yet
As I lay in my bed, reading and analysing these stories, I'm left with the silent tears I've been hiding for quite some time. I am nineteen and have been …

i dont know how i got into this but i want to get out.. Not rated yet
hey there,i found this site a week ago and i cant stop reading all those familiar stories . i'm dealing with my addiction to eat and purge for 11 years. …

bulimarexia and the voice Not rated yet
I have endured this horrific disease of bulimia in combination with anorexia nervosa for 25 years. I started at the age of 19 when I was in college. …

I recovered from Bulimia, and anyone can, too Not rated yet
My name is Sara. I wrote on this blog about a year and a half ago, when I was so desperate to get rid of my disorder that I didn't know what else to do. …

Will I ever recover? Not rated yet
I have been bulimic for the past 23 years and trying to recover for the past 4 years. I am in constant battle with ED telling me that I will never be free …

The moment I knew I had to stop Not rated yet
I started throwing up my food when I was 16 - my family owned a restaurant so I had endless food available all the time. It was really bad - some days …

Years and Years and a Fire too. Not rated yet
When I was about 12 years old I was hiding near the bathroom while playing hide and seek with my brother. It being an old house there was in the cubby …

My secret is shared Not rated yet
This is my first time opening up to anyone about my story. I have been in denial for a little over a year and a half now, and it's time I fess up and …

Wanting Babies and Wedding Dress Bought Before My Recovery Start Not rated yet
I started to recover about 6 weeks ago. I decided that I was getting married and wanted to have children. I had thought that I wanted to have kids before …

My secret life  Not rated yet
I have always struggled with my weight from a young age. Being bullied never helped, their words get into your brain, deep down, you can't forget. …

Drugs, depression, disorders. 3 Di's went hand in hand. Not rated yet
Monday, 15 October 2012 I remember when i was younger i'd always tell myself, "i am never going to do drugs. never going to drink. never going to smoke. …

The day I realized that I was bulimic. Not rated yet
So here I am coming home from school. After having already purged my lunch, I was BEYOND hungry when I got home. So I ate a a large bowl of corn flakes …

Bulmic through all of High school Not rated yet
I became anorexic in 2001, bulimic in 2002. I could not decide between the two and spent my high school years over exercising, purging, using laxatives, …

Bulimia - wanna get rid of you!!!! Not rated yet
When I was 18 i started to binge and purge - since nearly 3 three years I am in this addiction now. (Sorry about my english, I'm German ;)) In summer …

My life long disease Not rated yet
My bulimia started around the age of 8 or 9 years old. My parents were divorced and I lived with my mom and her boyfriend, whom was very violent I need …

this is the first time I have ever opened up and I am doing it online  Not rated yet
Am 17 I am a dancer I dance all the time and I am on the go all the time my bulimia started at the end of 2011 I didn't tell anyone about it and nobody …

Ongoing Nightmare Not rated yet
I have been battling bulimia for three years now. When I was little I had no idea that I was even overweight until about 8th grade. In my head I never …

Eating right, working out, and still gaining weight!!!!! Not rated yet
I have been bulimic for 3 years. Before I became bulimic I was X lbs and found the will power to diet and exercise properly and I did, I got down to X …

I've lost my teenage years Not rated yet
I'm only 17 years old, but I'm already exhausted trying to deal with this. When I was younger I always got comments on my weight, ever since I can remember. …

Help me understand!  Not rated yet
Hey, so far I have found this blog very helpful but I need to understand bulimia completely! My girlfriend has bulimia and I am finding it hard to completely …

My blues Not rated yet
I am only allowed to be happy when the scale says that I can be. I told my husband that I am a laxative bulimiac two days ago. My kidney doctor can't …

Eating Disorder story Not rated yet
Around age 14 I started getting peer pressure , I was taller than most of my friends so I weighed more than most of them. I would look at my body and feel …

Asian Towards Bulimia Recovery Not rated yet
I'm supposed to finish my Analysis Paper for a 300-level directing class, instead, I'm coerced into reading bulimia stories on this site, because I binged …

here goes........ Not rated yet
Hi, i cant believe im actually writing this! I have never told a living sole about this before but things need to change. It all started when i was 13, …

If the boys only knew... Not rated yet
This summer I lived in a house with five boys while I wrote my thesis for my masters degree. As the only girl, I maintained my position as the ballsy, …

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My Story... the awakening Not rated yet
The awakening…… In the beginning Bulimia seemed like a pretty good value proposition to me – I could eat what I wanted and stay slim. What I didn’t …

My Bulimia Story... living with it  Not rated yet
Living with it ... To escape hospitalisation, I put on a marginal amount of weight and committed to psychotherapy and anti depressants. I also started …

My Bulimia Story... Not rated yet
My name is Melanie. I am 27 ½ years old and I have been Bulimic for 11 ½ years. The beginning……. Several things may have triggered my bulimia but …

bulimic attack! yuk Not rated yet
My experience with bulimia started when I was 13 years old, why?? Because, I came from a very physically, sexually and emotionally abusive background. …

My unhealthy relationship with food for 10 years Not rated yet
Hi there :) Firstly, thank you so much for this site, Shaye. It must take a lot of effort for the work you're doing, but I just want you to know, that …

dont belive that recovery is possible Not rated yet
I've been struggling with this for the past 7 years. Last year I was having a treatment that never really help. I spent 6 months on NHS waiting list and …

What Happened? Not rated yet
What happened? I was always so confident in my body. I loved curves, I loved creases; I loved thick thighs, big bottoms, full breasts and round stomachs...other …

The worst thing I ever got myself into... bulimia Not rated yet
I'm 15 and it's been about a year, maybe.. I remember the day it all started, it was after a reaaaally big dinner, and I just felt like I wanted to get …

bulimic tendencies creeping back Not rated yet
After over a year of no purging, I found myself making myself sick on a few occasions a few months back. I then got back on track and told myself it would …

My "Heroism" at night for chocolate Not rated yet
I always used to write until My life became concentrated on food.I've returned from the supermarket right now.It was 11:30 and i hoped somewhere near i'd …

Realization Not rated yet
Hi. My name is Macie. I am 19, and attending college. I have suffered from buimia since the age of 14, my 8th grade of school. I never took the time …

The truth will set you free... Not rated yet
Hi everyone :) I have had an eating disorder for 4 years. The thing is it began with anorexia. It has not been until the past year I've been stuggling …

My Three Year Battle Of Weight Troubles Not rated yet
When I was a small child, I was scary skinny. This was when I was about 6 to 9. around 10 to 12 i started gaining weight. My family started to notice. …

I just want to escape this feeling of being trapped.  Not rated yet
My name's Morgan, I never dreamed this would be me, that I'd be the girl asking for help and advice to my disorder. I started when I was in 8th grade I'm …

Dying to be thin. Not rated yet
Hi, I'm 18 years old, it's been 2 years, I've been purging, I don't need to eat, I just eat when my mom gets nervous why I'm not eating,but then I purge,but …

I got good at lying to the people that I loved the most. My most horrifying story. Not rated yet
Bulimia is one of those things that you really just can't play around with. Sometimes I feel like it has just become a part of who I am, and like many …

being bulimic ... is giving up everything you have worked for in your life ! Not rated yet
okay , it's actually the first time to ever talk about this . But I know after writing this that I will feel much better and it would help me in my recovery …

Almost there Not rated yet
My bulimia began after I turned 16. Though I was happy, I never felt good about myself. I was overweight, and thought if I could get to a good weight other …

Dear God help me.... Not rated yet
Im Sean, a 17yr old male Bulimic. It started off almost two years ago now as a "diet" and quickly turned into Anorexia, which i battled for 7-8 months, …

Sadness = bulimia Not rated yet
There was a HUGE age gap between my sister and myself and brother, 10 years. When my brother was born, my sister was already a little overweight. A year …

Recovery Not rated yet
I had bulimia for 10 years. I never told anyone, although I'm sure some people must have figured it out as I ate like a horse and never put on weight. …

Resolve, at Last Not rated yet
I am not even sure where my struggle started. I am 25. I just got married this past summer, I know I have been fighting EDs for at least 10 years, anorexia …

Having no control Not rated yet
I've been bullied since I was in 2nd grade. I am now 17 and an upcoming senior.I've been anorexic since I was about 12.. which I think triggered my bulimia. …

Getting my life back. Not rated yet
I had been bulimic for three years, and today is only the second day of my bulimia recovery journey and I am already ready to give up. It had started …

Bulimia and my marriage Not rated yet
Three in my marriage, there was only room for two. I thought I had it under control when we moved. We were starting fresh in Cyprus. I was so excited. …

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From little comments, mighty issues grow Not rated yet
My eating issues started officially when I was 12. It was a chance comment by my father, to the effect of 'You're looking a little podgy. You should go …

recovering and gaining weight Not rated yet
I have been bulimic for 3 years and I'm recovering and very depressed with gaining weight.I have been sweeting at night but it stopped.I have noticed that …

Anorexia, to Anorexia binge purge, to bumilia with anorexic tendencies Not rated yet
My life seems to just be an eating disorder, I can never just be me. I think it just started from needing some control in my life. Going from x stone …

I lost all control Not rated yet
My name is isabel I'm 17 years old and about to start college in the fall when I was 13 I overdosed on my mothers depression pills because I felt alone …

Looking for support Not rated yet
I have had bulimia on and off since I was 16 (31 now). At times through my life it has consumed, like now. I am in Afghanistan, and the constant changes, …

Playing with death Not rated yet
I have suffered from bulimia for just about four years now. It stemmed from self hatred and depression. But now it's my life. It dictates what mood I'm …

My Battle with Bulimia Not rated yet
It all started when I was about eleven years old. I was always thin, but I wanted to be thinner. I wanted people to say,"you're so lucky you're skinny!!" …

My Eating Disorder battle with Bulimia  Not rated yet
Hi, my name is Gregory. I'm 16, i have a eating disorder for over 2 years now. I'm bulimic. i binge and purge up to 8 times a day my life is so out of …

Road to Bulimia Recovery Not rated yet
I was bulimic (off and on, but mostly on) for 6 years (I am 26 years old) and am FINALLY on the road to recovery. I would get into a horrible cycle of …

My most horrifying purge story Not rated yet
While I was at uni I would binge when my flatmates were away or in the privacy of my room, then when staying at my boyfriend's flat I would barely eat. …

Sick of being me.. Not rated yet
Hello, my struggles started just one year ago, when my bmi was edging near about twenty four/twenty five.. so I started dieting and that lead really quick …

I was only "Bulimic" for about 6 months, now I can't stop gaining weight. Not rated yet
I am 5'5" and about a month ago I weighed Xlbs, which I felt was too high, considering a year before I weighed X (which I now realize is too low.) but …

Taking the first step...and looking for pan-pal! Not rated yet
Dear Shaye and dear community, I'm a girl from Germany who needs to share her story to take the first step towards recovery. I'm really sorry for my …

My bullimic story Not rated yet
hi everyone, im not quite comfortable sharing my name but i would love for others to know my story. I was never an overweight girl, all my life i had always …

the question of the swollen cheeks Not rated yet
Hi everyone, I binged and purged every day for over a decade, with occasional periods of strained abstinence that never lasted longer than a week and …

Alone in this world just me and Mia  Not rated yet
I guess you could say she has been my best friend through everything even when I didn't know it as an innocent child... Ever since I can remember I …

Fit or fat  Not rated yet
I came across this web site today and read some of the stories (blogs) on here.... So this is my story.... Like any other problem in life, childhood …

food-my drug Not rated yet
Dear shaye I discovered your website a few days ago after yet another binge/purge session. Feeling desperate and disgusted as always, i started googling …

why can't i stop! Not rated yet
I am a 36 yr old female, a recovering alcoholic and still not recovering from my bulimia. I have been binging and purging for 10 yrs now. At first I was …

Recoveries Ups and Downs Not rated yet
I was bulimic for three years. I finally decided to change my life last summer, and move forward. The first few months were hard, and the bloating was …

My Struggle Not rated yet
Hi, I've never spoken to anybody about this and I'm struggling t type this right now, I'm so scared of being judged. I've struggled with an eating …

A life between Bulimia and Anorexia Not rated yet
My Anorexia and Bulimia Story I was really thin and tall as a child. I was called lanky. It didn't bother me and I ate loads back then. I did every …

LIVE!! Christinas bulimia story Not rated yet
If every day is a "new day" or a "new chance"....when does this start to get old? I'm tired of my empty promises and broken lies. Wishes and dreams are …

My bulimia story ~ sorry if too long ~  Not rated yet
Hello I'm Lola & I'm 17 years old & can't wait to be 18 or just a bit older. I've had bulimia for 2 years now & it's been a hell of a struggle... Let's …

I feel like a monster.  Not rated yet
Hey, My name is Jane Doe, and I have Bulimia. I've had it for a while now...about 3 years I think, I've lost track and stopped counting, I've also …

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Im done, let's start. Not rated yet
Hello, my names Mikayla. I developed Anorexia three years ago at the age of 15. I spent six weeks in hospital for medical reasons and was then transferred …

Bulimia destroyed the Innocent girl  Not rated yet
Hello I'm Lola & I'm 17 years old & can't wait to be 18 or just a bit older. I've had bulimia for 2 years now & it's been a hell of a struggle. Let's see …

That little voice in my head saying you're not good enough Not rated yet
I just graduated high school from a good public school. I have plenty of friends and i've never been over weight. I played soccer and lacrosse and was …

Never Ending Misery..... Not rated yet
Hey Shaye... Hey everyone... It's been 10 years now being bulimic and anorexic... At the begining it was only my stomach.. It used to hurt whenever …

My anorexia-then bulimia cycle Not rated yet
I'm a cheerleader, 16 years old, and extremely aware of everyone else's view of me. When I started high school, I was loosing a lot of sleep, eating more, …

9 months recovery and loving life Not rated yet
Hi to everyone, I really just wanted to post you a brief story about how I have learned to love life. If I can you guys can.... Today writing these …

No more sadness...My Bulimia Story Not rated yet
My earliest vomiting was into a bucket when I was 14 years old playing and making challenges with my friend from the school at my house after lunch, …

From anorexia, to bulimia, to binge eating. When will it ever end!? Not rated yet
Hi my name's Natasha, well everyone calls me tasha, I'm twenty but I don't feel it... I was diagnosed with anorexia at the age of six, of course I didn't …

A Demon Inside of Me... BULIMIA Not rated yet
How can we stop it? Why it is so addictive? I pray to God every day to get this demon of bulimia out of my brain and body.I am 21 years old and I been …

Why Should I? Not rated yet
Gawd Shaye.... think you are absolutely brilliant!... and so powerful, such light and confidence beams through you. thank-you for the work you do. I …

Recovered but scared! Not rated yet
Hey everyone, first off I wanna say that I believe in each and everyone of you that you can beat this! Rare thing... I'm a guy! I was bulimic for about …

Change Not rated yet
Looking back now, I can see that I was an eating disorder waiting to happen. I was always very self-conscious about my weight, not because I was fat, but …

Am I Bulimic? Not rated yet
I am 44 years old, the mother of 5 and I fear that I am headed down the path to bulimia... It seems like I have been overweight my entire life. I am …

Bullimia Freedom? Not rated yet
In all honesty you don't want to be to skinny nor obese, but when someone tells you that you are either your image may begin to change. Saying this I mean …

The bathtub Not rated yet
FOOD!!! Everything from yummmmy chocolate cake to rice and french toast , you name it. Its always been there to comfort you! FOOD is a source of nutrition …

Oh Shaye....I think this is the most gross one.... Not rated yet
Hi Shaye, I've been reading the thoughts of others who share this terrible disease. It's overwhelming to take it all in. I had to stop and walk away. …

First binge/purge in over four months Not rated yet
So I'm pretty distraught as much as I'm trying not to be. For over four months, I've been binge/purge free, and the first part of that journey was beautiful …

i don't know where to start, i have so many! but one of them was at a party..  Not rated yet
When i was 18 years old it was my best friend's cousin's birthday party. They were having a bbq. I get ready at my house while pigging out on oreos and …

MY story, started at age 10 Not rated yet
Since i was in second grade, i had to take care of myself. My house was full of negative energy. Both of my homes i should say. I never had a sure place …

My story ( summarised) A life of shame, lonelyness and panic Not rated yet
My story begins years ago. I used to be happy, very active, sportive, i was a joy to be around (so my parents used to day). Because of this, i obviously …

My bulimia story Not rated yet
I have been bulimic for nearly 17 years. I, like many others, have tried so many times to stop and each and every binge and purge episode I would say that …

Living with BDD and Bulimia Not rated yet
See, I have a condition called BDD (Body Dysmorphic Order) that makes me sometimes see myself as not what others see. I may be a little bloated and what …

My nightmare Not rated yet
I have had an ED since I was 17 (I am 31 now). It all started with anorexia. I am not sure what triggered it... it might have been the traumatic experience …

trying to recover when pregnant Not rated yet
I am 24 and have been bulimic since I was 14, I was always the chubby kid because I loved my dinners but when I got to high school this was when it started... …

What it does to the outside let alone the inside Not rated yet
Hello, I seem to be the typical bulimic...started at 14 1/2. Just a little chubby. Looking back I can see how and why it started and has continued to …

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binged and confused Not rated yet
I have been throwing up since the age of 16, i am now 21 and hitting rock bottom. Not in a sense of the amount that i am purging, but i feel my body breaking …

Beautiful on the Outside Not rated yet
I'm about to be 18 years old and it makes me sick to think about all the time I've spent over the years obsessing over my weight. This started for me when …

my wish for a bulimia free life Not rated yet
So I am 27 years old and I have been secretly battling bulimia for about three years now off and on. I first realized that I had a problem when I caught …

told family but still finding it too hard, alcohol and drugs my escape! Not rated yet
im 22 years old and i have really only noticed the seriousness i have with bulimia since i got drunk one night and blurted it out to my mum and dad last …

My Bulimia Recovery Process  Not rated yet
So I'm 24 years old and I have been a bulimic for about 3 years. I think for this past year I desperately wanted my life back. My NORMAL life. I have only …

Today i decided  Not rated yet
I'm bulimic, this was my first step yesterday to admit that i'm really ill and i need help. Just today i started seriously searching for solutions to …

Where I am now Not rated yet
I just turned 30 and made a pledge to myself to stop bingeing in purging. In preparation for this, I read your website and ebook, Shaye, which have helped …

Here's my story. I hope it helps anyone going through the same. Not rated yet
Hey, My name is Ashley. I'm 20yrs old. My problem started when I was about 13 going to 14. I always wanted to be a beautiful thin model. At that age my …

Recovery Struggles Not rated yet
I wake up each morning just trying to get through the day. I feel like I put on a mask of a person that smiles and laughs, but underneath it I'm near tears …

Scared Not rated yet
Just over a year ago I started to make myself sick, I lost around a stone. Myself and my husband were trying to conceive and I needed to loose weight in …

Putting the truth down in writing for the first time Not rated yet
Hey! This is the first time I am in this website, and I hope it's really as amazing as all the comments say. I've been bulimic for a year more less and …

from fat to bulimic to fat Not rated yet
I need help. Starting about 12 I became fat. I remember not being unhappy just fat. All through high school I was overweight and fine with it, had friends …

Heres my entire story, looking to change Not rated yet
I started binge eating because of smoking weed. With my friends, it would be the first thing we would all look to do, or the first thing someone would …

"One bite is too much and one bite is not enough" WHY!? Not rated yet
Hi there, yes your stories ring very true for me too. This is my first post. I am in fact South African married to a Zimbabwean who fled Zim probably about …

Bulimia is not just for kids! Not rated yet
As I'm exploring Shaye's incredibly warm, detailed and accessible website I'm looking...as I generally do when reading books and articles on eating disorders...for …

The Rocky Road of Recovery Not rated yet
I have been bulimic for 14 years. I have recently started having terrible panic attacks and dizzy spells. For the last 3 months I felt like I was going …

My life back Not rated yet
I know I have only been bulimia for a number of months instead of the years I see some others have, but I really feel that bulimia has taken me for the …

Long Ago There Was The Chubby Girl Not rated yet
I was always the chubby one in the family. As a little girl i was normal weight, and as a kid, I was very athletic, very healthy, very happy, but pretty …

Strange but good! INSPIRATION FOR THE DESPERATE (me included) Not rated yet
Recently I've been doing a lot of thinking about stopping bingeing and the other obsessions I need to stop. Something unusual is happening to me. Well …

lowest point..... Not rated yet
I've been suffering with my bulimia for 12 yrs now, i'm 27. My weight has plummeted an then soared and then plummeted again over the years,i feel ill, …

My Bulimia Story Not rated yet
I was smart as a kid and my family did acknowledge this but all my cousins and my sisters were thin and I was rather chubby. I loved food and I would eat …

Battle with Bulimia Not rated yet
Three years ago, when I was 15, my father was killed in a plane crash. I was your typical "daddy's girl". I told him everything, and we were best friends. …

I'm so tired Not rated yet
I am 19 years old and in a month I will be 20. I am a second year university student and live with my best friends in a share house. But, I've been bulimic …

I'm still ill Not rated yet
I don't remember exactly how it all began but when my mum found out she told me I was disgusting and to stop wasting food! I binge several times after …

The Whole Thing Not rated yet
Hmmm wow I don't know where to start really. Except for that yes, this beast has taken over my life and its very depressing. It all started 6 years ago …

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Hope for all!! Not rated yet
I am 38 years old, married and four children! I have experienced all of these feelings, and have had the days of puking 30 plus times without anyone ever …

Seriously? Not rated yet
I am bulimic. What? Did that just come from me? Yup. Wow, 7 years and I still cringe when I say that. Like many people, my bulimia started because I made …

I feel like a fraud... Not rated yet
I feel like a fraud... I've been reading through the stories on this page and my story doesn't even come close. I'm 23 and i have been battling with various …

Finally Ready to Recover Not rated yet
I've always seen bulimia as my own sweet little coping mechanism. When I feel fat, I binge and purge. When I'm depressed, I binge and purge. The cycle …

Enough Said Not rated yet
I have just spent hours reading posts on this site. I have cried and laughed and related to everyone on such a personal level. My story is word for word …

very sad Not rated yet
I don't really feel like sharing my embarrassing stories I'm more concerned with my mental state and that i feel so depressed. I have had a fair amount …

Laborer and bulimic shoplifter. (Long) Not rated yet
I have been working with a traveling carnival for about three weeks now and I CANT STOP STEALING FOOD. Every day before work we park just outside the midway …

Hi, i am 21 years old. And i have bulimia for almost 5 years... Not rated yet
Hi, i am 21 years old. And i have bulimia for almost 5 years and now I think is the - breaking point - because i am very, very, very tired of doing it. …

My bulimic life  Not rated yet
When I was little I was a really skinny girl. But ever since I hit puberty I've gained weight. I hit puberty when I was 11 yrs old which was an a young …

Bipolar and Bulimic Not rated yet
My story, Just recently I was diagnosed Bipolar and have been struggling with severe depression. A lot of things have happened in the past month that …

I am recovering finally and this is the hardest thing i have ever done actually being honest about it  Not rated yet
Hi, I have been bulimic since i was 17, i was threatened to be sent away - I am 5ft and was at X lbs.... I stopped for awhile but I would constantly fall …

I had almost given up hope of recovery... Not rated yet
I am 31 years old and have suffered with Bulimia and Anorexia for 7 years. Things hit rock bottom when I was 26 after bloods revealed dangerously low electrolytes …

8 years and going of hell Not rated yet
Hi there, I am 23 and have been bulimic sine i was 15. I dont even remember the first time I discovered purging but i wish i never had as every day i feel …

My Bulimia Story Not rated yet
I was 13 years old.. I was naturally very thin (my BMI told me I was under weight) but medias idea of beauty got to me. I went through a fase in grade …

My Weight Not rated yet
I contemplated bulimia for a long time. I came across a site showing pressure points, and there was one at the neck that stimulated gagging - the rest …

I only wanted to make people happy... Not rated yet
I used to be overweight. Not obese, but overweight. I always felt fat. When I look back on pictures of me at that time, I wasn't that big. Up until I was …

Not doing this again; I can't.  Not rated yet
Last night I did something. Something I hadn't done for nearly four months. Something I regret. Last night I stared down the toilet, trying to be strong, …

I have had nasty bulimia for 8 years Not rated yet
I suffer from nasty bulimia for 8 years. It started from summer holiday when I was 16. I joined into a gym club at that time and accidentally heard …

my road to recovory makes a U turn Not rated yet
i have been bulimic since middle school. my family did not find out till last year. my freshmen year. they were so mad at me. which inly made me more secretive …

"My Baffling Bulimia Contradiction" Not rated yet
My bulimia started in the most typical time of my life - in my teen years. All of my life I felt fat and disgusting. I literally hated myself from as …

Fourteen & Dying - My Eating Disorder. Not rated yet
I'm Emily. I'll be fifteen in a matter of months. Currently suffering high school as we speak. I have a lot of friends, but none of them know my secret. …

Is it bulimia? A strange ED cycle. Not rated yet
Hello! First of all I want to apologize about my English, I know it’s really bad! Second of all, WOW I’m impressed with all the stories I’ve read! …

just starting to become bulimic. i want to stop. Not rated yet
I've recently discovered bulimia. Ive been binging and purging for about 4months now. At first it was only a few times per week, whenever my boyfriend …

Binging Babysitter Not rated yet
YES I KNOW!! I'm so embarrassed, ok here it goes. As soon as the parents had gone and the kids were in bed, I couldn't resist what they had in the house. …

A one time situation turned into a long 3 year battle Not rated yet
You can probably take a guess on how all of this got started. And you are probably correct. I was a person who always struggled with my weight. From when …

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Ohh how I hate bulimia, but i let her run my life anyway.... Not rated yet
So Ive been bulimic since i was 15, seven years later I'm 22 and still doing the same pointless routine. Why? Why you ask......honestly you would think …

Relapse again and you'll die.  Not rated yet
"relapse again and you'll die". Thats what the Dr's told me (many of them) told me in my third admission to rehab abroad. I'm British and I had been sent …

Dear my worst enemy. Yes that's you Mia! Not rated yet
Dear Mia, I can honestly say that i hate you. I hate you so much..the highest amount of hate possible. Why? Ha, I could go on and on about why. You …

I ate so I won't be eating dinner tonight, Mom. Not rated yet
I'm only 18, but I've been throwing up for a very long time. I had it very bad in 8th grade and then got much better, but started back up three years ago …

My Bulimia Relapse: Time to say it out loud Not rated yet
Hello! My name is Sarah. I am a university student studying nursing and Spanish. Eating disorders have been a part of my life since I was 12 and I am now …

Portrait of a Bulimic Not rated yet
Bulimia takes all the worst parts of me, brings them together, and magnifies them. She even takes things that are healthy and normal and twists them for …

Scoping out the place Not rated yet
Hey, im a 27 year old female that has been bulimic since I was 16. I can remember the first time; I had drank too much the night before and ate a lovely …

Everyone thinks I'm recovered, while in fact I'm not even close. Not rated yet
Even the thought of writing something down is putting my heart on overdrive. I'm embarrassed by the disgusting things I'm doing to myself, while everyone …

Avalanche Not rated yet
I know there is a mixture of things that cause bulimia. Childhood traumas, the availability of unhealthy junk foods everywhere you look, and poor self …

My struggle with ED and self harm... Not rated yet
I have been self harming since I can remember back to when I was around eleven possibly younger. It started out small, pinching, bruises, bites, and eventually …

Places to hide my puke Not rated yet
I was a full blown bulimic by the time I was 18 years old. My mother suspected that I was purging after my binges so she began to follow me to the bathroom …

This is my bulimia Story Not rated yet
Well, what can I say? i guess this started when i was 14 The main influence was my dad, he always wanted me to loose weight even though i wasn't fat …

I'm So Sneaky It's Disgusting. Not rated yet
When I sit here and think about what I do every single day, it makes me sick with shame and guilt. But one thing is for sure, I am like top class sneaky. …

Falling Apart From the Inside Out Not rated yet
Hi, my name is Alex. I am 17 years old, and have suffered from bulimia and anorexia for 5 very long years. I don't really remember when I started to hate …

51 yrs old Bulimic - multi addict history. Aim to help others if i can Not rated yet
My story is long. So I will put it in short points. Always unhappy kid. No one in my family appeared to be happy with themselves. the family was fairly …

Day 1 of bulimia recovery Not rated yet
Today is the first day I feel like I want to end this terrible habit. I have had an eating disorder similar to anorexia but not as extreme, more like mildly …

Trying To Recover Desperately, I Am So Tired! Not rated yet
I don't know why it started. I doubt there was a reason. I was 14 when I started skipping meals here and there. It was no big deal. When I was 15 I had …

on my way to recovery. Not rated yet
so i told them. i told my parents. i actually did it in may. lets just say there was many tears and words and confusion. but i told them. i told my mom …

bulimia and what i called my life Not rated yet
i was once the most motivated kid on the planet. there was nothing i couldnt do. By the age of 13 i had already accomplished so many feats. I became sponsored …

My secret Not rated yet
It all started in the 9th grade, i remeber i was thinking and looking at my best friends that they are getting all the attention from the boys and i wanted …

eating disorders for 14 years - starting to recover Not rated yet
I started with anorexia when I was 14. I had just quit my competitive swimming career and was going through puberty. My father told me that I was getting …

Unbelievable..... Not rated yet
One of the biggest things w/ my bulimia is that I could never, never let anyone know! I can't believe when people can tell their boyfriend or husband or …

From fat girl to Prom queen Not rated yet
I was most ashamed of myself at the age of 14... My step father was abusive and my mother ignored me. My siblings were much younger than I so there were …

Life with bulimia Not rated yet
I'm 14 years old and I am bulimic. I remember the first time I made myself throw up. It was Thanksgiving 2010, so just about seven or eight months ago …

I beat bulimia... So Can You Not rated yet
My bulimia started around the age of 12. I remember before it became serious I had two bulimic moments that I was able to just brush off my shoulders. …

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NOT OUT OF THE BUBBLE YET,,,,,CANT BREATHE,,,,BUT STRONGER Not rated yet
To look at me I am a very attractive (kim k !) lookalike so everyone tells me!!) , and would seem confident to you. I only really appreciated that in the …

It's Never Too Late to Stop the Waste Not rated yet
And by waste I mean waste. Waste of life, of time, of money, of food, of love, of caring, of knowing who you are and could be, rather than drowning it …

Teenage Bulimia - I recovered, and I know you can!  Not rated yet
I was a very heathly kid growing up, I was always known as a "twig" I was a tiny person, I loved my life, my friends and mostly my family, you would never …

I'm going to change Not rated yet
Every day, I binge and purge. Multiple times a day. Every day I tell myself that I am going to stop. This is my last and only chance. I cannot keep living …

I want to be loved and free of my bulimia... Not rated yet
I have been bulimic for 5 years this summer - at 20, thats a lot - 1/4 of my life... I hate who I have become and seem to link many of my disorder thoughts …

My Bulimia Story Not rated yet
My name is Wendy, from EatingDisorders411.com This is my bulimia story. As far back as I can remember, I was fat. Or at least I thought I was. My …

The Skinny Competition That Lead To Bulimia Not rated yet
Hi. It all started about 6 years ago I guess. I went away with my long time good friend. We were 13 and just getting to that age when we were trying …

Bulimic became my character....or so i thought. Not rated yet
Hello Shaye, (i dont really know if this webbie is still working, but i had decided to try to post my problem again and hopefully it can be shared and …

Start of bulimia recovery...5th time lucky hopefully!  Not rated yet
I am about to enter into rehab in one days time to hopefully finally beat this illness which wasted all of my teenage years and now in my early 20's. …

Bulimia - In The Bathtub  Not rated yet
It was about ten o clock, and I was throwing up my dinner into the toilet while the bath was running so i could clean myself afterwards and wash my hair. …

I don't want to do it but my I can't control my urges, my habit, my sickness. Bulimia. Not rated yet
I'm laying here on my living room couch typing this. So bloated because I just can't throw up anymore. I already did it twice today, twice yesterday, …

Starting bulimia... I Think? Not rated yet
Im thirteen, 5 foot 7 inches, and about 125 pounds. I am by far one of the heaviest people in my school, and it is not just from height. On of my best …

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