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Recovery Newsletter 55 - 35 Weeks Pregnant with Hyperemesis Gravidarum
August 25, 2014
Wow, it has been a long, long time since I wrote! This isn't because I haven't wanted to - it's because I have been so sick for the past 8 months…
In January, my husband and I found out we were expecting our first little baby! I was nervous, excited and everything in-between :) I started getting suspicious that I was growing a little bubba because I wasn't feeling too well. At this point, I would have been about 3 weeks pregnant…
By the time I was 6 weeks pregnant I was vomiting constantly and had severe nausea that would last all day and all night. For weeks, I just lay in bed 24/7 accepting the suffering and thinking it was 'normal pregnancy sickness' but by the time I was 10 weeks pregnant, I was scared to be left alone because I felt like I was dying. It was at this point that I went to my doctor and I was diagnosed with Hyperemesis Gravidarum. Hyperemesis Gravidarum is severe pregnancy induced sickness that requires the same drugs used by chemotherapy patients to control such severe vomiting. Hyperemesis is something that I had never heard of and something that I definitely didn't think could happen to me!
I kept hoping that the nausea and vomiting would go away by week 12 (that's when normal morning sickness usually eases up) - but it didn't. Then I'd hope it would go away by week 16 - it didn't. week 20, still there… and on and on it went.
There were a few days here and there where I did feel a bit better and so I would try go off my medication - but that always ended with a trip back to the doctor to get checked for dehydration from excessive vomiting.
Anyway, here I am at 35.5 weeks pregnant! Thankfully, the last 10 days have been the best of my pregnancy… Only mild nausea and only a few vomiting episodes. I am starting to feel little sparkles of my old self coming back and it's such relief!
Over the last 8 months, I've wanted so badly to keep in touch and to help and support you - but my life has felt like pure survival. I've just been doing what I've had to do to get by. If anybody reading this has suffered from Hyperemesis Gravidarum, you will understand.
I am so grateful that all the members of The Bulimia Recovery Program have been patient and supportive of me. I'm sorry I'm not able to offer the support in the community as I normally do - but it's wonderful to see you all supporting each other when I do log in… Thank you for being so amazing and helpful to one another! I have joined a site that has a support forum for women with hyperemesis and so I realise more than ever how valuable getting support from people who understand truly is!
I am looking forward to my little monkey arriving and getting back into a routine of supporting you all each day! Apparently Hyperemesis Gravidarum ends as soon as the placenta is delivered, so that should be about 5 weeks away (plus a week or two to adjust to having a newborn!).
Well, I just wanted to drop you a line and finally explain my disappearance!!!
I also wanted to share that this experience has taught me (or at least reminded me) the value of having a healthy body and mind. When we are sick, life is hard. When we are suffering, life lacks that sparkle. It's the same with any illness, disorder, addiction… including bulimia. You deserve to have a life that sparkles and so I hope you continue to push forward with your recovery… Keep looking for your answers. Reach out for help. Know that you deserve to do whatever it takes to regain your health.
Life can be so beautiful, and we all deserve that.
SO much love,
The Bulimia Recovery
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