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I'd been bulimic for over 6 years. Unfortunately the awful bulimia purge was an everyday - even up to 15x a day - part of my life. I hated it - but had learnt to live with it.
Bulimia made my life so complicated. Things that should have been so simple took massive effort. My life revolved around binging and purging - and then creating lies to hide it...
That's why, 2 days before heading off on a romantic holiday to the Pacific Islands with my boyfriend Tom.... I was nervous.
Tom and I had been together for over a year... He knew me better than anyone - but he still didn't know my dark bulimia secret.
I think it was the nerves of having to hide my bulimia on holiday that triggered one of the biggest binges of my life...
Bulimia binge and bulimia purge 1 = 3 bowls of coco pops for breakfast
Bulimia binge and bulimia purge 2 = A whole loafs worth of toast with cheese
Bulimia binge and bulimia purge 3 = 28 Protein Bars!
Nope that isn't a joke... I ate 3 bowls of coco pops, a loaf of bread and 28 protein bars in the space of a few hours!
How did I do it?
I have no idea! I guess my brain switched off and I just ate, and ate, and ate.
You know what I mean... Don't you?
Once this massive binge was over and I'd thrown everything up... My brain flicked back on and I started to panic... What had I done!?
I had eaten over $100 worth of Tom's protein bars... Which he had bought specifically to eat when we were on holiday!
My mind was going a million miles an hour... What could I tell him?
I decided that I would pretend to pack them. Once we were in the Islands, I'd say they must have been stolen at the airport... Because they weren't in my bag.
I hated lying to Tom... But that's what bulimia makes you do.
The lie worked - and Tom believed me...
I guess he had no reason not to... I was the perfect girlfriend... With a dark bulimic secret :(
I've shared my bulimia purging story to help you realize you're not alone!
Please share your bulimia purging story to help others realize that they're not freaks!
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Article by Shaye Boddington
Author of your-bulimia-recovery.com
and creator of The Bulimia Recovery Program and Community