Anorexia and Bulimia at just 11 years old
My anorexia and bulimia story started when I was 11 years old.
My classmate told me that I was getting boobs and that I was getting like a grown up...
I dunno why but this triggered fear in my head. I didn't want to grow up - I wanted to be like peter pan and stay a kid forever! Being grown up meant that I couldn't be silly any more... I could play games with my friends... Being grown up meant my life would change - and I didn't want that.
So I thought if I stopped eating my boobs would lose weight and go away. I guess my thinking was kind of right...
I embarked on a strict diet of only healthy foods.
I got a bot of praise from my family as they thought I was doing good things for my body. They didn't realize the truth behind why I was eating healthily.
Over the months the healthy eating turned into less and less eating full stop.
My boobs had entirely gone away (even though they were just like bee stings to begin with!!!) and so had every other ounce of fat on my body.
It wasn't until I was changing in front of my mother that she gasped at how thin I'd become.
She suddenly put two and two together and realized I had an eating disorder. At 11 years old I was anorexic.
I was actually quite glad when mom started making me eat again. I was sick of being hungry...
But I was still worried about getting my boobs back.
So I decided I would try vomit after I ate. I had seen it on TV once.
It worked quite well. So I made a habit out of it.
I put on a bit of weight - but not much... It was enough so that everyone got off my case.
This habit of bulimia carried on for another 5 or more years until a few months ago when mom snapped me. She was so upset. I told her I'd been doing it for years a few times a week.
I promised her that I would stop - so have been going to the school counselor and I have been much better.
All that over being afraid to get big boobs - which now I really want haha!
Aren't human beings screwd up?
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