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My Anorexia Bulimia Story: At 8 years old, I Purged for the first time...

My anorexia bulimia story started when I was just 8 years old... It continued on and off for many years... But, when I was 15... something caused it to spiral out of control...

I'd just started my springboard diving training under a new and very strict Chinese coach - I'll call him Chan here...

Chan was a Chinese ex olympian and he was used to tiny Asian diver bodies...

Even though us New Zealand divers were slim - to him we looked out of shape.

During my first training session, Chan told me I needed to lose 10 kg's (22 pounds).

As he said those words, my mind went fuzzy. I felt flushed, embarrassed and instantly ashamed of my body. I wanted to run and grab a towel to cover up.

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I was told to lose 10 kg's:
My anorexia bulimia story
spiraled out of control!

With those words, in my mind, I suddenly became fat.

The truth was, I was in no way out of shape... In fact, my body had always received compliments in the past...

But that didn't matter. What mattered is that Chan thought I was fat.

I needed to please him - and would do whatever it took.

After all - he was my best bet for Olympic glory.

 

 

Losing Those 10 kg's... And my sanity

That night I went home and drew up a strict eating plan. I then purchased a calorie counting book and allowed myself to eat only 500 calories a day.

I also made the decision that I'd try throw up everything I ate...

So, as you can imagine, the weight quickly began to fall off.

A week later Chan weighed me. My heart was pounding and I felt sick to my stomach. What if he wasn't happy with my results?

I'd lost 1 kg.

Chan was happy with my progress which made me even more motivated to lose weight...

The weeks passed and each week I lost at least 1 kg. With all the dieting and purging, my weight dropped dangerously low...

But weight wasn't the only thing I was losing... My energy and strength were going too. At diving training I didn't have the energy to do any of my big dives...

People started getting concerned.

I was taken to therapy - but denied anything was wrong.

 

Anorexia to Bulimia and compulsive eating...

Gradually, I began to gain a little weight and my body settled. People were satisfied that I'd recovered and they got off my case...

What they didn't know was that although I was eating in front of them - I was bingeing and throwing up whenever I could too.

I had fallen into the exhausting cycle of compulsive eating.

My life now revolved around getting food - and then getting it out of me.

Every morning after training, I would buy 1/2 a kg of sweets, a packet of biscuits and a big fizzy drink for the walk to school. I'd eat everything on the way there - and then throw up before class. The cycle of uncontrollable eating would continue throughout the day...

My friends always commented on how lucky I was to be able to eat so much and stay slim... I told them it was because I trained 5 hours a day and burnt it off.

 

Giving Up My Dreams Of Olympic Glory...

Bulimia had messed so badly with my body and mind that by the age of 17, I had nothing left to give. I gave up diving and laid to rest my dreams of going to the Olympics.

Losing that weight for Chan got me nowhere!

 

My Adult Anorexia bulimia story...

When I reached 20 years old, bulimia was worse than ever. I'd been suffering from eating disorders for over 1/2 my life and I didn't know how to stop.

I could feel that my body was on the verge of giving up... Bulimia had stripped me of vital electrolyte and nutrients that I needed to be healthy.

My heartbeat was irregular, I'd get severe chest pains, my teeth were rotting away and I couldn't even lie down without food sliding out my throat.

Bulimia was killing me - but I was only 20 and didn't want to die!

So... I decided for the first time in my life to share my story.

I'd hidden my illness for this long and it was time to talk.

 

Finally Speaking Out About My Anorexia Bulimia Story...

I took the plunge and booked a session with a counselor - her name was Amanda...

Sharing my anorexia bulimia story with Amanda was the significant turning point in my battle with eating disorders.

I told her everything - from my early battles with anorexia and bulimia to my current compulsive eating and purging...

I told her that I was absolutely and utterly obsessed with food... It controlled my thoughts and everything in my life.

Amanda sat and listened. Every now and then she would ask a question... But, never once did she judge me.

In Amanda's eyes I was just a normal person... who needed help with a problem.

Gradually, through sharing my story and practicing self help techniques that I'd discovered or that Amanda had taught me - I began to notice changes.

It had taken many months of hard work, but I'd gone from throwing up over 15 times a day - to throwing up just once a day.

After 1 year of working on recovery, my bulimia and anorexia demons were a thing of the past.

I was healthy, happy and most importantly - I was 100% bulimia free!

I would never have imagined that something as simple as sharing my anorexia bulimia story could have been the start of my eating disorder recovery! It was the first step to releasing the shame that was keeping me trapped in the prison of bulimia.

Opening up and sharing your story is an essential step in recovering... Share your story below to release some of that shame :)

 

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Do whatever it takes to reach recovery - I promise you are worth the effort! :)

 

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Article by Shaye Boddington
Author of your-bulimia-recovery.com
and creator of The Bulimia Recovery Program and Community


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