Bulimia is killing me inside and outside
I'm Nicole and heres my story...
I am 21 years old. I have hated my body since I was as young as 5 years old. I have never liked the way I looked. I started diets at the age of 11 on and off. I got down to my lowest weight when I was 15 years old. I was eating next to nothing and working out constantly I still hated the way I looked and I lost tons of friends. I have been bulimic for 3 years now.. It is the worst thing ever. I also exercise a lot too. I hate being bulimic but at the same time I cant stop the binge purge cycle. I am normal weight 5'3" X pounds but I go up and down X pounds all the time. I get soo stressed out and just feel like I need to binge and it gets out of hand. Even when I weigh a lot and am disgusted i still turn to binging/purging for some reason when I know that its just destroying my body and making me moredepressed. I can't workout to relieve stress either cause working out stresses me out because I have to workout for at least three hours a day. ahhhh I just want to be a normal person that can eat normally and not think about it.... I cant live like this. Does anyone feel this way or have advice?!!?
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