Bulimia, Family, Friends and Exam stress
by Savana Brooks
I am 18 years old and have been bulimic for 4 years. I have kept it a secret for a very long time but recently told my closest friends which lead to telling my high school counselor, the school principle who then went on to tell my dad... disaster! My parents are divorced and I do not live with my mother, in situations like this I just really wish I had a mom close by to talk to because although I love my dad very much and I know he means well.. fathers just don't seem to understand.
I have been on a road of recovery, mainly because of the support of my friends. I didn't binge/purge for over a month but the weight gain freaked me out and I recently started purging again. I have my final exams in less than a week and the stress is really not helping. I really want to continue purging or start restricting again as I want to lose this weight before graduation but I made a promise to my best friends and I really don't want to disappoint them again. I don't know what to do, I just can't bare the weight gain and feel so insecure everyday, I can't look at myself in the mirror. Also living in Asia I feel like there is so much pressure to be thin and it seems to be okay here for people to call you fat which is really not helping at this point, my self esteem is going down the drain.
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