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Bulimia Recovery #5 - Break The Habit Of Your Binge Purge Cycles...
March 03, 2011
Hi,

Last month I talked about the importance of using structured eating to help reduce binge urges... This is a technique which helped me beat bulimia 5 years ago - and has been the foundation of so many other successful recoveries. I'd like to make a special point of Val, a wonderful and strong woman who often shares her thoughts and experiences on my site...

Val suffered from bulimia for 25 years - which is a big chunk of her life... Recently, Val has made a massive positive step towards her recovery - she began using structured eating daily - and is now over 1 month binge/purge free... I'm so excited for her because I know what a wonderful journey lies ahead!

Despite using structured eating, many people still struggle with mindless bingeing during the early stages of recovery...

You know, that 'robot-like' mode that switches on and next thing you're in the kitchen, eating everything you can get your hands on... I remember it like it was yesterday!

In this newsletter, I'd like to share a tip on how I broke the habit of bingeing and purging - and how you can break it too...



How You Can Break The Habit Of The Binge/Purge Cycle...

Being in the grip of the binge and purge cycle is like being stuck in a fog or daze. I remember feeling like I wasn't quite 'there' when I was in this fog. I felt like a robot - pre-programmed to binge and purge no matter what...

One minute I'd be surfing the internet and the next minute I'd be plowing through the pantry... This was followed by the inevitable head in the toilet, trying desperately to get every last bit of food out of me...

After the first few seconds of eating, I had switched off... I had turned into that unconscious robot...

BUT...

In every one of my binge and purge cycles, I had a series of smaller steps which did involve my conscious decisions... In other words, I knew exactly what I was doing - and I made the choice to do it...

 

For example, when I used to act on my urges to binge and purge, my conscious decisions would go something like this...

1) Get off my computer chair

2) Look around the house to make sure nobody is home

3) Go to the kitchen

4) Open the pantry

5) Grab the bread

6) Put 4 pieces in the toaster

7) Open the fridge

8) Grab the butter

9) Spread 2 sandwiches to eat while other bread is toasting

10) Eat sandwiches

11) Get toast

12) Spread toast

13) Eat toast

14) Go to bathroom

15) Bend over the toilet

16) Vomit

17) Drink some water

18) Vomit again

 

As you can see from the cycle above, I had 18 steps where I made conscious decisions. Yes, the bingeing may have become mindless - but leading up to the bingeing and at stages throughout and after the bingeing, I did 'snap back' to reality.

It is at these steps that you have the power to act!

To say a big loud "NO" to bulimia!

At any stage between 1 and 18 - I had the chance to interrupt my cycle...

I remember when I first began working on my recovery - I would repeat steps 1-4 over and over again... Bingeing was such habit.

It was normally at step 4 that I'd remember I had the power to make a conscious decision to stop... I'd slam the pantry closed and say a big load "NO" and "I choose recovery!"

Remember you can break the cycle at any point - be it 1,2,3,4,5... or even 17!

Just because you start the binge/purge cycle doesn't mean that you have to finish it... It can be interrupted at any time!

Just because you have started to binge and have eaten 2 pieces of bread - doesn't mean you can't yell "NO! I choose recovery"

Just because you have binged and purged once already today - doesn't mean that you can't yell "NO" when you have the urge to do it again!

Once you've consciously decided to yell "NO!"... Distract yourself.. Run outside and breathe in the fresh air... Grab your music... Call a friend... Run down the street naked if you need to!!! Just do whatever it takes to get yourself out of the cycle!

Every single time you do this, you're 're-programming' your brain to become a normal eater...

 

Now, grab a paper and pen because I've got a challenge for you...

Think about the last binge/purge cycle you had...

On one side of the paper, break your binge/purge cycle down into smaller steps - just like I did above...

On the other side write an activity beside each step, which you could have used to distract yourself and prevent the cycle from continuing....

Fold this paper up and keep it in your pocket to pull out when you next start the cycle...

Each little "NO" might seem like an almost insignificant step... But, these little steps add up to become massive strides towards your recovery...


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Whatever happens in your day to day life - and in your recovery journey - never be hard on yourself... Treat yourself with love and respect...

Talk to yourself kindly... The way you would talk to somebody you love if they were in the same situation...

Wishing you all the happiness, health and recovery vibes in the world...

xox Shaye

P.S. Over the past month so many brave women have shared their bulimia stories on my site... Click here to share your story too... I love reading them and I know others gain inspiration from them too...

P.P.S. To help keep bulimia a strong focus in your life, I've decided to make my monthly newsletter a bi-monthly newsletter... Meaning that twice a month I'll write to you with helpful tips and updates! I already know what I'm going to write about in my next message - and I can't wait to share it!

P.P.P.S. Bulimia Recovery... Imagine it... Feel it... Get excited about it... Because YOU can have it! I swear.

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